Niko & Dom - A Bedspacers Romance (SSPG - COMPLETE)

Chapter 5.1

NANATILI LANG  sa loob ng cabinet ko ang condom at lube na nabili ko for the next several days. After that night na nabosohan ko sina Niko at Cherryl with Niko’s knowledge and then nothing changes on how he treats me the following afternoon, I finally decided to let it go.

Inaamin ko I was affected very much. During the next few nights I was thinking much about it. Gusto ko pa ngang pagsisihan ang nangyari sa amin ni Niko nang umagang iyon. Gusto ko ang nangyari in a sex-motivated way but not in a strange way like this. Not in a way that I found out I have these feelings for him and then let it happen and then now sa kaniya it was a one-time thing dahil available siya habang ako bigla lang umasa that what happened could be a start of something else, more than a blowjob and jerking.

Kaya hindi ko na rin inulit ang pamboboso. Not now that I can’t stand seeing Niko with Cherryl especially in sexual way anymore. Balik na lang ulit sa dati, linis ng bahay, eskwela at balik ulit sa bahay, gawa ng assigments at tulog.

Sa umaga I see to it na puro paglilinis lang ang gagawin ko especially sa room nina Niko. Kahit gusto kong hawakan at idikit sa ilong ang kaniyang mga pinagbihisang damit just to have a scent of him pero hindi ko ginawa. Hey, hindi naman ako masokista to hurt myself from doing such things.

Sa hapon, simpleng tango lang at wave lang ng kamay sa tuwing makikita ko sina Cherryl at Niko. But I don’t know if I’m just imagining things as most of the time whenever my eyes met with Niko I felt sadness creeping his face, parang may gusto siyang sabihin sa akin pero hindi naman niya masabi.

Sa gabi, naisip kong kausapin siya pagkaalis ni Cherryl pero paano kung imahinasyon ko lang pala na me gusto siyang sabihin? Kung meron man, paano kung ang sasabihin pala niya is to ask me to shut my mouth about what happened to us that morning and keep it our own little secret? Paano kung sabihin niya na ang nangyari ay gawa lang ng libog at it should have never happened?

So to shield myself, I just stayed the inside our room every night. Dahil alam kong once I get near him and he ignites within me this passionate feeling, I doubt if I could ever say no anoman ang hingin niya. Na ayaw kong mangyari because I don’t want him to cheat with his girlfriend. Maybe the first time I let it happened because I assumed wala na sila, but not now. Kahit init lang ng katawan para sa kaniya iyong nangyari, kahit wala lang because he is totally straight.

Pero kahit siguro anong iwas ko to face my fear, which now is facing Niko, mangyayari at mangyayari din. Nasa akin na lang siguro how I will I react if ever. Will I run away or will I gain enough strength to face it?

A dreary morning exactly eight days later, habang nagwawalis ako sa loob ng room nila Niko when I found something underneath his bed. İpinasok ko ang walis sa ilalim ng parteng uluhan ng kama at paghila ko sumunod ang isang magazine.

I suspect it to be a straight porn magazine kaya napa-‘O’ ang aking mga labi nang pagbuklat ko ay hindi pala. Holy fuck! It was a gay porn magazine!

But wait! Double deck ito, si Niko sa ibaba at si Jim na classmate niya ang nasa taas. Pwedeng isa sa kanila ang may-ari ng porn magazine. Pero kung kay Jim ito at pagkatapos magparaos ay mabitawan, hindi ba dapat mahulog ito sa deck ni Niko? O dapat mapansin ni Niko?

Bubuksan ko pa sana ang magazine nang marinig kong bumukas ang pinto ng main door. Out of panic, isinilid ko sa ilalim ng mattress ni Niko ang magazine and continue sweeping the floor when İ heard the room’s door opened.

“Hey!” bati ni Niko.

I turn around and get up on my feet. Tumingin ako sa mukha niyang nakangiti. Unlike last week, well kept ang uniform niya with the same shiny shoes but now without the bag. Mas humaba na ngayon an inch ang semi kalbong buhok. Fuck! He is sexually handsome.