Wonderwall (Zayn Malik)

Caraphernelia

Alice's POV

I exited my house, having now clue what to do. I checked the time. I had almost an hour but I don't think that it's enough.

I started running at a random direction, bumping on clueless people that were looking down on me, hoping that I will find a cub, and, fortunately, I did.

"To the National Airport, please." I told him and he nodded.

"As fast as you can." I added and I sighed.

I didn't know what to think. I'm trying to think what I'll tell him when I see him but I don't think I can explain it with words. But inside of me it feels as if everything has fallen apart. The only feeling I have was hope. Hope that I will make it on time. Hope that I will make him stay. Hope that we'll be together like we used to be. Hope that it's going to be alright. But most of the times hope isn't enough.

My heart was beating so fast I thought I would pass out in any second. My lungs were out of oxygen and my mind was full of bad thoughts. Ironic, isn't it? A month ago I kept wishing that I would never see him again in my entire life but in reality he's the only person I want to be able to see every day for the rest of my life. When I learned that leaving I had ran out of life.

He is my hope. And I would do anything in order not to loose my hope.

"We're here." The taxi driver announced. I searched into my pockets in order to gather up money but I don't think they were enough.

"Um...I...I don't have enough money." I said hesitantly as I hadn't him the small amount that I had gathered. I checked the time. Oh God, I only have 6 minutes.

"What?" He said.

"I don't have more money to pay you. But listen. My person is in this airport and he's about to leave, forever. You wouldn't let your person run away, would you? I mean if you were me you would expect the same from the taxi driver. Please, I will pay you the double amount of money later, but now I have to go. And I promise, I will give you whatever you want just give me some time." I said and it seemed to be working.

"Okay, listen. As soon as you finish your job at the airport, I will be waiting outside and I will drive you to your house so you can pay me later. I'm not a bad person and you seem to be telling the truth." He said and I smiled relieved.

"Thank you. Thank you so much." I said and I started running again.

I got lost. I have no clue were I am and were I am supposed to go. I was scanning the place in case I see the tall black-haired boy that had messed up my life in the most fucked up beautiful way. But he was nowhere to be found.

It felt like I was in slow motion while everything else was moving abnormaly fast. But I think it's too late now. The six minutes that had remained had passed a long time ago. His plane had probably left, and so did my life. But I don't feel like giving up now. I don't feel like everything's over.

"Alice?" I heard a familiar voice calling my name. I turned around to see who it was. It was him. My heart fluttered when my eyes met his.

"Zayn? Didn't you leave?" I asked.

"No, my fight was delayed due to bad weather in Berlin. What are you doing here?" He said.

"I guess I'm trying to stop you from leaving."

"Alice I-"

"You know, when I learned that you're leaving I remembered a lesson I had in Biology. Did you know that every cell in the human body regenerates every 7 years? That means that, just like snakes, we change our skin. So if you leave now, in 7 years it will be like you haven't even touched me." I said.

"Don't make this any harder, please."

"Why are you leaving, Zayn?" I asked him and he ran his hand through his hair, making them messier than before.

"Because I want to study. You know how much I love music and that's my dream. I want to work, and be independent, and even help my family. I want to take my life in my hands. I want to move on." He said.

"From me?"

"From everything. And if everything includes you, too, then yes." He explained while I was slowly dying inside.

"You said you wouldn't leave me, why are you doing this now?"

"I want to forget Alice! I want to be like my old self again! I want to remember how it feels to be able to breath when you're away. You made me fall in love with you and now I'm addicted. I can't survive when you're not with me."

"But I'm here now." I said and tears started rolling down my cheeks.

"I need time, Alice!" He shouted, making people turn to face him, which made me feel embarrassed. "When you needed time, I gave it to you. I left you alone. I didn't see you for three months, and even though I was dying, I respected te fact that you needed time and I left you alone. Why can't you accept that?"

"Because I love you. And I can't just stop loving you when you're all I can think about. Just like you said, I can't breath when you're away." I said while crying, but he didn't seem to be affected by that. Other times he would hug me and tell me it's going to be alright but now it seems like I lost him.

"We'll be fine. You'll be fine. You will finish your school, you will study whatever you want, you will keep training just like you always had, you will hang out with your friends, you will find another guy and you'll forget me."

"I don't want to forget you!" I shouted.

"You have to." He whispered in contrast with me.

"You can't just throw me away like I never meant anything to you." I cried.

"You meant a lot to me. You still do."

"Then stay here!" I said but a loud noice coming from the megaphones interrupted me.

"Attention please, the attendants of flight 255 from London to Berlin should attend the lines so their tickets can be checked..."

"I..um..I have to go." Zayn said uncomfortably.

"No..." I whispered while my world was collapsing.

"Take care." He said and he left without even looking at me. Everything else was fading away. The only thing I could see was him getting away from me. I suddenly forgot how to breath.

"Zayn!" I shouted and he turned to face me. He came a few steps closer to me so he could listen what I was going to say.

"You're still my wonderwall, even if I stopped being yours."

A/N: Hi! At first I was thinking to end it here but I don't want my story to have a sad ending, so there's gonna be one more small chaper that I'm going to upload tomorrow. I hope you liked it! The song of the chapter is Caraphernelia by Pierce The Veil.

Catherine x