Kill me softly - Minsung

Chapter 11

Lee Know had started a fire in Jisung, it was as simple as that. And it wouldn't sweep off. He felt warm and fuzzy as he sat in the bus on his way home . It lasted all the way to his apartment and as he unlocked the door, the usually cold handle didn't even bother him.

He let the grocery bag fall onto the counter and took a deep breath. It felt like it was the first real one he took since Lee Know left. Probably because he was afraid that through breathing in, he'd stir the fire even more and his insides would burn.

Jisung quickly checked his phone that he had placed next to the bag on the counter. Nothing. Jisung had texted Lee Know. A lousy "This is Jisung. I hope you got home safely without making more people in this city not exactly liking you.", was everything he got out of deleting the text 4 times, rewriting it 5 times and considering not writing at all 2 times. Now he cringed at it and quickly shut his screen off.

It took Jisung about 5 minutes to store the groceries away, but he felt the tiredness creeping up his spine. A glance over to the digital clock display on their oven which was the only thing that illuminated the kitchen told Jisung that it was 4:56 am already.

The night sky still fought against the light of the sun but you could see that it got tired of fighting and it's soldiers were on their last breath as the stars began to fade into the sky. From 5 am on it got light outside again. Jisung knew that. Sometimes he couldn't sleep, thoughts keeping him up. Sometimes they were up working until 5 am. But more often Chan couldn't sleep and Jisung wouldn't let one of his best friends sit around during the night all by himself. More importantly all to himself.

As the light-haired male went to his bedroom he passed the living room and saw that Felix, Seungmin and Changbin were plastered across it which probably meant that Jeongin and Chan were either sleeping in Chan's room (which was probably the case) or that they spread across the free rooms.

But as he stepped into his own room it was empty. Quite thankfully, Jisung took off his shirt and pants and slipped into bed. He reached over for his phone the last time as he saw it blinking. It was a text from Lee Know. It made his smile even brighter and at the same time, the fire spread even more. Not in a wild way but in a comfortable, a warming way. But Jisung didn't read nor answer the text, he was too tired. He just enjoyed the warmth in him and let himself fall into the comfortable darkness.

It was 10 am and Jisung felt like he got run over. Which was weird, there were nights in which he slept even less. He just wanted to go back to bed but he forced himself into getting up. They had a dance class at 11 am and he really couldn't miss it.

Their apartment was as quiet as it was when Jisung came home yesterday, late in the night – or early in the morning, see it as you will – and that was weird to Jisung. With 5 crackheads like them, their apartment was almost never silent.

He went over to the kitchen and the only person who sat on the black couch was Seungmin who looked down at his phone.

"Good morning.", he mumbled as Jisung passed him. "Morning.", was all that Jisung returned. He needed coffee. Like a whole gallon of it.

"What took you so long to get back? I really wanted my strawberries.", Seungmin pouted and made his way over to the kitchen where he sat down on one of the bar stools, watching as Jisung poured coffee into his second mug.

"I see that you enjoyed them really much.", Jisung pointed to the sink in which the empty plastic container laid. Seungmin just huffed.

"I didn't enjoy a single one of them. Changbin, Felix and Jeongin ate them all.", Jisung smiled and secretly praised them in his head.

"Don't you think 3 mugs of coffee is enough...?", Seungmin asked and rose an eyebrow. Jisung didn't answer but looked him straight in the eyes as he chugged the first mug of black coffee as a whole.

"I don't know whether to be disgusted or impressed.", judging by the look on his face, Seungmin was definitely disgusted.

"Be impressed.", Jisung stated and grabbed another mug.

"Anyways. Is there a reason you came back so late yesterday?", Yes, the reason is a beautiful guy with the greatest eyes and prettiest lips ever with whom Jisung texted just a few minutes ago.

"First tell me where everywhere is.", Jisung was almost finished with his second mug and he leaned against the counter to face Seungmin.

"They are already at the dancing studio. They wanted to practice a little before the actual class starts.", Jisung huffed. "Always these overly motivated people.", usual dance practice was exhausting enough.

"I think it's us as a team, together. We all are really empowering each other.", Seungmin said and tilted his head a little. He was probably right, they had really good chemistry which Jisung sometimes couldn't see cause his mind would tell him that he didn't deserve them. Like, that he's an awful friend and they'd be better without him.

It was complete bullshit and unfair against them and Jisung, he knew that but he couldn't help to think like that.

"So, tell me now.", Seungmin spun to the left and right in his stool but kept his gaze on Jisung.

"Seungmin I met someone.", Jisung looked down at the mug he was holding. Seungmin's eyes widened.

"Oh really?", Seungmin had stopped his spinning now but Jisung only glanced up shortly before he glued his eyes to his mug again.

"Mhm. And we met again at the store and then we just kind of went on a little walk together.", it sounded so sappy. Jisung gulped the last bit of the dark brown liquid down his throat and placed the mug into the sink.

"Really? Who is it?", Jisung grabbed the edges of the sink tighter. Why did people always talk about "the coming out"? The truth is, you have to come out again and again, over and over. He swallowed.

"A guy. His name is Lee Know.", Jisung turned around, not knowing what he would see in the older's expression.

"Oh, I kind of figured. Is it the guy who's texting you right now? You have 3 unread messages.", Seungmin bluntly said, Jisung's phone in his hands.

"Ah, Seungmin! Don't read my freaking messages!", Jisung yanked forwards to grab his phone but Seungmin was quicker and took a few steps back. The counter between them, Jisung basically hanging over it.

"Why shouldn't I?", he smiled teasingly and, if looks could kill, he would've been dead by now.

"Give me my fucking phone back.", Jisung wasn't here to play any damn games. Seungmin just laughed but suddenly was very quick to run away as Jisung yanked himself over the counter. "Oh shit!", Seungmin shouted as Jisung raced after him.

Jisung soon tackled Seungmin down and got his phone back, already annoyed at the amount of sport he had to do at such an early time.

"Text your lover boy and get ready for dance practice.", Seungmin winked at Jisung before he slipped into the bathroom to freshen up a bit.

"He is not my lover boy!", Jisung shouted back but couldn't help to blush a little and smile.

"If you say so.", he heard Seungmin from the bathroom, not sounding a bit convinced.

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Hey guys!
I don't really know what to write here but I wanna write an authors note so yeah.
Thoughts on the book? Ways to improve? Feel free to tell me.

Also I changed Woojin to Seungmin here (i started this book before he left and the scandal happened). I originally didn't want to change it up but with this book getting more and more attention it just didn't sit right with me to let it stay like that.

Also; tell me about your bias in skz!
Mine are Jisung and Felix but also all of them ugh. How can one only have one bias?

Then, as always, take care and I'm out.