If Only She Knew

Chapter 52: Self Worth

[ this is jake btw ^^^^^]

Song of the chapter is autumn leaves by chris brown ft kendrick lamar 🙌🏼

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Mia's Point Of View

I grabbed my phone dialing Justin's number, he didn't answer i recalled him he didn't pick up again, i called Emma the phone rang but she didn't answer, i dialed Jake's number, it rang for a couple of seconds before he finally picked up

"Hey ma"

"I messed up" i sobbed "i fucking messed up"

"Hey slow down what's going on?" He asked "Why you crying?"

"I ruin everything I've always been good at ruining things" I cried out loud "I'm so fucking stupid how can i do this shit?"

"Mia tell me what's wrong babe! Where are you?"

"I'm still in Rome, God Ethan proposed to me and i told him we should break up!"

"What?" He questioned "I thought you wanted to marry him...?"

"Jake" i mumbled "I feel so remorseful why am i such a heartless bitch? i fucking hate myself"

"Fuck. Don't say that"

"What am I supposed to say?" I said walking to the bathroom "it's the fucking truth"

"Where is he?" He asked

"He left"

"Left where? Where are you?"

"Still at the restaurant" I cried placing my hand on my chest to catch my breath

"Fuck Amelia, calm down! Please!"

"I c-can't"

"Look at what you've done" I've heard a familiar voice say

I turned my head to the sides to see where the voice is coming from

"Oh sweet Mia, can't you see what you're doing?"

I swallowed the lump in my throat and shook my head

"Look at yourself Amelia, you're a mess, you've always done nothing but wreck yourself and everybody around you"

"Shut up" I yelled

"Mia are you listening to me? Who are you talking to?"

"Stop" i whimpered grabbed the side of my head in my hand as tears rolled down my cheeks "stop it"

"Baby what's going on?"

"She's back" I mumbled

"Who's back?" He questioned

"I'm going crazy J I'm losing my mind"

"Listen to me okay? Listen-"

Ethan's Point Of View

I paced back and forth in the hotel room, my heart beating so fast and I didn't know what to do. Where have I gone wrong? We've loved each other for years, she wanted this how come she wants to break up? Did she meet someone else? Is this why she's changed? Does she not love me anymore? I don't think that's it because she shows me the same love and affection as before

I threw the little box on the bed screaming before falling down to my knees and crying

My phone vibrated nonstop i pulled it out of my pocket to see Jake calling. I rolled my eyes declining the call of course she'd tell him