•Lost || Jikook

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Author Pov.

Jungkook stayed in the car to calm himself before walking inside his house to check on his kids, he felt really weak and vulnerable as he stared at his house, " I don't know what to say to them jiminie.. " Jungkook mumbled to himself as a tear fell down his cheek.

He got off the car and walked toward his house before ringing the bell, he was too tired to search for his own key that he decided to wait for someone to open the door for him, just as he started rubbing his face he heard the two boys arguing behind the door about who get to unlock the door for him.

After a struggle between both of them on unlocking the door taehyung opened the door for his friend who looked lifeless, " hey jungkook.. " taehyung said with a weak smile trying his best not to break down, " hey.. " jungkook said as he walked toward the living room.

" appa.. " minkook called jungkook as he tugged on his right leg from behind, " whats wrong minnie? " jungkook carried minkook in his arm as he sat down on the couch feeling extremely tired for not getting sleep.

" eomma.. " minkook mumbled worried for some reason, " are you a good boy minnie? " jungkook asked suddenly with a smile, the boy nodded as he buried his head on jungkook neck, " me too appa.. " kookmin pouted as he rested his two hands on jungkook left arm.

Jungkook smiled as he caressed his two boys hair, taehyung just stayed quiet while watching them from afar, " promise me you won't cry about what I tell you " jungkook said to the two boys, the two looked at each other before looking back at jungkook with glossy eyes, they just nodded in response.

Taehyung eyes widened worried that jungkook may really tell them about jimin condition, " jimin is busy.. he won't be able to come home for a while.. so you two have to behave while.. e..eomma is away " jungkook tried to finish his sentence without crying.. but failed.

The twins started crying watching their dad cry, " appa.. why are you crying " kookmin asked as his tears started to fall slowly, " don't cry.. jiminie eomma will be sad.. " jungkook chuckled as minkook wiped his tears along with kookmin's.

" it just I miss jiminie.. thats all " he smiled as he hugged both of them tightly, the two hugged him back while agreeing with him, taehyung in the other hand cried silently while looking at them.

Jungkook fell asleep while still holding his two kids tightly scared of letting them go, the two really wanted to go and play but being in their dad embrace was comforting that they fell asleep in his arms.

Jin called taehyung to check on jungkook and his kids, he knew if he called jungkook he will come running scared that something may have happened to jimin while he was away, so to avoid that taehyung was the best option for now.

" how is jimin right now hyung..? " taehyung whispered to his phone as he left the living room, " he is doing ok for now.. I am really scared.. hope he wakes up soon.. " jin said in a sad tone, " yeah.. me too.. I just watched jungkook telling the twins about jimin being away.. and they all cried till they fell asleep. " taehyung sighed as he finished his sentence while checking on the living room.

" he did? That good.. he didn't sleep much scared that jimin may wake up and he is not there. " jin said as his voice sounded a bit brighter to know that jungkook is resting even if it's for few minutes, " I am scared to carry minkook and kookmin to bed and wake him by mistake.. " taehyung sighed worriedly.

" just leave him like this, if you carry them he will wake up for sure " Jin said as the younger hummed, " taehyung I will call you later the doctor is here " he added as the boy nodded in understanding, " ok hyung.. " he said before hanging up on the older.

5 Hours Later.

Jungkook woke up when he felt someone struggling to escape from his arms, " kookie.. what are you doing? " jungkook asked as he let go of kookmin, " I am hungry.. " kookmin pouted, the older smiled as he carried minkook while walking toward the kitchen.

" jiminie! Kookie is hungry " jungkook smiled at kookmin as he held his hand tightly while walking toward the kitchen, " appa.. isn't eomma away.. " kookmin asked confused as the older smile vanished, the memories of jimin accident came back crashing in his mind again.

" are you ok jungkook? " taehyung asked as he walked out of the kitchen to see jungkook stunned, he was holding minkook while staring blankly at what just happened, " c..can you take minkook..? " jungkook said to taehyung giving him the younger before going to his house office.

Jungkook looked around as he remembered jimin condition after the accident, his tears started streaming down his face as the accident replayed in his head, " Stupid.. " jungkook mumbled to himself as he realized his husband current condition.

" I am really stupid.. " jungkook voice started to raise as he paced around his office trying to stop his tears from falling, " STUPID! " jungkook shouted before he took the vase on his table and threw it on the wall making it shatter to tiny pieces before walking slowly toward it.

" ah! " jungkook shouted again as he fell to his knees regretting telling jimin to go on a date that day, " if I was faster.. " jungkook said as he took one piece of the shattered glass from the floor, " I could have saved you.. " he said as he placed the pointy tip of the glass on his wrist ready to make a deep cut.

He pressed the glass into his flesh closing his eyes from the pain slowly pulling it down to make a straight cut but was stopped by taehyung, " WHAT THE FUCK JUNGKOOK!! ARE YOU CRAZY?! " taehyung shouted as he took the glass from jungkook hand trying to stop his bleeding hand.

" I deserve it.. if i- " taehyung slapped jungkook on the face leading him to stop talking, his eyes widened from the hard impact he felt on his cheek, his cheek developed a red hand print as taehyung glared at him.

" do you think jimin will be happy that you are being like this? If you kill yourself whose gonna take care of your kids? Jimin who still in the hospital who's gonna take care of him? He is not dead and you are already giving up on him! " taehyung shouted at jungkook.

" I am not giving up on him.. I am nothing without him.. I can't give up on him his everything to me " Jungkook said as his tears started to fall again, " then stop being weak jungkook.. its true you were there.. but that doesn't mean its your fault.. its the person who hit him fault. " taehyung said.

and with that jungkook remembered that he didn't do anything to the person who ran over jimin, he was to focused on his husband to realize how the accident happened, it was a hit and run accident but he was so lost with jimin to notice anyone around him.

" go take a shower you smell like dead animal " taehyung stood up with a serious expression, Jungkook looked up as he wiped his tears, " call yoongi tell him I am meeting him in the police station now. " the boy looked at him confused but nodded anyway as he watched him disappear through the door.

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Hope it makes more sense than the old ver..