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Opening the door puffs of smoke greeted. Running back down the drive way holding my nose coughing I hope to god that, that didn’t hurt my babies. “OMAR” I screamed. “What, what happened you hurt” he asked in a hurry running out the house. “No but open all the windows turn all the fans out and blow the house out I can’t be in there with that smoke.” I said. He looked at me curiously “why” he asked slowly. “I’m going to tell you now just do what I said.” I planned on telling my brother finally and filling him in. he came back out the house as I seen people opening windows and all the doors. When he was in front of me I said “come let’s go for a walk” my voice was soft and slow because I didn’t know how he would react to everything once I told him. So while we walked everything just poured out. Everything like how I really felt when it came to Anthony’s death how I had cried myself to sleep having to plan my best friends’ funeral, I told him about the talk I had with Anthony’s but I didn’t tell him what I said because I felt like it was personal and just between me and Anthony. When I came down to me being pregnant I looked at him out the corner of my eye to see him just nodding his head like he was really listening but I couldn’t see how he was feeling because he didn’t really have any emotions on his face. Then I told him about the twin and about the little girl I met. And at that part he had a little smile on his face but then it was gone when I got to the part about Jayden. When I finished I stopped walking and turned to look at him. We stood there in complete silence. I didn’t really know how to handle the silence because I had no idea if he was going to blow up or anything. “I will be having a visit with this Jayden dude and I think you should get the little girl fuck Jayden’s opinons and I’m happy for you about your twins” he said a small smile on his face. I just looked at him for a second and then jumped into his arms. And then with these damn hormones I burst into tears “promise what the fuck are you doing” Omar yelled jumping back like I was a disease. “I’m sorry it’s just these damn hormones they’re fucked up” I said and let a shaky laugh. “Well stop them the fuck” he said backing up so more. Omar was never good with crying, he couldn’t stand when I did it when I came to him when I was younger. “Ok I’m good now and I can’t work anymore I don’t want to put my babies in danger” I said resting my hand on my stomach lightly. “Yeah and call before you come I’ll blow the house out because I don’t want nothing to happen to my nieces or nephews” he said coming over and wrapping his arm around my shoulder as we started to walk back to the house. When we walked up the drive way I seen cedric jumping on spot “ promise” he yelled running up to me and picking me up. “I missed you so much” he said putting me back on my feet but no letting me go. “I seen you early cc” I said a little laugher slipping through my lips. “Wait why are you here you can’t be working” he said putting his hand on my stomach. “I’m not don’t worry” I said “oh so your sleeping over YES” he yelled running into the house “I’ll watch her Omar bye nobody bother us were having a sleep over” he yelled running up the stairs “good night everybody love you guys” I yelled down the stairs followed by laughter and a course of nights and love you too. The whole night cedric and I stayed up laughing and gossiping and being silly. I haven’t had that much fun since Anthony’s death and it felt good. That night we planned out that me cedric and Omar were going to finishes signing the papers I started last night at the hospital and we were going to take hope out. I didn’t worry about Jayden I loved him to death but right now thinking about him made me think of the phone call and that made me stress and stress isn’t good for my babies so I just let myself relax and not let worries ruin my night.
We skipped out on school and I sent a text to Danielle to know that I’m alright and not to worry that I was with Omar. She knew that if I’m with my brother that I was running away from my problem because whenever I needed help me always ended up going to Omar. Maybe because I knew he was close and that he wouldn’t turn me down but he was always my first option. Pulling out of thoughts as I seen the hospital come into view I looked back to see cedric bouncing in his seat with the biggest smile on his face I knew his cheeks were hurting. When we all piled out of the car and was walked in and to the receptionist table I seen Doctor Johnson standing there leaning against the counter sipping coffee reading over some papers. “Hey d j” I said with a bright smile on his face. “D j?” he asked raising an eyebrow. “Doctor Johnson duhhhh” I said and understanding crossed over his face as he let out an o sound nodding his head. “Well I would like to talk to you promise in my office” I nodded “can my brother and cedric come” I asked looked back at the boys behind me. “Sure of you want” he said and shot me a smile and turned around picking up his papers and placing them in a folder. “Well your being quiet today” when I looked at the receptionist I seen it was the same one from yesterday “that because you scare me lady” he whisper yelled and ran behind the doctor. I shook my head and said a polite good morning to her and walked to Omar and put my arms around his waist as we walked behind cedric and the doctor. When we got in the room and took a seat the doctor immediately started talking “ok well I’m going to put this in the easiest terms I can so there is no confusion. We ran some test on hope last night and earlier this morning and what we seen it what you could call a miracle because the progress she was making wasn’t so good and her health levels right now are off the charts. She didn’t have to be put on a breathing machine last night and usually in the mornings that’s when she’s at her weakest but she wasn’t this morning she was actually eating on her own. This is the best she’s been all year. We really did think it was going to be her last but after these changes she astonished us.” He acclaimed looking at some charts again. “Can I go see her?” I asked my voice just above a whisper lack of emotion. The doctor looked up to me “we still need to go over something promise like financially like she still needs to do more test who are going to pay for those.” He asked raising an eyebrow. “I am, money isn’t a problem for me everything financially you can talk to my accountant over there cedric and everything else you could talk to my brother but I need to go see.” I said and got up and walked out of the room not giving any of them a chance to respond. I don’t know why but I had this strong urge to go see her. When I walked into the room there was a lady standing there with her arms crossed and hope was crying. “Hope sweetie what’s wrong” I said already going by her side. “She’s being mean to me” she said sniffing and pointed a shaky hand to the lady. She was tall skinny and looked like she hasn’t eaten in day. “And who is this sweetie” I asked whipping her tears away “my mommy” she said outing her face to my chest and cried silently into it. When I looked up to the lady she had an ugly scowl on her face “why are you wasting your time on this pathetic child all she is, is a waste of air it’s not like she is going to be alive for long I’m just waiting for the time to hurry the hell up” she said looking at hope with disgust. To think I was mad when that girl called for Jayden claiming him right now I was livid. I laid hope on the bed and turned her to face the wall and walked in front of the suppose “mother” and shook my head and cocked my hand back and punched her in the face. She fell to the floor out cold. I couldn’t help but think of hope as mine and to have the women talk about her like that while hope was in the room sent me over edge. I walked back to the bed picked hope up and rested her head in the crook of my neck so she couldn’t see that disgrace of a mother and walked over her and out of the room. When I walked into the room I didn’t speak to anyone I took the papers out of cedric's hand signed everywhere that needed a signature and turned around to walk out of the room. “Y’all need to pick of that disgrace of a women off the floor and if I see her or hear that she talked about my child again I’ll kill her. Come on y’all lets go. I’ll bring back hope later to take her test and then I’m bringing her back home I’ll be damned if I let her stay in a hospital again.” with that said I held hope tighter and walked out of the room. I’ll never let anything bad happen to my babies or hope I promised silently.
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