Finding Yourself

chapter 45

I pushed open the door to the coffee shop and tied up my apron strings. Coming into work this morning was harder than I thought it would be with all the fuss Harry and Zayn were making. If I stayed at home moping around for any longer I'd go insane and probably smoke myself to oblivion. I have felt the need to start smoking more often again which is kind of annoying but it some what relaxes me and whatever makes me feel better these day, I need. Expecially with Zayn back at work now aswell.

The shop was relatively quiet until lunch time when all the impatient bussiness men and school girls came in. I rushed around back and forth from the counter to tables, juggling the cleaning and serving. It wasn't until things calmed down, I saw Harry sitting at a table at the back of the shop.

Mrs. B, the little old lady, was the only one in the shop now other than me and Harry so I called Harry over and stood outside the shop door before lighting my fifth cigarette of the day.

"I didn't know you was in, you should of told me."

"You were busy, I was just checking on you." He grinned.

"You should stop worrying about me." I smiled. "I can make a few coffees without breaking down."

"I know." He said rolling his eyes. "I just worry about you, I can't help it."

 "I know you do, but I'm fine."

He kissed the top of my head and smiled. "Plus, I get lonely without you."

"You've got Niall Louis and Liam." I chuckled.

"Yeah but I can't have sex with them." He smirked.

"Harry!" I laughed, swatting his arm. "Mrs B is in there!"

"This is practially porn for her then." He smirked kissing my lips. "I bet she hasn't got any for a while."

I swatted his arm again and laughed. "Are you coming back in or not?" I threw my cigarette on the ground and pushed open the door slightly.

"No, I'm gunna go see what the others are doing, I don't want to be a distraction for Mrs B." He grinned.

"Try not to have sex with them." I said with my eyebrows raised.

"I'll try." He winked, kissing my lips again. "Text me when you finish baby."

I wandered into the shop again and Mrs B was then leaving.

"He looks like he makes you very happy little Mel." She smiled.

"He does." I grinned.

She squeezed my hand before she left and waved at me when she got outside.

The rest of the day went painfully slow with hardly any more customers than when Harry left. I was just aimlessly walking around cleaning tables that didn't need to be cleaned. I decided to shut the shop early so I tucked in some chairs, threw my apron across the counter and locked the door. I lit yet another cigarette before climbing into my car and after what felt like an 100 hour day, it was now over.

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I threw my bag on the sofa and kicked off my shoes before pouring myself possibly the biggest glass of wine known to man.

I gulped half of it down and then my phone rang.

"I've just got in, are you alright?"

"Mel?"

I furrowed my brows and took the phone away from my ear to realise I was on the phone to Jack and not Harry.

"Oh, I thought it was Harry. What do you want Jack?"