i saw beau, kissing another girl.
"BEAU" i yelled sobbing
"i thought i told you it was over" he said
'but you said you loved me" i said
"so? just becuase i said it doesn't mean i actually do" he said
My knees started to weaken and i fell to the ground my heart just broke into a million pieces
Beau came over to me and picked me up and hugged me, i shot my eyes open. It was just a dream but beau actually hugged me.
"Beau im so sorry" i said sobbing wrapping my arms tightly around him, i saw sitting on his lap.
"don't be baby, it was bad dream, i'm right here and i'm not leaving i promise" he said which made me really calm down. But I felt like I had to do it i needed to.
"Beau?" I mummbled in his shoulder
"Yes baby?" He said
"I have to go to the bathroom" I said he let go of me I kissed his cheek and quietly cried my way to the bathroom. I opened the cabinet and for out my blade, I sat down with my back against the door and my knees bent on the floor, I made a fist avd did it I made more and more until I almost reached the inside if my elbow there was blood everywhere all over the floor all over my arm, I gasped in surprise because I didn't realize I cut this much, but when u did it it made me break down I was crying more and more
"Baby are you okay in there?" Beau asked from outside
"Yeah" I said trying to think of an excuse, I couldn't so I just stopped crying. I just wanted to be in beaus arms right now but I'm bleeding. I took a tissue and parted and put pressure on the cuts it hurt so I winced and moaned in pain
"Baby are you sure you're okay?" Beau asked from the other side of the door
"Yeah" I said
Once it stopped bleeding I grabbed my razor and did the other arm the same spot as the other, I screamed.
"That's it I'm coming in" Beau said aggressively trying to open the door but it was locked
"BEAU STOP I'M TAKING A SHOWER JUST GIVE ME A MINUTE" I almost yelled, I heard his footsteps back to the bed. I grabbed a tissue and patted it down and put pressure on that arm but I shut my mouth as tight as I could so I wouldn't make a noise, once it stopped I threw everything out even the razor I tied up the bag do no one would see even the razor I took the blades from. I took all my clothes off and stepped in the shower as I turned it on. The warm water ran along me I felt relaxed and calm no more crying.
When I was insides I put my clothes back on I spent about a half an hour in the bathroom it was 3:30 so we slept 12 hours. When I exited I remembered I had a short sleeve shirt on, I snuck over to my drawers, but then I felt arms around my waist pick me up and threw me on my bed. Beau hovered above me.
"You know I love you right?" He whispered
"Mhmm" I hummed nodding then he pecked my lips. He got off of hovering over me and went to the side of the bed and lied down, I got back up and went to my drawers
"You look fine come lay down" Beau said, I was too scared he would suspect something so I just listened to him. I grabbed the remote on my bed and turned the Tv on and sponge bob was on, Beau grabbed my waist and cuddled me so I did the same to him, he kissed kissed my head. I fell asleep in his arms.
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I woke up at 5AM and saw Beau getting changed he was in his underwear, I giggled a little but quietly so he didn't hear, I got up and walked over to him and wrapped my arms around his waist and rested my head on his shoulder , he turned around so I let go of him
