Beautiful pain; Andy Biersack

Louder than your love

Wide awake, we're at the gates
We never come home
We'd rather be, anyone else
But something inside of
The magazines that tell the world to act like things that are proud to just exist
We are living life alone
We're louder than your love
A stray atomic bomb
We're the engines giving out and we're the kids that scream our hearts out
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We spend the day hanging out with Andy's band. Everyone's so nice and funny. I really like them.
As we are driving home I get a call from an unknown number.
"Hello?" I ask
"Is this y/n?" A familiar voice asks
A daunting feeling overcomes me. I know who this is. I look over at Andy who looks over at me.
"Uh yeah. Why?" I ask
"It's Amy. Your mum?" She asks
"I know who you are," I say back
"We don't have a place to live. What did you do with our money?" She asks me
"It was all mine. I payed the bills as soon as I started working. I did everything for myself Amy,"
She doesn't say anything.
"We're your parents. Please," she says
I don't know what to do. I can't leave them outside but I can't help but think what they have done to me.
"Fine, only for a tiny bit and I swear no alcohol or drugs," I say
"Thank you, I love you," she says to me.
I tell her my address and hang up.
"What was that?" Andy asks me
"My parents are going to live with me for a bit," I say shakily
"Oh," is all he says
"Do you want to live with me?" He asks
"Thank you," I say back "I hate this town," I mumble
"Well I love you," he says, pulling into the flat buildings
"I love you too," I say back to him
I see my parents walk over to me and I just sit there in shock. Andy waits there with me holding my hand.
"I'll fight away your demons babe." He whispers and i nod.
I open the door for my parents and they hug me. I walk with them into the flat and grab a suitcase and pack a couple of my things.
"I'm living with Andy while you work your shit out," I say to them and I leave
Andy walks wait me to his one. I lie with him on the bed and we lie there.
"Do you want me to make dinner?" Andy asks me
"I would love that," I smile at him and he kisses me
"What do you want?" He asks me
"Ummmm, pasta?" I ask him
"Ok I'll go to the store, do you want ice cream?" He asks me
"Yes," I smile and he kisses my nose before walking out of the door.
I smile but I feel cold inside. I can't stay here. Not with them.
My breathing hitches and I run to the bathroom and look in the mirror. I splash water on my face and bend down. I start shaking. No no no this can't be happening. I want to cut but I can't. I just can't. I strip down and make a cold shower instead. I sit down in the shower and start to shiver. I'll fight off your demons. I remember Andy saying. But what if he's not here? What if he hates me? What if he never comes back? I start crying and crying. It keeps getting colder and a roll into a ball and rock back and fourth.
I eventually get into a state, I'm not conscious but I'm not really unconscious. After a while I feel someone pick me up and take me to a bed.
"I want to leave," I whisper, opening my eyes.
Andy sits there next to me holding my hand.
"Oh thankgod your awake," he says
"I can't deal with this place, Andy," I tell him
"Yes you can, I believe in you," he says, lying down next to me, sighing.
I hold his hand and he wraps his arms around me.
"Do you want me to make diner?" He asks me and I nod slightly. I put on a tshirt and some of andys boxes and lie down again. Andy leaves and makes dinner. He brings it to me and we eat in bed.
"Do you want to watch the dark knight?" I ask him
"I would love that," he smiles.
And we do.