The Fault in our Stars: A Sequel

Chapter 7

I stay in my bed until noon, thinking and regretting last night. I can't start a relationship with Isaac. Not after Augustus's death and the birth of our son. I've never felt attracted to Isaac except for last night. I don't know whether or not to cry or just sit here in a daze. I breathe heavily and finally let out all my tears.

"Hazel, are you okay?" I hear my mother's voice from outside my door.

"I'm fine," I say, "just a little stressed, I guess."

"You can tell me anything," my mom says sitting at the edge of my bed. I sit up and consider telling her what happened.

"I kissed Isaac last night." I let it all out. I wipe my tears before more come out. I haven't cried like this since Augustus died.

"Do you like him?" my mom asks hesitantly and unknowing of what to say.

"I don't know, I love Augustus. I will always love him. I never thought I would start a relationship with another guy." I sob.

"You need to talk to him," my mom says, "there's not much I can do."

I nod and give her a warming hug. I guess the only thing to do is talk to Isaac right now and confess my feelings for him.

Isaac's room is clean and simple with not many pictures on the wall. The only picture is Augustus and Gus on the wall.

"Hey," Isaac says. I sit on the small wooden chair in the corner not too far from where Isaac is sitting.

"Isaac, about last night."

"Oh, yeah. . . that." he says awkwardly. I don't feel anything towards him but a mutual friendship. I can't go kissing my dead boyfriend's best friend.

"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have done that and I regret it completely." I confess. I hope it don't hurt Isaac in away especially if he has feelings for me.

"It's fine, I guess. We weren't thinking. I still have feelings for Monica even though she'll never take me back."

"I'm glad you understand. I got to get back to Gus, my mom has to go to run errands here soon." I say leaving. I don't turn back to glance at Isaac, I leave and go straight home to my son. He's wide awake on my bed chewing on his toys.

I sit down and watch Gus wobble around and giggle at pretty much everything. I have never had so much regret. I am a completely different person now, this is not the Hazel Grace my Augustus knew. I want to be the old Hazel but I don't think I ever can be especially since I've had a child and completely matured.

I watch Gus and completely daze out into thought until I stop on a thought and realize something. I thought Augustus would be my last kiss, but he's not. This is a new chapter of my life, Augustus is no longer my first and last kiss.