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Chapter 49

Ashlyn's POV

I couldn't sleep very well in the chair next to his bed. I know I wouldn't have slept any better at home. I'm ready for him to just wake up. I know it takes time though. Especially with all that he went through yesterday. I can't help but keep thinking it's all my fault. I know that is is. This all should have just happened to me. I would rather be in all that pain instead of him. He just seems so peaceful now. That's all going to change when he wakes up and can feel everything.

After I woke up and the sun started to shine into his room, I'm not sure how long I sat there holding his hand. I just looked at him. He's still so sexy to me. I noticed last night that they took out his lip ring. I kind of just want to put it back in for him so the hole doesn't close up. I probably will if he doesn't wake up at some point today. I know he likes it. I do too. I want to leave the choice of putting it back in to him though.

My thoughts were eventually interrupted by a knock on the door. I looked up and saw his doctor walk in. He mumbled, "He seems to be doing well for the trauma done to his body yesterday."

I nodded, "Do you have any idea when he's going to wake up?"

He shook his head, "It depends on the person. It can just be hours after surgery or sometimes it's days after. It's hard to tell. Hopefully he'll be up at some point today."

"Thank you."

"I'll be back in when he wakes up or tomorrow morning, whichever comes first."

I nodded as he walked back out. I wish I knew exactly when he would wake up. There's really no way to know though. I lent over, kissing his cheek, "I love you so much, babe."

I lent my head against his. I can't help but start crying again. I just want him to wake up. This is the longest I've gone without even hearing his voice since we got together. I miss his random compliments and telling me how he loves me already. I would give anything to hear them right now. I heard the door open again. I looked over and saw Liam. He had a bag in his hand. He gave me a small smile as I calmed down and he grabbed the other chair, sitting next to me. He handed me the bag, "I brought you breakfast. I know you haven't ate anything yet."

I laughed a little bit, "You already know me."

He shook his head as I took a hash brown out of the bag, starting to nibble on it. He asked, "Has the doctor been back in?"

I nodded, "He said he's going well for the trauma he's been through and that there's really no way to know when he's going to wake up."

He nodded, "He's tough though. I'm sure he'll wake up soon."

"I hope so. It's driving me crazy not hearing his voice."

"Are you going to tell him?"

I know exactly what he's talking about. I'm glad he's not saying it too loud. Someone could be listening in the hall for all I know. I nodded, "Yes. I'm going to tell him the first chance I get."

"I'm sure he'll be happy about it."

I looked up at Liam, "I'm honestly nervous to tell him. I'll understand if he wants nothing to do with me after."

"Don't think like that. He'll love knowing. I know he never thought about anything like that before you. You changed all that for him though."

"I know but it's so soon."

"Ashlyn, it will be fine."

I nodded, continuing to eat. I really don't know what else to say. I should be happy about being pregnant right now. I'm not though. I haven't had time to be happy about it. I've just been so worried about him.