HURRICANE

Overwhelming Feeling

#Aldub1stMonthsary

ALDEN
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How long has it been?

1 month. Wow. It's already been a month since this all started. Happy First Monthsary, Yaya Dub!

It's all overwhelming. I can't understand how huge this turned out to be. It started so small. Don't get me wrong, it's not that I'm not happy with all the success we're receiving but I can't help but think, how long will this last?

I have doubts. Not just on myself, but on this love team as well. Yes, we have chemistry on split screen but how about when we actually meet each other? How will she see me? How will she accept me? It all happened so fast.

We haven't really talked and gotten to know each other well. I honestly don't know anything about her personally, but when we're on screen it seems like we've spent years together. I guess that's the magic of it all. But it gets hard pretending. I want to know her more. Inside and out.

MAINE
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Happy first monthsary Alden!

Whoa. I want to take this time to soak it all in. I guess I'm still in awe of it all. A month has already passed, and my life has changed so drastically. Am I still doing what's right for me? Am I still happy?

It gets loud. Thousands of people shout my name, and yes, I am grateful, but it feels like all of this, is a freaking tsunami that hitting me like crazy. Can I still do this? Can I really open myself up to the public? I've gotten so used to my life before this. You know, usually alone - just me and my thoughts. No one really knew how much I wanted to become an actress.

If I decide to continue this, I have to face the fact that there will be consequences. I am opening myself up to the public; they may embrace me, to which I am really hoping for, but I am also opening myself up to judging eyes. I will get bashed, branded and judged. I get that. What should I do?