forever is a lie | kl |

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"You're an ass." I laughed "Come here." 

currently Kian and I are trying to get off all of the marker off of our faces, I walked into my bathroom "What?"  I stood in front of Kian, he grabbed my shoulders and turned me towards the mirror "Pose." he says and I pose quickly as does he.

after he takes the photo I get a notification on my instagram and twitter 

@ kianlawley mentioned you in a tweet

@ kianlawley tagged you in a photo

the captions for both were ; drawings

people were commenting some nice and some bad things  

"Omg OTP"

"I love them together so much"

"he better not hurt her"

"she is only using him for fame"

"who the fuck is this chick?"

"ugly"

"whore"

"this bitch is fake and is only using Kian for his fame and money, she doesn't really love him, so back tf off "

My eyes welled up with tears as I looked through more of the comments that's kept flooding in, more negative than positive now. I wish i could ignore them, but I could't. I didn't know how too.

A unhuman like sound escaped from my lips and they quivered, "Babe what's wrong?" Kian asked his hands gently placed on my arm and shoulder "Your fans, they hate me." I cried shaking so much "So much." I feel and was panting heavily "Babe, calm down please. I'm right here." He said 

"Breathe in, Breathe out." i followed the new pattern of breathing that I was told to follow, after my eyes cleared up and my breathing was even again I looked up and saw Kian on his phone. 

"This is such bullshit, you didn't do anything, you don't deserve this." He rambled on

" This is why I love and hate my fans sometimes." He muttered "I love them because without them I wouldn't be doing what I love today they give me motivation. But then I hate them when they start shit like this. They don't have a reason or a right to do this. You didn't do anything, we just posted a photo together thats it! God I hate people" He rambled on 

"Kian look at me please." He looked at me and I smashed my lips onto his "Calm down please, freedom of speech, they do have a right to say these things about me, but they want to is the thing. They may have their own personal issues going on, so don't say that you hate them, because if you didn't have them today, you wouldn't be living your dream, living in l.a, starring in movies, they made you be this high in the spot light at this very moment." I lecture

"You're right"

"Aren't I always"

* 

Kian Lawley tweeted : I will not upload new videos or be on social media for a while until all of you guys STOP the hate, this is ridiculous 

"Hopefully I made the right choice." He said 

"In time baby, in time." I say as we sit where I have my legs wrapped around his waist, my hands playing with the hairs on the back of his neck, as the end of his hair meets the skin visible to the naked eyes