Dark Poems Of A Sad Mind

QUADRIPLEGIC

Numb
That's all I've ever felt
But is it really a feeling or the presence of none?

When your nerves stop to work
And your body frail and taut
The lack of any motion leaves you feeling like you're hopeless

Stuck in a single position
Bed ridden and out of commission
Wondering if you'd ever feel anything
Even if that feeling's confusion

Confused as to how this happened
Why you, and why so drastic
Why not anyone else who deserved it
And not a little girl who was left stranded?

Those questions were asked years ago
Before my emotions dried up and I let it go
Back when my tear ducts had pools and I let it flow
Back when I thought it was just a phase, and I still had hope

They said my condition was rare
I was quadriplegic
Paralysed from the neck down and had lost all feeling

Quadriplegic both in mind and body,
My thoughts are empty
Given up on emotions long ago,
What is love or envy ?

I'm not content with who I am, but the matters not in my hands
I had given up years ago and just surviving until I die

There's no discontent or apprehension
No joy or even pain
No incompetence or conviction,
I just want to go away