Dark Poems Of A Sad Mind

Cyber

The YouTube video in the description was where I got my motivation to write this song from, viewers discretion is advised though

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Is this love or a fixation or was he a figment of my imagination,
were we real or a simulation, cause what we shared was beyond my wildest expectations
he felt so much like a temptation that I just had to make a declaration
I was struck with infatuation for someone I had never met on any occasion
he was a healthy distraction from the pain of my mental laxation

we talked and communicated moving faster than I would have expected
love was in the air and I was clearly infected almost as if a love potion I ingested.

we made a lot of calls, we were both heavily invested
we wanted things to work, we were most definitely interested
distance was a barrier that we initially neglected
until things got real and we needed to meet in person

cyber dating sucks and I'd be the first to admit it
breaking up would hurt, distance is a real bitch
but then there was a silver lining,almost as if fate had willed it
he was moving out and just so happened to move to my city
we were both in luck, who would've thought a day would come
where we could both meet regularly, not just via video calls

In hindsight I should have suspected something wrong was going on
but I was too excited to care, I couldn't wait to see my love
I wanted to help unpack, but I couldn't put him on the spot
cause if I went, it would mean I was forcing things to rush

But instead we decided to go on a date,
I would show him around the city and then we'd go to his place
a week after he came here and today was the day
I would finally get to meet him, and I could tell it'd be great
so I picked up my phone, and on it was his face
he was calling me for him to see just where we would meet
or so I thought when I picked up,
till I heard the tone of his voice he was going to be late and thought we should cancel the tour
I was sad, I was looking towards this day for so long
I guess I would have to postpone the day I met my true love

Then he suggested an idea which I said yes to
he asked if I could come,
I said "I'd be there in a few"
he gave me his address and I internally screamed for joy,
his house was only twenty minutes away

so I walked instead of taking my car to clear up my head
I couldn't drive, not in this state of mind, my head was a mess
I got to his house with ten minutes to spare
from the original time I thought I'd actually get there
I knocked on his door with jittery fingers,
I knew he'd be there
the man I had come to admire, his presence was near,he was my strongest desire
he opened up the door for me and I stuttered like hell
I couldn't say any words, I just stared like a deer

He ushered me into his house and I sat on a chair
and took in my surroundings, his house was a massive affair
I slowly started getting light-headed and at first I thought it my nerves
till I began getting dizzy, I feared what was next.

He walked into the room with a gas mask on his face
I could barely utter the words "why did you gas up your place?"
he said what I could only decipher as "you made a mistake,
Never trust someone you meet online, their lives could be fake"

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Saw this in my laptop in an unusual folder and after going through it, deemed it worthy for public consumption, so here you go. It's a bit old so just ignore how bad it sounds. I was trying to write something different but still ended up with the same ending as most of my other works. so just take this as a murderous intentions 3 without all the gory details instead of what originally started as a love story 😉.