An apology
I'm sorry for acting weird sometimes.
I'm sorry for not knowing how to reply to some things you say.
I'm sorry for being awkward.
I'm sorry for looking emotionless sometimes.
I'm sorry for hesitating.
I'm sorry for a lot of things, or maybe everything.
But mostly I'm sorry for not being the kind of friend you deserve.
Truth is, my experience with people isn't the best. And my experience in friendships is limited and ... bad! You know I never had a real friend, so I do not know how to be a friend;
I am not used to having someone wish me a good night, neither am I used to someone complementing me. I am not used to someone calling me nicknames unless they're meant to hurt me, neither am I, in any way, used to someone calling me theirs... I cannot accept the fact that someone laughs because they think I'm funny not a fool. I cannot believe that there is someone who wants to be my friend because of who I am!
I never had the chance to experience any of these things and this is why I cannot believe them. It's not that I don't want them, I just think that I don't believe I deserve this. You saw things nobody ever saw in me and weren't afraid to let me know about them. You gave me advice and support and shared your experience to help me grow into a better person. And yet here I am blowing my chances of paying you back.
I truly love and appreciate our friendship. I don't want it to end and I don't want to lose you... So I'm writing this apology to ask you if perhaps I could be given a little more time to learn how I can be a good friend.
Yours truly,
"Louss".
