love don't mean shit

What Happens...

P.O.V Cashmere
When I woke up the next morning I was drained out. I sat up, wiped my face and looked around. Even my own room was unfamiliar to me. I got up and went to the restroom to wash my face. I stood there with my hands on the sink with my eyes closed and my head down. "You okay" a voice said while rubbing my back. I looked back and it was Harold "Damn you stayed" I said drying my face with a towel. "Duh I'm not leaving yo ass alone" he said hugging me. "Thanks Harold" I said wrapping my arms around him and accepting the hug. I escaped the hug and walked back to my bed and got back in but didn't lay down. I looked at my phone and I had a lot of missed calls, voicemails, unread messages, and missed FaceTime calls. While I looked through the missed calls I saw that Chris' mother called. I just stared at the contact and wondered if I should call her back. I finally decided and hit the call button. I braced myself then on the 6th ring she answered. "Hey Cashmere is this you" she said in a weary tone. "Hey Mrs. Johnson" I said as tears started to form in my eyes. "How are you sweetheart, they just called me this morning and told me the news" she said sniffing as if she's been crying all morning. I looked at my phone and it was about to be 3 o'clock "I've been sleep all day" I thought. "Yeah I was with him last night when he pasted" I said trying hard to fight back tears "But enough about me are you okay" I asked her wiping the silent tears that were falling. "Yes I'm fine it's just hard to even believe that he's gone but it'll get better with time" she said laughing through the tears. "How about I take you out, we can go out to eat and I'll take you to get your nails done" I said trying to lighten the mood. "Yes I would love that it'll take my mind off of the situation" she said. "Well I'll be over there to pick you up in the next hour and we'll go get our nails done first since they close at 6 o'clock" I said getting up and going to my closet. "Okay well I'm already ready so I'll wait for you to get here" she said. "Okay I'll be there soon" I said smiling. "Okay little lady see you soon" she said laughing. "Okay Mrs. Johnson see you soon" I said then hanging up. I looked through my closet for something simple it was getting a little chilly so I choose my sheer pink nude wool sweater that hung off one shoulder, my light ripped denim skinny jeans, and my pink nude heel scandals by Steve Madden. "Can you turn on the shower for me" I asked while coming out my closet. "Sure" Harold said walking to my bathroom and turning on the shower. I got fully undressed, put my clothes in the dirty clothes hamper, and walked to the shower and hoped in. The water felt so nice on my skin I don't even remember the last time I took a nice warm shower. I took my hair out of the ponytail it was in and let the water run through it, oh it felt so good. "You okay" Harold said out of no where while holding my waist. "Yeah I'm fine" I said wiping my face as the water hit it "But why are you in the shower" I said turning to face him. "I felt like I needed to be here with you" he said pulling me closer to him. All I could do was laugh "Harold your dick is poking my stomach" I said looking up at him and he backed up "I'm sorry" he said laughing. I grabbed my soap and a towel then started to wash my body. "Stop staring at my ass" I said looking back at him as I rinsed the soap off. "I can't help but look at it though" he said coming to me and placing kisses on my neck. "Harold stop" I said pushing him off. "I'm sorry Cash, I know it's to early" he said opening the shower door and wrapping a towel around his waist. I watched as he left the bathroom and closed the door. I let the water run through my hair one more time then got out. I dried off, lotioned my body then went to put on my bra and panties. I got fully dressed and went to go do my hair. I brushed it up in a high ponytail then put it in a bun and gel'd my baby hairs down. I only put a little foundation on and some mascara and was finished. I went to my jewelry box and put on my brown Michael Kors watch and my diamond studs and a small gold necklace. I grabbed my pink nude Michael Kors purse and put everything in there and was ready to go. "Lock up if your leaving" I said as I sprayed some perfume on. "Yeah I'm about to leave now coach needs me to come in" he said following me out the house. "Okay well call me later then" I said hugging him. "I will" he said kissing me on my cheek. I locked the house up, got in my car and headed to go pick Mrs. Johnson up. I pulled up 15 minutes later, I got out walked to the front door and rung the doorbell. She opened and already had her purse in hand "Well okay then miss thang" she said looking at my outfit. "Look at you" I said smiling looking her up and down. She had on a red leather blazer with a white Bebe shirt under it, some black ripped skinny jeans, and some red pointed toe red bottoms. For a 43 year old women damn she looked amazing "BLACK DON'T CRACK BABY" I thought to myself. She locked up her house, we got in my car and headed to the nail salon. It was only 4:50 so we had enough time and it wasn't even that many people. We walked in and they started on us. I got a olive green color on my nails and white on my toes, and she got a gray color on her nails and a black sparkle color on her toes. I paid for mines and hers then we went to go eat at Salt Grass. I found a parking spot then we headed inside. "Table for 2 please" I said to the hostess. "Okay please follow me" she said as she sat us at a booth "Here's your menu's and a waiter will be with you shortly" she said then walked away. "Oh I haven't been here in so long" Mrs. Johnson said looking through the menu "Are you going to get a drink" she asked. "No not really in the drinking mood" I said "But get anything you like it's on me" I said smiling looking up from my menu. "Well I'll get a margarita then" she said laughing. This was actually the first time me and his mom sat down and had a day together. I mean he used to take me over there for dinner but we never had a day with just me and her. "Hi I'm Owen I'll be your waiter for the night, can I start you pretty ladies with something to drink" he said. "Can I have a strawberry margarita" Mrs. Johnson said. "And can I have a pink lemonade, and some bread please nobody has brought it out yet" I said looking up and the waiter for the first time and oh he was cute. "Yes I'll bring some out, would y'all like any appetizers" he said. "Yes I would like a bake potato soup" I said "And I would like a Caesar salad" Mrs. Johnson said. "Okay I'll be out with y'all drinks, appetizers, and that bread" he said winking at me then walking off. I looked at Mrs. Johnson and she was looking at her phone I'm glad she didn't see that, wonder how she would react. Our drinks and stuff came out and we were ready to order. We order our food and as we were waiting I decided to bring up Chris' funeral. "I wanted to ask you this" I said pausing. "Ask me what" she said sipping her drink. "I was wondering if you would mind me planning his funeral" I asked looking into her eyes. "Cashmere I couldn't think of anybody else to do that other you" she said smiling holding one of my hands tightly "There's no words to describe how much that boy loved you" she said fighting back tears but I started to cry. "The day you lost the baby he called me crying, I've never even seen or heard him cry before he didn't even cry at his dad's funeral and he was old enough to know what was going on" she said wiping her tears that were falling from her face. "I would love for you to plan the funeral" she said holding both of my hands now. "Thank you Mrs. Johnson" I said wiping my tears smiling. That's when our food came out and we ate and just talked the rest of the night. I paid the tab, left a tip for the waiter, and we were ready to go. We grabbed our to-go bags, walked out, got in my car and headed back to her house. I pulled into the driveway and turned off my car. "Thank you for today Cashmere" she said. "Your welcome Mrs. Johnson" I said smiling. "Please call me Carmen" she said "Jeez you make me sound so old Mrs. Johnson" she said mocking me and laughing. All I could do was laugh "Okay well bye little lady keep in touch with me" she said holding out her arms for a hug. "I will I promise, I'll keep you informed on the funeral" I said whiling hugging her and running her back. She let go, got out, walked to her front door, and disappeared into her house. I sat there a little while longer and just started crying. "What am I going to do without you" I whispered to myself. I turned back on my car and headed back home. I got home around 8 o'clock parked in my garage, got out, and went inside. I put my food in the fridge and went upstairs to my room. I got undressed leaving on just my underwear. I got in my bed, turned on my TV, and got under the covers. Next thing I knew a tongue was licking me on my face. "What the hell" I said sitting up and laughing. To my eyes it was a dog with a red bow wrapped around its body, I just started laughing my ass off at that moment. "Now how did you get up here" I said to the dog while playing with it "Your all small, fat, and you have little rolls" I said in a baby voice rubbing it's belly. "It's an English Bulldog" Harold said opening my door "Its a gift" he said sitting down on the bed. "Aw Harold you shouldn't have" I said hugging him "I've always wanted a dog" I said now realizing that my boobs were out. I quickly got up and put a robe on. "What are you going to call it" he asked me as I sat back down on the bed. I was in thought for about a minute "Travis" I said as the dog came to me. "Travis, humm that's nice how did you come up with that" he asked. "It was his middle name" I said with a straight face. "I'm sorry Cash I didn't mean...". "Don't apologize Harold it's not your fault" I said interrupting him "Thanks you for the dog I appreciate it" I said laying down as the dog cuddled up with me. It was so cute and small. "Your welcome" he said turning off the lights and getting in bed with me and wrapping his arms around me. "Are you going to keep this robe on" he said laughing. I took the robe off while still laying down and dropped it on the floor. "Is that better" I said laughing. "Yes" he said pulling me closer to him. His arms felt so much like Chris' it was crazy. I gripped his arms with my hands and closed my eyes. I let all the memories of me and Chris' just flow through my mind until they put me to sleep.