Orphanage

Kabanata 13

Andito kami ngayon sa isang bench sa harap ng hospital. Napabuntong hininga na  lamang ako.

"Sorry"

Napalingon ako kay Rose ng magsalita ito. Naguluhan naman ako kung bakit siya nagso-sorry. Napalingon siya saakin at mukhang napansin niya na tila naguguluhan ako.

"Nang dahil saakin kaya nasa hospital ang daddy mo... alam kong nasabi na sayo ni mama ang---"

"Mama?"

Hindi ko na tinapos ang sinsabi niya ng marinig ko ang tinawag niyang mama ang mama ko. Tumingin siya saakin at kita ko ang pagkapula ng pisngi niya at umiwas ng tingin.

"Tsk."

Kapag ganito talaga si Rose, ang cute cute niya. Pero hindi ko rin maiwasan na mamula na ang tawag niya sa tunay kong ina ay mama. Napangiti na lamang ako ng palihim.

"So ano nga... at wag mong sisihin ang nangyari kay Dad" nakangiting usal ko "Sabi ko nga sa sarili ko... itong pinagdadaanan natin ay may rason kung bakit natin ito pinagdadaanan" nakangiting dugtong ko.

Ngumiti naman siya ng tipid.

"Paano kayo nagkita ni mama?" tanong ko

"Secret" nakangiting sabi niya kaya't napasimangot ako

"Alam mo ba ang history ni mama at ni mom?" tanong ko

Dahan dahan naman siyang tumango. Napabuntong hininga ako. Nang maalala ko ang walanghiya kong tunay na ama.

"Yung tungkol sa..."

"Wala na siya"

Hindi ko na natapos ang sasabihin ko ng putulin niya ito. At hindi ko maitago ang pagkagulat ko.

"H-how?"

"Sa loob ng kulungan." maikling usal nito

Napabuntong hininga naman ako. Kanina lang nalaman ko na kung ano ang tungkol sa kaniya ngayon na naman ay may nalalaman akong panibago. Nang hindi rin naman dahil sa kaniya ay wala ako dito sa mundo pero hindi ko rin masikmura na ganun ang ginawa niya kay mama.

Ang sakit sakit.

Hinila ako ni Rose at pinasandal niya ako sa balikat niya. Habang ang isang braso niya nakapalibot sa likod ng balikat ko.

Napangiti na lamang ako ng mag umpisa itong kumanta.

"🎶You know I want you
It's not a secret I try to hide
I know you want me
So don't keep sayin' our hands are tied
You claim it's not in the cards
And fate is pullin' you miles away
And out of reach from me
But you're here in my heart
So who can stop me if I decide
That you're my destiny?🎶"

Ang kanta niya ang nakakapagkalma talaga saakin.

"🎵What if we rewrite the stars?
Say you were made to be mine
Nothing could keep us apart
You'd be the one I was meant to find
It's up to you, and it's up to me
No one can say what we get to be
So why don't we rewrite the stars?
Maybe the world could be ours
Tonight🎶"

Isa sa mga hinahangaan ko sa kaniya. Ang ganda ganda ng boses niya. Pumikit ako para madama ko ang bawat pagkanta niya.

"🎵You think it's easy
You think I don't wanna run to you
But there are mountains
And there are doors that we can't walk through
I know you're wondering why because we're able to be
Just you and me within these walls
But when we go outside, you're gonna wake up and see
That it was hopeless after all
No one can rewrite the stars
How can you say you'll be mine?
Everything keeps us apart
And I'm not the one you were meant to find
It's not up to you
It's not up to me
When everyone tells us what we can be
How can we rewrite the stars?
Say that the world can be ours
Tonight
All I want is to fly with you
All I want is to fall with you
So just give me all of you
It feels impossible
It's not impossible
Is it impossible?
Say that it's possible
How do we rewrite the stars?
Say you were made to be mine?
Nothing can keep us apart
'Cause you are the one I was meant to find
It's up to you
And it's up to me
No one can say what we get to be
And why don't we rewrite the stars?
Changing the world to be ours
You know I want you
It's not a secret I try to hide
But I can't have you
We're bound to break and my hands are tied🎶"