All or nothing

Chapter Sixteen

All over 

Saina's

"IT'S a sex trip."

Rai and I were having coffee at the lounge that morning. I was telling her about Gerry's plan of spending the long weekend at his family's farm in Bulacan, and I really want to come. Mag-e-enjoy si Haniel roon, plus makakasakay na naman siya sa kabayo. He was telling me the other night that the only thing that he's missing in Italy is the fact that everyday he gets to ride horses. Back in Italy, we used to live in an apartment building and just three blocks away from it, may isang napakagandang vineyard kung saan may mga kabayo. The owner was fond of Haniel and she lets him ride her horses. Paikot – ikot lang naman si Haniel room. Madalas niyayaya niya kaming mag-dinner. Mrs. Brambilla is a nice middle-aged woman, habang naroon kami sa Italia ay siya ang tumayong lol ani Haniel.

"How can we have sex? May mga bata? Saka, we've been dating for a month and a half already, it's not like we haven't done the deed." Ginagawa namin iyon, at least once a week, when Haniel is with Uriel and Joshua is with his Lola. We'll go to my unit or his home, pero hindi lang naman kami puro sex. Nagde-date rin kami, like a park date, mall date, movie date... pero doon pa rin nauuwi. Hindi ko rin alam kung bakit. Minsan tinatanong ko sa sarili ko kung ganoon ba ako kasabik because it has been that long for me, but I really can't get enough of him.

With or without clothes, Gerry is an eye – candy.

Also, he's insatiable, ako naman madalas na sensitive. One kiss and the clothes fly over. I shook my head.

"There are ways sister. Do you think dadami ng ganoon ang mga pamangkin ko kung hindi marunong dumiskarte ang mga kapatid ko? We always have a family something." She even rolled her eyes. Natawa na lang ako. Susunduin ko si Haniel ngayong hapon, isasama ko na rin si Joshua, may court hearing si Gerry kaya hindi niya mapupuntahan ang anak niya. Iuuwi ko si Joshua sa bahay tapos doon muna siya habang hinihintay ang Papa niya. I'm actually nervous, this is the first time na maiiwan sa akin si Joshua nang hindi kasama si Gerry, baka magtanong ang bata kung bakit palagi kaming magkasama ng Papa niya, baka hindi ko masagot ang tanong niya.

It's been a month and a half, pero hindi pa rin namin sinasabi sa mga bata ang relasyon namin. I guess pareho kaming hindi pa handa. Hindi rin naman sila nagtatanong. Siguro, sa isipan nilang dalawa tulad nila ni Joshua ay magkaibigan lang kaming dalawa.

"Ex-wife alert." Napatuwid ang pagkakaupo ko nang makita kong pumasok si Alona sa longue kasama ng stylist ni Pan Vejar at ng photographer ng company. She looks good on the dress that she's wearing now. Modelong – modelo ang dating niya. Isa siya sa mga taong kahit yata pagsuotin ng sako ay maganda at elegante pa rin ang dating.

I smiled at her. Hindi naman ako katulad ng iba na galit sa ex ng boyfriend ko. Wala naman siyang ginagawa sa akin at sa relasyon naming dalawa ni Gerry pero dama ko talaga na inis siya sa akin hindi tulad noong una kaming nagkakilala. Ngiting – ngiti ako sa kanya pero hindi man lang siya makatingin sa akin. I just looked at Rai and chuckled.

"This is the first dress Miss Pan wants her to wear. This is the Karmela dress."

Maganda ang design niyon. Bagay na bagay sa morenang kulay ni Alona. It emphasized her hourglass figure, her slender arms and her collar bones. Umayon din sa look ang pagkaka – bun ng buhok niya. She's wearing my drop earrings design. She looked like a million pesos.

"I like it." Finally, Alona smiled at me. "Kind of reminded me of my wedding gown." I blinked a few times, but I decided to just let that comment go. Maganda ang dress, parang wedding gown nga ang datingan. Nakakatuwa. "Do you like it, Miss Saina?" She asked me.

"Yes. You will wear that sa show case. Rai, what do you think of her make up?"

"Papalitan lang iyong shade ng lipstick niya but the totality is fine. Ang ganda. She looks so good. Pwede na siya sa shoot ng cover for the catalogue."