Her Yellow Notebook (Complete)

Chapter 12.1

CHAPTER TWELVE - ONE

*CHARLES POV

Nasa loob na kami ni Ayesha ng kotse; walang umiimik sa aming dalawa, gusto kong magsalita at ipaliwanag sa kanya ang lahat pero hindi ko alam kong papano sisimulan. Nakita kong nakaalis na ang kotse ni Paolo at sakay nya si Maddy, nagagambala din ako tungkol kay Maddy, ano kaya ang nasa isip non? Pina-andar ko na ang kotse at nagtungo ng high way. Puro buntong hininga ko lang at kabog ng dibdib ang tanging naririnig ko. 

"Are you okay?" tanong ni Ayesha, at halata sa boses nito na nag-aalala sya. Nag red light kaya nag stop muna kami. Napapikit ako ng mariin at saka nag salita.

"She is my fiancee" diritso kung sabi sa kanya.. Sh!t.. I cock my head to her side and I saw her sad face. Tila nalilito na ewan, hindi ko alam. Na iinis ako, bwisit. This is my second chance to win her back but I'm letting it go. Because if I did not.... parang sinuway ko na din ang parents ko. But I really want her back.. Damn!!!

"What? You mean that Maddy girl is your fiancee?" she's so shock, I hate myself .. damn.. damn.. Tumango lang ako to answer her question. Nag green ligh kaya pinaharurot ko ulit ang sasakyan.

"Oh, so I guess there's no reason for me to stay in this country. You're getting married, aren't you?" Oh syeet.. syeet.. I can feel the sadness in her voice... >//< ano ba pinagsasabi nya, she is staying here for me? for what? Don't tell me she wants me back too.. Oh my God... This is so wrong. 

"Yes, I am.. but--" bigla kung inihinto ang kotse sa pinakamalapit na eskinita na nakita ko. "I wan't you back Ayesha" she deeply close her eyes and I can feel how mad she is.

"Me too. That's why I am here.. For the time I was in Hawaii I never felt happy not until I saw you again. Charles, I was so wrong for not listening to all of your explainations, for going away and not accepting your apology. Akala ko mababalik ang dati nating masayang pagsasama, but I guess not. You are engage and I don't want to be your other woman" She puts her right hand in her forehead and run her hand through her hair.  My God, all this time mahal nya pa rin ako.. gaya ng pagmamahal ko sa kanya. Bakit ngayon pa? bakit ngayon ka pa bumalik kung kailan engage na ako.

Na hilamos ko sa mukha ang aking mga palad sa galit, sa inis, at sa lungkot. Galit ako sa mundo bakit kailangan sa akin mangyari ang mga bagay na ganito. Minsan lang ako magmahal ng totoo na dali pa. Na iinis ako kasi bakit ngayon pa sya nagpakita kung kailan may ibang babae nang inilaan sa akin. At na lulungkot ako, kasi kailangan kong mamili my parents whom I love so much and loves me too, who takes good care of me and gives me everything I need and I want, or it should be I Ayesha the one that I am praying for. 

"You still love me? Damn! Why the hell is this happening to me? Ayesha I never fall in love to anyone. Hanggang nagyon ikaw pa rin ang mahal ko.. but---" I wasn't able to finish when she puts her index finger on my lips to stop me from speaking.