LOST IN YOUR EYES ♡

IGNORE HIM

Astha's POV

The first few months of my last year in school passed in a blur. After they got official I mean my sister and Aarav ,I too officially stopped third wheeling. Thou I am still good friends with Aarav I ignore spending time with him.

I don't think spending time with him is worth my heart break. After all I have loved him for seven years. Lol. It seems funny.. right. Being a 15 year old (about to be 16) and carrying a broken heart.

But to be honest heartbreak is not death. It hurts really bad but you can still smile. At least a fake one.

Look who is saying? I have cried a number of times myself. I am not insane please don't think so. It's just like tears keep escaping my eyes (which normal people call crying)

But it was an eye opener for me. Boys don't like girls like me, they like girls like Asha (my sister)- sweet, delicate, slim, extroverted and extremely beautiful. Girls like me get boys in the fictional world.

Lara Jean Song Covey and Peter Kavinsky.

Tessa and Hardin.

Mia and Michael.

Anna and Etinné.

So I decided to enjoy my last year away from their flirting and makeout sessions.
I don't think it's gross but I am jealous.
I always join the basketball team representing my district in state level. It falls on our summer vacation. So I always spend my first month practicing from home but this year I am opting for residential training. Which simply means that I will be living in the training building which I guess is a enough distance from Asha and Aarav.

And the last ten days with Seema (my best friend) at her house.

Also I am determined to ignore all the attractive boys there (it's not something new to me) because I don't like heart breaks. Or should I say I am not good at handling them. But to be honest I am friends with many guys there (and I am sure just friends).

Today is my last day of school before summer vacations.

"You seriously wanna go?" Aarav asked me on the way to the exit gate.

"Yes. It's my last year I really wanna win" It's not a lie thou.

"I am really gonna miss you" he pouted and squeezed my cheeks.

I always wonder that whether he notices the difference in my body. How it stiffens everytime he touches me.

"Me too" I smiled.

"Hey" Asha joined us with Seema.

Aarav shifted from my side to her. Look he was always like this but it was always me who was soo ignorant to notice. It is all my fault to love a guy who is never gonna love me back.Seema noticed it and joined me. She smiled sympathetically.

She is the only one who knows about my broken heart. I never told her but it was never necessary either.

After all we are best friends. I am never good at expressing my feelings but she always understands it.

But unfortunately Aarav never understood it that I already have a best friend and I don't need one more. I wanted him as more than just a friend.

They interlocked their hands and I squeezed my eyes shut.

"I will get going then" I told them and left.

Asha is my twin sister but we are both physically and mentally two opposites.

She is the dream gurl and I am the messy pun. Part of my heart always knew that they were gonna end up together. I never stood a chance. But I can't help the pain I feel everytime.