Have you ever sunk so low that you actually felt relieved, knowing that it couldn't possibly get any worse?
Well, I have... Many times.
I lost everything. My family, my future, my home...
I swore I would never depend on anyone ever again. And he swore nothing will ever tie him down.
He told me he has ghosts. I told him I have fears.
We agreed. We were eachother's impending death.
And yet I fell for him, slowly and deeply, until I didn't know how to be without him. And he fed on me, gently and steadily, until he didn't know how to let me go.
They said he'll never stay. Yet, here he is.
I said my heart will never break. Yet, here I am.
My name is Alison Lewis, and all I want is to start over.
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