Jadens POV morning time same day
I can't do this anymore I can't do anything right. I've fucked everything up my whole life my whole everything. I just want to be dead. Better off dead. I don't wanna live I fuck up everyone's lives. It's either I mess them up or they forget about me quick
"FUUUCK" I scream in anger throwing a pillow across the room
I need weed I need it. I go to my stash and I take a joint out. I grab the joint and light it rig hot away and smoke on the balcony.
Few hours later afternoons
I've had 3 beers and smoked a fully joint. I'm high and tipsy from the alcohol. I'm crying and crying throwing things around in anger I'm done with myself I'm fucking done with myself. How do people even put up with me.
"Jaden open the door" I hear the boys say once again they've been knocking on the door for about 4 times every hour but I don't answer them.
"FUCK OFF LEAVE ME ALONE" I yell. I go into my bathroom and look at myself in the mirror
I look like shit. Eyes red bloodshot red and looking sick. My small body I hate it so much. Truth is I have body figure issues and I can't even express how much I hate myself
I look at the mirror and turn to the wall and punch it. A hole in the wall now and my fist is bleeding and I know it's gonna leave a bruise but I could honestly care less. I go back into the bed face flat and I start just cry
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Griffs pov
"What do we do" I ask the boys as we sit in the living room
"I don't know. He doesn't want to talk to any of us we don't know what's wrong" josh sighs
"No shit Sherlock" ant rolls his eyes
"Who's the one person that he won't piss off on" Bryce says and we all think. Think long and hard
"Mads" Blake says
"You fucking stupid. That's gonna make it worse" Bryce says
"OH MY GOD, easy I know who" I say in realization
"Who" the boys say
"Nicole. Duh he wouldn't piss off on her I don't think and plus she's been through similar stuff lately. Charlis tweet was about that Sara girl calling Nikki her best friend" I say
"Wait. Nikki was bullied" josh says
"Well duh. Why do you think she called them high school fucking bully's" Bryce says
"Well go call Dixie" kio says and I dial dixies number
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Dixies POV
Nikki was driving around very happy to be driving she really doesn't have any fears. I would be scared to drive after what happened with ally a year ago
"Nikki what's your actual fear I know you have one" charli asks
"If I'm being completely honest, I don't really have any fears I don't care. My only slight fear is getting hurt in a relationship. That's why I haven't had that many boyfriends" she shrugs
"Ohhhhhhh makes sense" I shrug. I was looking out the window and also checking out the car and I see my phone ringing and it's griff so I answer it
Griff | me
"What's up babe" I say answering the phone
"Hey dix we need a favour from your sister Nicole buttt Don't tell her why"
"Ok...."
"So so Jadens gone a little bit... how do you call it.... not crazy but umm.... sad. He pissed off on all of us pretty sure he's smoking a blunt but that's whatever"
"And what do you want us to do about that" I say
"Nikki tot all to Jaden. I know Nikki went through something like Jadens going through before so maybe she could help. Plus he wouldn't piss of on her" griff says
"What time" I ask
"Now?"
"Ok umm I have to ask her to drive there" I say
"Nikki drives?" Griff says confused
"Of course she does dumb ass. Why would you think she doesn't drive" I say
"I've never seen her drive before. It's always you driving her"
"I know. Our parents bought her a car and now she's driving" I say
"Well tell her to drive to sway with no context ok"
"Ok I will bye love you"
"Love you too bye" he says hen hangs up
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"Niki can you drive to sway pleasee" I say Nikki
"Whyyyyy"
"Just go please" "fine"
The whole drive to sway charli was singing at the top of her lungs
"You know what's crazy" charli says "what"
"That's it's nikkis birthday soon" charli laughs
"When is that again" I joke and Nikki gives me this look "nooo I'm kidding it's January 5th I know I know I'm not that bad of a sister" I laugh I may have a little surprise for her birthday that we all planned. We're flying out her friends back home for 2 days
"We're here" Nikki says putting the car in park
"Let's go come on" I say jumping out of the car
Nikki follows behind me with charli and the boys are waiting at the door. Like normal charli and Nikki linked arms and Nikki put a hoodie on
I knock on the door and it's opened by griff.
"Holy I've never noticed how different you two look" griff says pointing between Nikki and charli and I just start laughing
"We'll come on" I say pulling Nikki and charli inside the house and I make them sit down on the couch
"Ok listen Nicole. Talk to Jaden please. He needs someone to talk to" josh says
"Isn't that why he lives with all you guys to talk to all your guys. And why me" she asks
"He pissed off on all of us. And you and him have gotten close so he's not gonna piss off on you because your you" kio explains but we all know why she's going to talk to him but she doesn't know
"But-" Nikki starts to say but gets cut off
"No buts just go" Bryce says pointing at the stairs Nikki mumbles something but we can't hear. She goes up the stairs and disappears
"Dixie what are we doing for her birthday you don't tell me anything" charli asks walking over to me
"You seriously don't know. We're been planning this for like a week already" I throw my head back because she doesn't know what we're doing
"I don't know no one told me"
"Your like stupid we were talking about this during breakfast when she was sleeping" I sigh
"Tell me"
"Wait when's her birthday" the boys ask
"January 5th. Charli were flying out like her friends here like micheal ethan erza Ryan Julian and Eddie like how do you not know this" I say shrugging my shoulders and letting out a loud sigh
"Ewww nooo not them" charli jokes
"Wait so we're gonna meet her friends" the boys ask
"Yeah they kinda remind me of you guys fucking crazy" I laugh
"Charli didn't you like have a crush on erza or something" I tease
"What nooooo" charli lies
"You had a crush on one of your sisters friends ewwwww" griff teases
"I don't have a crush on him I just thought that he was the best one outta the 6 he's the quietest one he's cute tall he won athletes the year his hair.." charli goes on
"Is he Bette then chase" Noah asks
"Meh no" charli shrugs
"Wha- you just listed off why he's he best" ant laughs
"I know but yeah" charli says
"We'll come on let's watch something and wait for Nikki" the boys suggest and me and charli just go with it
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Ok well here's the authors note
To be honest I don't remember writing these chapter that's amazing. I remember little bits of it that's about it. It's like 5am so like I'm gonna go to sleep
Have a good day guys
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