"So this is where-" Angelina starts
"Yeah" I answer before she finishes
We all look at the roof and it looks brand new. We go inside and sit in the living room.
"Alright Angelina and George will start on the kitchen, Ginny and Fred you can do the rooms, I'll do the attic and-"
"And we'll do the basement" Tonks says coming in
I turn around and give her a hug. Lupin says hello to everyone awkwardly
"Oh get over it, he's family. Anything you think has value put in a box for the attic, everything else throw it away" I say before we start
Fred, Ginny and I go upstairs and I go into the attic. I go through some of the boxes and see decorations in most of them. I find a box of picture books, as I flip through I find one of the original order of the phoenix.
I stare at the picture and think about what it was like for them, going on all these crazy dangerous tasks. I look at James and Sirius smiling and I watch as James puts his hand on Sirius' Shoulder. I get a little upset seeing what Harry and I should have had, but don't.
"Love where do you want us to put the old laundry sets?" Fred asks
"In the fire" I say looking at the picture closely
"Is that them?" Fred asks looking over my shoulder
"Mhm, Neville's parents are here too. Lupin and Tonks, Moody, Kingsley. They're all here" I say pointing
"Do you miss him?" Ginny asks joining us
"Sirius was the only person to ever make home feel like home, He left me for so long and I hate him for it" I say seriously
"Really?" Ginny asks
"It's not like I'm still five years old, you know. It's not like I'm gonna be sitting up every night asking my aunt, 'When's uncle coming home?' you know. Who needs him? Hey, he wasn't there to teach me how to cast my first spell, but I learned, didn't I? And I got pretty damn good at it too, didn't I?"
"Yeah, you did." Ginny answers
"Got through my first date without him, right? I learned how to read, I learned how to fly, I learned how to fight without him. I had fourteen great birthdays without him. He never even sent me a damn card! To hell with him!" I say loudly, frustrated. "I didn't need him then and I don't need him now."
"Issy" Fred says sadly
"No, you know what? I'm going to get through college without him, I'm going to get a great job without him, I'm going to marry an amazing man, and I'm gonna have a whole bunch of kids. And I sure as hell don't need him for that, 'cause ain't a damn thing he could ever teach me about how to love my kids!" I say starting to cry
By this time everyone was in the attic. Lupin looks at me sadly
"How come he doesn't want me?" I ask through my tears
Tonks runs over and I cry in her arms for a while. She strokes my hair and I sob into her shoulder.
"I just want him to come home. I want my uncle back" I say trying to calm down
I stop crying and she helps me up. I walk over to Fred and he hugs me tightly. I let him tell me everything was going to be okay even though I knew it wasn't.
"Everyone get back to work," Lupin says in a playful Tone making me feel a little better.
Fred lets me go and everyone gets back to what they were working on.
I finish organizing and putting the boxes in place, so I go down to the rooms to help Ginny and Fred.
"So, Ginny. Have you picked your room yet?" I ask playfully
Fred gives me an 'Are you serious' Look and I burst out laughing