Ally's P.O.V.
I haven't been able to get some good sleep for a few days. I've been somewhat stressed out lately.
My parents called me 2 days ago to tell me that my grandma wasn't doing too well and was staying in the hospital. It took everything in me to not get a plane ticket to LA, especially with this whole stupid pandemic.
Also, I couldn't stop thinking about the conversation that I had with Tae and Hoseok a couple days ago. How can I pass up this once in a lifetime opportunity? But also... what if it doesn't work out?...
Ugh!!
I'm pulled out of my thoughts when I suddenly get a text notification.
Mochi: What're you doing?
Me: Working. Why?
Mochi: Can you take a break?
Me: I'm not sure...I'm pretty busy.
Mochi: Not even for Ramen?
Me: You should've said that in the first place! I'll meet you by the entrance.
To be completely honest, I wasn't all that busy. I actually wasn't doing anything that important, but I didn't feel like talking to anyone. BUT when food gets involved, then everything changes.
I put all of my stuff away and then make my way to meet up with Jimin. After meeting up, we headed down to a little store that was close by. We each got 2 cups of ramen and then sat out the store to eat.
I didn't waste any time and I dived right in and started eating. After a couple minutes of silence, Jimin spoke up.
"So what exactly were you doing when I texted you?" He gave me a quick glance, but continued eating.
"Just organizing some stuff, since it's really all I can do at the moment."
"You bummed out that you're not doing makeup?"
"I mean, that is my job, but it is what it is I guess. How are you holding up?"
He stopped eating and looked down at his ramen. "It's hard... but you know, I'm getting through it. This is for everyone's safety, especially Army's. I keep myself going by just keeping in mind that we'll see them again soon..." He looks at me and gives me a small smile, but you can see that it was a sad one.
"Yea... I feel like everyone is a bit upset with this whole thing and a little stressed out..." At this point I have stopped eating and just started down at the table.
"Are you stressed?" I looked up at him and his eyes started filling up with concern. He put down his chopsticks and gave me his full attention.
"I wouldn't say stressed..."
"What's wrong?"
"Apparently my grandma isn't doing too well and I can't really see her at the moment."
"I'm sorry."
"It's fine, there's nothing really I can do and then this other thing is stressing me too-...." I stopped talking once I realized what I was about to say.
"What other thing?..."
Ok, I panicked. I picked up my chopsticks and started eating again, not wanting to answer him, but suddenly he took them away from me.
"You know you can tell me..."
I leaned back in my chair and looked somewhere off in the distance.
"Hoseok and Tae talked to me a couple days back about how I should... audition for the girl group that the company wants to put together..."
Silence.
My eyes moved to meet with Jimin's face, but he had a blank reaction on him. Then a smile crept onto his face.
"Ally! You should definitely go for it! You would be amazing for the group!" His smile started to fade once he noticed that I wasn't as happy as he was.
"What's holding you back?"
"I don't know. I guess I'm scared or something, but I have no idea..."
"Have you ever considered being a singer?"
"I have..."
"Then what are you scared of?"
"I guess not being good enough or going through years of training. Maybe even being criticized, for not being Korean?... When I've thought about being a singer, I would imagine myself being like Selena Gomez, Lady Gaga, or Becky G...I never thought about being a k-pop idol."
"Ally..." Jimin gently grabbed one of my hands and held it in between both of his. "Believe me when I say that you have the talent and the capability of being a singer. Maybe it's not what you thought it would be like, but you'd make an amazing idol."
He looked straight into my eyes and I could feel every single word that he said. I felt my ears getting warm.
"There are a lot of idols who aren't Korean, that shouldn't be a reason to stop you."
"I know, but I feel like I'm going to get criticized for not being 'Asian' enough... I'm part Filipino, but I'm more Hispanic than anything. No one has ever seen a Hispanic K-pop idol...."
"Then you'll be the first." He gave me a soft and kind smile that was enough to make me soft and feel butterflies in my stomach.
"Now, let's hurry up and eat before Tae finds out that we got ramen without him."
Am I really overthinking it?... Do I actually have what it takes to be an Idol?... I'm scared out of my mind, but maybe I should give it a chance
A/N
I usually always update weekly but these past 3 weeks have been crazy 💀 my state was literally on fire for the first time and I had to evacuate, but anyways I'm back 🥺
Sorry if it's kinda boring, I wrote this pretty fast