Yoongi's pov:
'darkness. That's all here. And it scares me. Gives me a feeling of being trapped. I frantically move my head to try to find something in this darkness but to no avail. It's more scary as I don't know anything.
I move forward but it feels like I'm not moving at all. In this pitch black space I don't feel as if I am moving. But I know I am moving my feets to carry me forward. The temperature is of course cold that it gives me chills.
"I'm scared. Zhan-ge! Yibo-ge! Where are you all?!"
I can't even hear my voice echoing back.
And in just a blink of eye I see something. The scene changes from darkness to a field. I see some figures. It seems to be glowing a white colour. Wait!
It's wolves!! Oh no...
Not that I would be scared just because they are wolves. I'm also one but the weakest of all. And looking by their size they must be alphas. God please, I'm gonna die. And I swear it feels as if I'm stuck. My body can't move. And omg, they're moving.
But wait they are moving towards my west side. I looked closely and there are six alphas. But I think there's one more too. It seems hidden. They all are moving forward. And it seems like they are having fun. Because some of them are running forward as if playing and signalling back, using their head.
Just then another wolf that was hidden comes out. It was shining a colour grey. Why? And it's smaller in size. Almost my size, so it is an omega. And judging by the scene, it is under their protection. Are they mates?
Stupid yoongi. How could there be seven mates? Idiot. They could be friends too. Why am I so into mates? Stupid. Like always anxious and restless for them.
And like that I stood still watching, as they ran forward. It feels good. And it almost feels as if I'm one of them because I could feel the chills of the wind, hitting my pale skin. I could feel the happiness. The sense of security. The need to just run and run and never stop. But which one of them am I feeling? They all look to be happy. The alphas have that vibe that says they are protecting the omega. That declares that the omega is theirs to claim. And honestly I feel...warm to it.
And I just blink that everything changed. Now instead of the flowering fields the ground changes to rocks and fire. The wolves are howling.
They are surrounded by other figures. Three alphas are growling at them, warning them to not come closer. Two of the wolves are circling a wolf. Is that....is that the grey wolf?!! His grey glow is now also shining with red. It's lying on the ground and the two alphas are nudging it with their heads. I could literally hear their low whimpers, begging the grey wolf to wake up. Wait it's only six wolves where is the other one. And just then I hear a howl. The other wolf is mourning? I want to step forward but I suddenly feel a pang of pain.
It hits me like a truck. I fall on the ground clutching my stomach as if it would lessen the pain. Gosh! I've never felt this much pain since....four years ago.
Then my head hurts as if I crashed into a solid, hard wall. I put a hand on it. I let out a scream but it's that none of them hears. First I was feeling happiness, then emptiness and now immense pain. This pain is containing so much in it. I could feel the need to stand up. It feels as if I want to move my arms but my insides are dead. Wait .. it's starting to feel hollow inside. Like I'm going dead from the inside. So I was feeling someone's pain? And it's the...
GREY WOLF?!
I look up and find it still lifeless. My breathing's ragged as I sweat immensely. It might look dead but I know it's not. Because I could feel the inside struggles to wake up. The strength used to fight an invisible force that is grounding me down. This much pain could kill someone. And I want it... w-what? But It's too much!
I look up with struggle and feel the scene and the emotions unfold. U could feel the tension in the air. U could see the helplessness on their faces. The fear and longing as they try useless effort to wake the now dead wolf
And soon I could feel the scene getting blurry. The howl fading, the growls lowing down. And the scene blurring...'
*Beep* *beep* *beep*
The alarm woke me up. What a nightmare!
And it's back again. After four years, it's back.
"*Sigh* I don't think I can handle it again."
And just then I hear zhan-ge shout for me to get ready for college. I change into my fresh clothes. And it's simply a brown sweater with white and red strips on the collar. It's really soft and warm for such chilly weather. Soon summer's gonna come. And with the seater I wear light blue jeans and white converse. I comb my black hair.
I get down to see yibo-ge putting plates on the table while zhan-ge is finishing his cooking.
"Ah. Good morning yoongi." Yibo-ge said while not looking up. He appears cold and brutally honest but I don't mind his behaviour after all I have spent my life with both of them since childhood. He always had an alpha vibe in his childhood so it was known for him to be an alpha. But zhan-ge was...in his first years he was really protective of us both. It seemed that he was pulling an alpha act but as he got closer to his rank finding days, he started to show his childish behaviour. He has always been a sweet one.
As for me, I was always a quiet, shy type. So it was also no surprise that I turned out to be an omega. But after that, I stayed only a year with my parents.
And then moved in with my brothers. One night I was sleeping and the next day I find them in my room. Honestly I nearly jumped when I found them. Zhan-ge was on the floor and yibo-ge was on a chair on his phone. They never told me why they were there so early. They just said that I was moving in with them. Later they said because the college was closer to their house so it was better. I literally have no idea when they talked to my parents but not complaining.
They are actually really sweet. And ever since then they have treated me like a little baby. Zhan-ge would take care of me and yibo-ge would protect me. Sometimes I do feel like a burden. They are mates they should honestly be spending more time with each other. Well they do that, but I just don't wanna burden them.
"What are you thinking yoongi?"
Ah..I didn't even notice that everything was set up. I didn't help gege.
"Nothing. Sorry."
"Ah don't always go around saying sorry. Now eat. You have to go for college."
What zhan-ge said, I should apply on it. I don't know but ever since the burglary incident and me waking up in the hospital, I feel like saying sorry for any small thing. But it's more like I have to apologize to someone specific.
Also Zhan-ge doesn't go to college. He works at a design company. He's really smart to work at such a difficult field at such young age. As for yibo-ge he works at a dance studio, and well he has his reputation there. I never got the time to visit him.
Right now we are in the car on our way to my college first.
Time skip (cause studying's boring)
After college I don't go home right away. I do a part time job at a flower shop. It's actually only a fifteen minutes walk from college but a bit far from our home. Both gege don't really approve of this. But I had to make them agree. I don't want to just spend my life, studying and hiding in fear. What fear? I don't exactly know many, but I know there are some.
Ah, finally, I'm here.
'REMEDY'
"Hey bin!" Meet my colleague here, moonbin. He has a mate, eunwoo and they are just the shy, baby couple. And to be honest, I live for it. Actually I live for every couple. Ahem ahem gay couples. What? U gotta expect the unexpected from omegas. Sure I'm shy but not all.
I can curse too, but not gonna do that. Got grounded by gege.
"Hey min!" Well now is the time that his shift ends. He also has a date with his mate so I'm taking over.
It's actually fun to work here. It's like being in a field with all those flowers and the beautiful, soft fragrances. And if you try you could find peace in looking after these flowers.
Right now I'm looking after, more specifically arranging the flowers on the stand table for display. It's enjoyable to arrange them in different ways. We have a variety of flowers. This shop's owner is exceptionally kind. She treated me as if we had known each other for long. Like met before and she treats the other staff as if they are her own children.
We have flowers from carnation to water lily. The fact that every flower has its own meaning to magnify its beauty is itself gorgeous. My favourite amongst these is daffodils. I don't know why but everyone has their own favourites. Whether it has a beautiful meaning behind it or not.
For me it's this yellow, soft flower that embodies the spring really well. Its central bell shaped crown. It makes me imagine wonders. Also its meaning is 'rebirth', 'new beginnings'.
These two always help me to do more in my life. That's why I decided to get a part time job. Daffodils really have a hand in my decisions and present. It's like I have started a new beginning. Rebirth, that doesn't go for me. But I still like how it is with this yellow blossom
So I can really relate to both of them.
After setting the flowers I go back to the storeroom to check the other flowers that had arrived today. Once I come out I noticed that there's someone in the store.
Gosh! This isn't professional to be absent in a customer's presence.
"Ah sorry!" I bowed apologetically.
"Ah no no! Don't worry. We just entered..." His voice seemed be fading away.
"Yes sir? What would u like to have?"
"Ah we would like to have a bouquet of daffodils please." The current man whom I was talking to wasn't replying so the other replied.
And what an order! My favourites! This should be more perfect! What? Can't I favour mine more?
"Excellent choice!"
I brought one of the bouquet back to the counter.
"Is this okay?"
"Ah yes!"
Now that I noticed, there are exactly six of them. I didn't even noticed that I was staring at them but I noticed that they all were alphas! I was abt to look away when one of them caught my eyes.
Slim glasses, dragon eyes, his slight smile brought light dimples. His eyes were different, not in colour but in, how do I say, holding emotions?
I tried to mentally go through my memories, along with getting the money. I went through many but stopped on the memory of yesterday.
He's the one! Whom gege hit, more like punch on the face! Omg it must have hurt! It was a benefit that he was standing right Infront of the cashier table, a bit right.
Me being the dumb bean, reached out to his face because I saw a bruise on his cheek. Moved a bit forward to reach out over the table. It wasn't too dark to notice but not too light too. I gently used my thumb to trace it. I unconsciously knitted my eyebrows and a pout came on my lips. It looks bad.
"It looks bad. Sorry he hurted you. He was just trying to protect me, I swear he didn't mean it or maybe he did. But still I'm sorry." I even failed to notice how my voice got low and gentle. Didn't notice the surprised looks on others face.
A few seconds after that, I looked at his eyes and that's when I realised. I panicked and even forgot to take a more detailed look at his glossy, fond eyes.
In embarrassment, the tips of my ears got exceptionally red, while my face was on fire.
"Omg I'm so so sorry. I don't know why I did that! Please forgive me. It won't happen again. I'm really sorry that I touch you like that. And without your permission. Please forgive me!"
I kept on rambling apologizes but stop only when I heard a chuckle. I know it should give me chills as it was directed from an alpha. But it made me comfortable and at peace. I looked at the other alphas and noticed how they were looking at me. There was no rage or disgust. Just a gentle smile and a fond look.
And then I looked at the dimple alpha.
I opened my mouth to apologize again, because I felt the need to. Not for the reason that I touched his soft face but for another feeling. Like I just wanted to keep on apologising. Many this habit has gotten worse.
"Don't worry. I didn't mind. Maybe it's just your omega instincts. But don't go away touching other alphas like this."
The last sentence was spoken with more demand. And I just dumbly nodded. To avoid more embarrassing and awkward situations, I went back to the bouquet.
"So, um, for whom is this bouquet for?"
"Our mate."
My hands immediately stopped.
"Your mate? Do you all have one single mate?"
"Yes."
"Wow she must be lucky."
And they chuckled which alternatively made my ears red from embarrassment. What is up with you yoongi? Stop opening your mouth.
"It's a he."
"Wah.." well done yoongi. U are a master in embarrassing yourself.
"Well he must be happy that you all are visiting him."
"He is. Maybe we would have also been if he was really here by our side."
"Why? where is he?"
"Dead."
And it got silent. Did I unknowingly touch a sensitive topic? I opened my mouth for an apology and as if they knew what for, one of them spoke..
"No need to apologize. U didn't knew anyways."
I just nodded and later didn't open my mouth. After they took their order they headed to the exit. But stopped suddenly. Before I could ask anything, one of them came towards me.
He gave me a piece of paper and flashed a smile that immediately reminded me of a bunny. And just like that they left.
When I opened the paper, it had a list of numbers. Huh? Wait these are phone numbers. And at the bottom was written...
'let's be friends......again:)'
What did it mean by again? And with that I looked up to the door they used to exit.