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it was great at the very start, hands on each other.
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Lami and Jisung held hands as they walked by the empty streets.
Its currently 12:51 of April 12th, their very first anniversary.
"Lami-ya" Jisung called, earning her attention.
She looked at him lovingly, "what is it Ji?"
"Please don't leave me, ever. promise?" He held out his pinky as she interwined it while smiling.
"Promise"
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Couldn't stand to be far apart
Closer the better
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"Shall we take a picture here?" Lami pointed at a tree of cherry blossoms, Jisung smiled widely as he took out his InstaX Camera.
"Smilee!!" She smiled infront of the camera as he took a photo.
*click*
"Let me see let me see" she ran in tiny towards her boyfriend and smiled, seeing her beautiful smile on the small paper.
"Its my turn!!" Jisung said and ran towards the same place she took a picture.
Lami adjusted the angle before saying "I love you!!"
His smile shined the brightest, hearing those words from her.
*click*
"You are still handsome ey?" The girl teased as the other hugged her.
"Ofcourse, its because of you" he answered while hugging the smaller.
Lami blushed really hard as she punched his chest.
"Let go off me, many people are staring" she whined.
He didn't pay attention and continued huggibg her small figure.
"Let them be, the closer we get the warm our love is"
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Now we're picking fights
slamming doors
Magnifying all our flaws
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"Shut your mouth!! I don't wanna hear any of your excuses!" Lami shoved Jisung's hand away as he walked towards her, a glint of sadness in his eyes.
Her tears started falling.
"Do you think its okay to see you around her? you think its okay? ITS OKAY? SHE IS SEDUCING YOU AND YOU SAY ITS OKAY?!"
Jisung took a step forward as she took two steps back, looking at him full of anger.
He can't mutter anything since what happend is true.
"the longer we stay, the longer I can't get hold of your attitude. change yourself before its too late"
Lami slammed the door shut on her room leaving Jisung crying on the floor.
"It's all my fault"
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And I wonder why, wonder what for
Why we keep coming back for more oh oh
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Days turned into weeks, weeks turned into months. They kept fighting here and there but today is the worst out of all.
"again? AGAIN?! YOU LET HER DO THOSE AGAIN AND I CANT STAND WATCHING YOU BOTH ANYMORE" Lami shouted on top of her lungs, throwing a book at Jisung.
Jisung already got enough of her always nagging at him.
"WHY CANT YOU JUST ACCEPT MY APOLOGY?! I DIDNT EVEN KNOW SHE IS SEDUCING ME!!" He shouted back, throwing the book somewhere far.
Each word they spit, are the sharp arrows that hit their hearts, almost breaking them apart.
"IS THAT HOW YOU APOLOGIZE SUNG?! YOU ARE AT FAULT HERE AND NOW YOU ARE SCREAMING AT ME?! ARE YOU INSANE?!"
Their voices got louder and louder as they fought.
"SHUT YOUR MOUTH!!" Lami agrued and threw a jacket at him before slamming the door shut, again.
"Why are you so stubborn?"
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Do we need somebody
just to feel like we're alright?
Is the only reason you're
holding me tonight
'Cause we're scared to be lonely?
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"Why did you stay?" Lami said, ice cold.
"Its because you are mine" Jisung replied, looking at her directly.
"Cut off your excuses Jisung!! I know you only stayed because you are scared to be lonely!! YOU ARE SCARED THAT YOU WOULD BE LONELY, NONE WILL HELP YOU WITH ANYTHING THAN HOW I DO"
She looked at him, fuming in anger and betreyal.
"I'm just your part-time mother right?" Her voice cracking at the end, she stared at his sould with her eyes too vulnerable.
Jisung can't answer or tell everything he wants to tell.
"Am I?" She repeated.
"Y-yes"
She can't hold in her tear anymore and started streaming.
"Then did you perhaps, loved me?"
"Yes I did" his head hang low as he said those, tears also dropping each second.
"Then why?"
If only you could hear their hearts, loud shatters and ruffles would be heard by now.
"THEN WHY DO YOU STILL STAYED?! WHY DO YOU LET YOURSELF HUG ME EVERY NIGHT?! WHY?! WHY JISUNG PARK?!" Her tone was high yet deadly, just as what her heart felt.
He looked at her sympathetically.
"I ran out of love"
"Is that so?"
He faced her, her eyes completely covered with tears yet inside it hides pain and emotions.
"Then leave" her words strucked deep down to his chest.
"No please-"
"LEAVE!!"
"We could still work this out"
"I SAID LEAVE!!"
Jisung sighed and wiped his own tears.
"If thats what you said then okay, as long as you're good. Good away from me who is a jerk" he said those words and hugged her one last time before leaving.
She closed the door and slid her back down.
"How can you do this to me?"