Payment
I was busily working my ass out, and thinking when will my Prince Charming came to my life. When a loud shout echoed my whole house.
"Jamie gurl!" Napamura nalang ako sa gulat sa sigaw na yan. Napasapo ako sa noo ko dahil sa inis.
Lumabas ako ng working area ko. At nagulat nalang ako when I saw him inside my house.
Kumunot ang noo ko. "How the hell did you get in?" Takang tanong ko dito.
Ngumiwi siya at saka napakamot sa kanyang noo. "Uhmm... I climb your gate?" Hindi siguradong sabi niya.
Napamaang nalang ako ng dahil doon.
"Seriously?" Hindi makapaniwalang tanong ko. Tumango siya. Tinignan ko siya ng matagal. Akala ko may sa lahi lang itong stalker nakalimutan ko magkadugo pala sila ni Nayumi. So it runs in the blood. Akyat bahay din siya. Napailing iling nalang ako.
"I brought you lunch." He said, hindi ko siya pinansin at saka dumiretso na ako sa kusina ko.
"Wala ka bang trabaho?" I ask him. Nilingon ko siya noong hindi siya sumagot.
"Meron but I can work whenever I want or not. Besides nandun naman si father dear and I took a leave. So basically now wala akong trabaho. At saka kaya nga ako nandito sa bansa kasi Im on my vacation slash hindi din vacation dahil may ginagawa pa din akong trabaho " Sabi niya na tinanguhan ko lang kahit ang gulo nun at hindi ko masyadong naintindihan.
Inilapag niya ang dala niya kinuha ko naman iyon at naglaway ako sa amoy ng chicken curry. This dish is one of my favorite. Napangiti naman siya dahil sa reaction ko.
"Did you cook this?" Tumango naman siya. Manghang napatingin ako sa kanya. He is good looking, a handsome gay, mayaman, mabait daw sabi nila and now magaling magluto konti nalang talaga i aadmire ko na siya.
Or I was already admiring him?
Napatikhim ako at saka napaiwas ng tingin.
Pero napatingin ulit ako sa kanya and now he is staring at me with a grin on his face. Kaya nangunot ang noo ko.
"It's not free." Sabi niya habang nakatitig sa akin. Particularly on my lips. Mas lalong nangunot ang noo ko.
"Ang alin?" I ask curiously. Tinignan niya yung dala niyang pagkain.
"Wag mong sabihing babayaran ko ito?" Simangot na tanong ko dito.
"Wala nang libre ngayon Jamie gurl." He said rolling his eyes. Nagkibit balikat nalang ako tutal may pera naman akong pambayad.
Kaya inihain ko nayun. Nagprepare na din ako ng dalawang plato. Mabuti nalang may dala din siyang kanin. Paano niya nalaman na hindi ako nakapagluto.
"Let's eat!" Masayang sabi ko, nginisihan lang niya ako pero dahil gutom na gutom na ako ay isinawalang bahala ko na yun. And I dig in. "Ang sarap mo palang magluto." I complimented him when I tasted it. The best talaga ang lasa nito. Tumango lang siya habang nakangiti. But I can saw a glimpse of naughtiness in his eyes na parang may binabalak kaya siya pangisi ngisi, napakunot noo ako. Pero I just tilt my head baka namamalikmata lang ako.
"Pwede mo ba akong ipagluto habang nakaleave ka pa. Tutal friend naman na tayo eh." Sabi ko dito.
"It depends. Pero gaya nga ng sabi ko Jamie gurl, wala ng libre sa ngayon-"
"Oh that. I can pay you." Tiwalang tiwalang sabi ko. He didn't talk, tinitigan lang niya ako ng matagal maya maya ay may mapag larong ngiti ang sumilay sa labi niya.
"Even this meal is not free Jamie gurl." He said.
Nagkibit balikat ako at pinagtuunan ng pansin ang pagkain."Okay lang. I can pa you naman." Sabi ko dito.
"Right, you can pay me." Pag uulit niya sa sinabi ko but I can hear amusement in his voice.
Noong tapos na kaming kumain ay hinaplos haplos ko pa ang tiyan ko.
"Im so full!" Siyang siyang sabi ko. Napatawa lang siya sa akin. Pero hindi na niya ako nilubayan ng tingin. Sus! Akala mo naman hindi ko siya babayaran eh. Akala niya naman tatakbuhan ko ito. Kahit taong bahay lang ako, I also have money! Tss!
Tumayo na ako at saka iniligpit ang pinagkainan namin. Habang nasa lababo ako at nag uurong ay nilingon ko siya. He was leaning on his palm while watching me.
"Magkano pala yun?" I ask him. He doesn't answer me, instead he laugh. May saltik na ata ang baklang ito.
Tumayo siya at saka siya lumapit sa akin siguro tutulungan niya ako sa paghuhugas.
When I decided not to hate him. Hindi na din pala masama ang makasama siya.
I continued washing the dishes.
"Ano na, magkano yun?" I ask again without looking at him.
"I'll answer that if you face me." A whisper on my neck, I flinch and face him at ganun nalang ang pagkahigit ko ng hininga ko when his face is so close to mine. Napaatras ako ng dahil doon. Napalunok ako.
"B-bakit ang lapit lapit mo?" Utal na tanong ko dito. Dumadagundong na naman ang puso ko ng dahil sa ginagawa niya. He didn't answer me but he just smirk. A manly smirk na nakapagpasinghap sa akin. How could he do that?
Napakurap kurap ako nang dahil doon.
Napatitig ako sa mata niyang nakatitig din sa aking mga mata. His eyes were bright with something else. His eyes were sparkling with naughtiness.
"I don't want money as your payment Jamieya..." He huskily said and lick his lower lip kaya napasunod ang mata ko doon. Mas inilapit pa niya ang kanyang mukha sa akin, I can even feel and smell his hot breath. The tension that I was suppressing inside me is getting hard to control.
Damn. Why would I imagine this gay kissing me until I can't think anymore? Bakit naaalala ko ang araw na hinalikan niya ako? And upon remembering that, I feel hot, my mouth watered as if I am a baby who was craving for something.
"A-ano bang gusto mong kabayaran?" Kanda utal na tanong ko sa kanya habang nakatitig sa labi niya na ang pula pula. And again he let out a manly smirk.
"Your lips..." He said. Napaawang ang labi ko ng dahil doon, hindi ko alam kung anong isasagot ko. And when he answered me that I can clearly read what is on his eyes. His eyes were sparkling with desire. Desire of what? Claiming my lips dahil doon ay nakagat ko ang aking pang ibabang labi. "Would you pay me?" He seductively ask me. And he lean his two hands beside me cornering me in his arms. Napakurap kurap ako. Hindi ko lubos maisip kung anong nangyayari basta ang utak ko parang lumilipad kung saan hindi makapag isip ng maayos. Ni hindi ko nga alam kung ano ang isasagot ko sa katanungan niya. Another part of me is craving for his lips, aching for his lips to touch mine. Pero may ibang bahagi sa akin na nagsasabing hindi pwede. He shouldn't kiss me like it was nothing. Bakit ba niya ako ginaganito?
"Jamie?" He whispered my name that I can feel his hot breath fanning and caressing my face. Napasinghap ako and my breath started to hitch. How can a gay like him seduce me like this? Napalunok ako. He look at me like he was waiting for my answer. Wait- ano bang tanong niya? Right! The payment. I move my head. Nanlaki nalang ang mata ko when he claimed my lips. Did I nod? Umiling ba ako o tumango?
But when I felt his soft lips playing mine, pumikit nalang ako and I responded to him. I felt him smile pero wala na akong pakealam. Kissing him like this feels so right. Yung parang walang mali sa ginagawa naming dalawa. Hindi ko iyon mahanapan ng mali sa kaibuturan ko.
I cling my arms into his nape and savored it. Hindi na ako nag isip ng kahit ano. His hands that were in the counter sink move from my waist and he pulled me closer to his body. I was trying so hard suppressing my moan upon feeling his hot body.
My mind is going blank because of his kisses.
We were both catching our breath when we parted our lips. Pero siya ay idineretso sa leeg ko ang kanyang mukha. He snuggled in my neck while his arms embrace my waist. Mararahas din ang kanyang paghinga.
"If you only just remembered that night gosh!" He said like he was in pain. Mas humigpit ang pagkakayakap niya sa akin at mas idiniin ang kanyang mukha sa aking leeg. Samantalang ako ay kinakalma ang aking sarili. Kinakalma ko ang aking puso na parang wala nang bukas sa pagtibok.
We stayed like that for a while and while we were on that position ay napabuntong hininga ako and my hands move to his hair and I caress it.
Mas humigpit na naman ang yakap niya sa akin na para bang ayaw niya akong mawala.
At sa pagkakataong iyon natanggap ko na that we were not going to be just friends. Siguro magkaibigan lang kami but we were never going to be normal one like others.
"I missed you..." He murmured. Nang dahil doon ay mas napabuntong hininga ako. Dahil pakiramdam ko ako din ang may kasalanan kung bakit nagkakaganito ang baklang ito sa akin. Hindi ko naman alam kung bakit, pero alam niyo yung pakiramdam na hindi mo siya masuway sa mga ginagawa niya dahil alam mong ikaw ang dahilan kung bakit siya nagkakaganyan.
I felt like something happened that forgotten night of mine that's why he is being like this.
And I know that from now on everything will be different. Everything will be different between us.
He look at my face again. Like he was trying to memorize every part of it. At wala akong planong suwayin siya. At saka masyado pa akong lutang para makapag isip ng matino. Not now kung hanggang ngayon ay parang nararamdaman ko pa ang bawat halik niya. Yung labi niyang gumagalaw sa labi ko.
Napatingin ako sa labi niya and from that I was being tempted to taste that lips. I want to taste it gosh! What is happening to me? Bakit parang hindi ko makontrol ang katawan ko. And without thinking I tiptoed and claim his lips. Hindi na siya nagulat, he even dip his head to meet my lips. And again a kiss happened between us.
I cling my arms to him even more when he deepened the kiss. Ramdam kong naglakbay na din ang palad niya sa katawan ko. His left palm stayed on my waist while the other travelled down to my buttocks And he grab a handful in it. Mas napadiin ang katawan ko sa kanya. And when he squeeze it I let out a moan that was being muffled because of his savage way of owning my lips. He is eating me alive as he became aggressive.
His tongue is licking my lowerlip as if he was knocking and because I am already out of my mind I opened my door in him. I let him explore every contour of my mouth like his tongue was suppose to be in that place from the very beginning.
"You taste like..." He said as he parted our lips but not too far from his lips. Honey? strawberry? sugar? candy?
His lips was grazing on my lips. We breathed hard nanatili akong nakapikit habang humihinga ng malalim, pakiramdam ko mauubusan na ako ng hininga kanina. And again he liplock our lips again and he tasted every part of my mouth. "You taste like curry." He said and he smiled between our kisses. Why would I think of another delicacies to describe how I tasted if we ate curry this lunch. Siyempre lasang curry talaga ako.
"Sweet curry..." He murmured between our kisses.
And as if we are a hungry animal that has no plans in stopping until we satisfy ourselves.
"We really need to talk Jamie gurl." He said between our kissing.
"Yeah... We need to talk." I said and keep on chasing his lips. Gosh. I think Im addicted to his lips. He is an expert in kissing. Well who am I to said that he is an expert in kissing when in fact wala pa talagang nakakahalik sa akin ng kagaya ng paghalik niya sa akin. Nakahalik na din ako ng ibang labi but not to the extent that gone this far.
"After this..." He said....
"Yes-hmmm." My answer was being muffled again habang ipinagpapatuloy niya ang paghalik sa akin.
And just like that he get his payment. Payment kapalit ng dala niyang pagkain. Kung ganun lang din kasarap ang luto niya at ganito din lang kasarap ang kabayaran na kukunin niya hindi na din masama.
I smiled because of that thought. May tinatago din pala akong kalandian sa katawan. Siya lang naman ang nakapagpalabas nun mula sa akin. And it's not my fault anymore why I was enjoying his kisses. Bakit kasi ginalingan niya.
Hindi ko na iisipin kung ano ang mangyayari pagkatapos nito. Besides ano pa ang silbi ng word na paborito ng iba kung hindi ko gagamitin ngayon.
'Bahala na!'