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I sat there as everyone came in and out of August Hopital room.i been staying here for the past two weeks so i can watch him as well as his secuirty.
i had to buy two rooms one for his secuity Guards so no one can try any slick shit.
Its been three long fckin weeks he still have not woke up yet,they test his brain every two days to see if anything improved or anything stoped or something wrong.im so scared he wont wake up in time for our sons birth, he missing alot i am due New Years Day but i go in new years eve afternoon i really need him,its hard balacing this but i have to.
Kajay been staying with Travis .i know him out of all people but yeah mama cant do it all she has alot on her plate i think she still mad at me and August For having sex IN OUR OWN HOUSE REALLY KEYWORDS (OUR HOUSE) U KNOW WHAT I CAN GIVE ONE FCK 2 FCK OR A 3 ,4 ,5 ,6 ,7 ,8 ,9 ,10 FCKS ABOUT IT were grown and married she will get over it she lucky she aint catch me sucking him up be greatful she aint see that or us making love period.
KNOCK KNOCK
"YES "I said fixing myself by putting a blanket over my legs cause they were out cause i aint feel like putting on pants
dont judge me im almost nine months pregnant its a hassle getting dresssed
"hello mrs Alsina How are"in came Dr Jones he was so cute he looks as if he's in his Mid-late 40's
"hello Dr.Jones im fine and you"i said shakiing his hand as he sat in the chair next to monitors that August is hooked up to
"im fine but i think we need to talk"he said moving his glasses and placing em in his lap
i quicky sat up making sure nothing was showing and placing my laptop to the side and giving him my full attention
"uh-uhmm whats wrong with him? is he ever going to wake up?will my children have a father or not please dont spare me give it to me all at once"i said all without breathing stupid me i was shaking and trying to proccess what ever it is he gonna tell me
"Rennie!Breathe!its not about August SweetHeart Its about you"he said scooting infront of me and grabbing my hands
i looked at him,then down at his hands and my hands
i jumped up out of my seat and moved far away from as i could ,tears came screening down my face
"How dare you .i am married for godsakes! Then you have the audacity to come into my husbands room and try that shit,please get the hell out the only time u come in here will be the time a nurse acomapny u while u check my husband.get out now"i screamed at him
thrownig a vase someone sent to august i didnt care at the moment
"Rennie calm down i di-
"dont tell me to calm down leave get the hell out"i said pinching the bridge of my nose
"how can i hit on my daughter ,im not like that"he screamed
"im ur what? i was so confused no way my father left when i was only 5 idk y
"Ur my daugher Rennie please just give a chance to explain about that bitch of ur mother"he said grabbing my hand and leading me back to the couch i was laying on before
"dont u dare say that about her she's dead i dont care how much of a evil person she was dont u dare disrepect her"i said rubbing my belly as i sat down
"im sorry LeaLea-i cut him off
"u dont deserve to call me that! u left me u-u left me why"i asked breaking apart
"i never ment to Rennie me and ur mother was going through so much,She was walking out on me (cheating) then i start noticing she was changing in many ways like she didnt cook like she use to and didnt do nun like she use to then her boss would call and ask why she wasnt coming to work i thought she was after going to drop u off after day care.im so sorry i tried to take u they wouldnt let me because i use to be a kingpin (DrugLord/build or took over an empire) She used it against me im so sorry please LeaLea Let me be in ur life now let me be in my Grandchildren life"he pleaded wiping my tears
"why now ?huh u couldnt find me before now huh?when i was repeaditly Raped u wasnt there to protect me u wasnt there to say u love me ,i had to deal with being called fat ass ,slut bucket,she beat me cause she blamed me for the r-reason u left i never asked for all of that as a post to be childhood nothing about my childhood was something great to remmember it was a living hell the worse nightmare that will scare anyone from.What mother rapes there daughter that is disqusting who does that .i went through hell i couldnt wait to leave that house . hell.why are u here u probraly tryna get close to me again and leave like everyone else did "i said blowing my nose with the tissues he gave me
"im so sorry all of that happend i did i tried to come back she never let me in to see she told me the only way to see u was getting back with her and sleeping with her i told her hell no,the only way i could see u was school plays and christmas concerts and some of ur trips i had to basiclly follow you almost everywhere,ms Heart knew about everything i use to give her money to give u ,thats why u recieved all of those clothes for christmas , that car and every new phone .i bought all those thing but told Mrs.Heart to say she bought it.Iwas there every step of the way im sorry i aint come sooner please ju-i cut him off and just hugged much as i could because of my belly being all big.
"i-i missed you daddy"i said letting all that was bundled inside from my childhood from being abused in every way from my mom ex boyfriend -some of my moms toys who raped me
"i missed u to laeLae im never leaving again until im dead but thats a long long time from now u undertand"he said and i nodeed my head
He let me go and picked up the blanket and placed it over my legs
"i dont need to see all that again"he said making me laugh
"my bad daddy"i said playing with my fingers
"u know u grew up to be a beautiful Full Figured Woman im very Proud of you and your accompishments in life so far and when u go even farther i will be there to support u in any way i can"he said with smile and putting his glasses back on
"Thank you dad-
"mama Uncle travis and me brought food and made cookies u wanna try em"kajay came running in the room
"Hi baby yes i would like some"i said kissing him on his head and he kissed me on my forehead
"mama i kiss daddy head too?"he asked me i put the food down stood up and picked him up and walked all the way to the other side of the room were august was
"hi daddy i lobe and miss u ,i won the spelling be i was first place ,mama said im real smart like u an her i pass all my classes except for uhmm mommy what the word"Kajay said to august the asked me
"its English Language baby"i said brushing August hair to keep it curly
"yea daddy i mad at myself i have to do makeup work if i wanna get my grade up mama and mrsClare said but ill just do it 2mm but ima let u contju to rest daddy love u talk to u before i go sleep"kajay said
he crawled back to the top and kissed August head and reached for me to help him down
"ohh man u are getting heavy Mama Baby"i said placing him on his feet
"no i not"he said rubing his eyes he sleepy but fighting it
"is to"i said sitting down infront of my dad
Kajay looked at my dad and smiled but then pulled me down to him
"Mama who dat stanger"he whispered and then looked up at my dad and smiled then looked back at me and rolled his eyes Smh he to grown for his britches
"thats ur Grampa"i said loud enough for my dad to hear he looked up from his Samsung Tablet and smiled
"mama dats ur daddy"kajay asked i nodded
"yes go introduce urself"i whispered to him
He shrugged and jumped off the couch
" Hello young man how are you and what is ur name" my dad asked Kajay
"Hello im Kajay Alsina im 6 years old im fine and u"kajay aswnsered respectfully
"Nice to me u Kajay Im ur Grampa ",my dad said shaking Kajay hand
"Nice to meet u too ,are u gonna vist me and play with me for now on and spend time with me liike my other grampa Alvin Do?"Kajay asked him
My dad Looked at me i quickly nooded my head
"yes yes i will we can start tomorow if u like by going out to lunch and do a lil toy shopping ,do u have a play station 4?he asked Kajay
"no mama forgot to buy me one daddy dont share his and uncle travis wont let me touch his anymore "he said making me and travis and my dad laugh
"why not "i asked eating my Chicken Alfredo with brocli and a sides of bake beans and rice chicken toco and 4 big chocolate cookies and a large bottle of lemon spalsh water thank u jesus the lord is truly good
"cause i made him loose when i droped my controller in the Kitchen sink when i get some milk to go with my cookies"kajay said so inocent
"ohh so u broke uncle travis controller"my dad asked pulling kajay in his lap
Kajay put his head down and laid on his chest i almost cried cause they just met and they were already bonding
"tell em the rest jay "travis said to kajay
"i aint mean to drop it in the water,i didnt want him to cheat like last time"Kajay argued
"i got an idea how about this we can replace uncle travis Controller when we go pick up ur station 2mm after lunch how that sound"My dad asked Kajay
"yeah we can do that"he said smiling
"good but i have to get to a patient "he said checking his beeper
"u gotta go now Grampa"kajay asked and pouted
"yeah but ill be back before u go home or u spending the night here"my dad asked Kajay
"mama said i stay here with her tonight"kajay said smiling
"then u will see me tonight "my dad placed Kajay on the sofa with me and kissed kajay head
"okay GrampaJ"kajay said kissing my dad on his cheek
"she u later dad"i said kissing his cheek
he kissed my forehead "see u later babygirl"he said grabbing his Galaxy Tablet and headed out
he dapped travis and went on his way
"u good NaeNae"Travis asked as i coverd Kajay up he layed down and played on my mini Tablet with headphones in his ears
"yeah that was just crazy never have i had thought my dad would be august doctor and never would have i thought i would ever get a chance to see him again anit just hit me all at once Travis ,i didnt wanna go down memory lane it wasnt fun going down that road again it took alot of forgiving to do for my mom all my rapist and him leaving me when i was 5 i went through fckin hell ,but im happy im givin a seccond chance for all of this because ...im happy now i was blessed with the man of my life and world and his big head babies "i said looking at august hooked up to all those machines
"i know what u mean but like they say U have to go through in order to get through,so u basiclly did NaeNae ur almost complete in everything u r the real M.V.P.ur amazing at what u do so ur more than life itself.im proud champ take it easy let everything fall into place stop stressing my lil nephew and ur self out u dont need the extra stress."travis said hugging me before he left out
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~4 1/2 hours later ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~8:30pm
i made my way to august and sat there and thought about what i wanted to say
i placed his hand on my big belly and Our son know the touch of each and everyone who places there hand on my stomach.
i smiled and rubbed his hand
"hey babe,i love and i miss u ,i need u to wake up for me we need u i (brokedown) i -i met my father for the first time again since i was five and guess what h-he's ur doctor we had a long conversation it got to the point were we went down memory lane from the day he left and everything but the best part is were now reconecting and getting back on track Kajay and him is bonding great so far ,i wonder is he married again and have any more children idk ill ask later but i miss u baby i love u uhmm Lil man is doing great But dr Marlia Is saying i gotta take it easy cause i lost a lot of weight so im eating more and drinking enssure to try and get some more weight on tho but love u baby night"i said placing his hand by his side i got up and made sure he was tucked in.I leaned (standed on my tippy toes)and kissed his pale pink lips .and made my way to my lil bed on the otherside of the room and went to sleep so i can be up by 10
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~August p.o.v.(drift off)~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
i heard talking but couldnt move or tallk or open my eyes were am i
Daddy Daddy
i turnt around an i-it was my daughter Kiya
"Kiya baby is that you"i asked walking to her
"hi daddy u miss me "she came over with her teddy bear mr Muffiintop
"yes baby but were are we"i asked looking at ppl that looked hella familiar
"were in the drift off area well u are im a angel daddy look"she said getting up
she showed me her wings and her Halo she was glowing
"wow baby nice u miss mommy and us"i asked once she sat back down with me
"yes but im -im more happy here tho i miss yall alot but daddy dont blame what happend to me was ur fault its not so stop daddy i love u and miss u but i have to go he's waiting on me"she said getting ready to go
"wait can daddy get a hug first?"i asked opening my arms out
"yeah"she hugged me next thing i see and hear is my brotha mel
"Come on Kiya ur not suppose to be down here for this long"mel said picking up kiya
"m-Mel"i said his name
"A-August bro whatcha doing here man it aint ur time"he said hugging me
"idk i cant move or wake up but i can hear everything u know"i said listeng to Kajay and Shanel
"let me hear"mel said sitting down next to me with kiya slepping on his chest
"mama i kiss daddy head too?"Kajay asked Rennie
"hi daddy i lobe and miss u ,i won the spelling be i was first place ,mama said im real smart like u an her i pass all my classes except for uhmm mommy what the word"Kajay said to me
"its English Language baby"rennie said to him
"yea daddy i mad at myself i have to do makeup work if i wanna get my grade up mama and mrsClare said but ill just do it 2mm but ima let u contju to rest daddy love u talk to u before i go sleep"kajay said then crawled off the bed
"man he look just like Rennie she truly is beautiful bro"mel said touching my shoulder and smiling
"thanks man i miss u we all miss u i wish u could meet Rennie and some ppl"i said to him and put my head down
"man i met her long time ago"he said waving me off
"man please"i said laughing
"nah for real i sent you to her if that makes sense-u know what lets go back and ill show u ok"he said as the this vision appered
FlashBack
August was walking to the front of the building but his hat blown in the direction of this tree were this preety thick girl sat with her purple beats on her head bopping to her music.He picked up his hat dusted it off and put it back on..He started at rennie she looked up cause she felt some one looking she looked and there eyes connected and they been connected ever since..the first day of school..
FlashBack over.....................................................................................................................................
"oh man u right cause i wasnt even going in that direction till my hat went there an i went to her after,ohh u think ur ass cupid dnt u "i said making us laugh
"nah not really but i met her she the one listen to her and look"he said as a fuzzy thing appeared infront of us again.
"hey babe,i love and i miss u ,i need u to wake up for me we need u i (brokedown) i -i met my father for the first time again since i was five and guess what h-he's ur doctor we had a long conversation it got to the point were we went down memory lane from the day he left and everything but the best part is were now reconecting and getting back on track Kajay and him is bonding great so far ,i wonder is he married again and have any more children idk ill ask later but i miss u baby i love u uhmm Lil man is doing great But dr Marlia Is saying i gotta take it easy cause i lost a lot of weight so im eating more and drinking enssure to try and get some more weight on tho but love u baby night"i said placing his hand by his side i got up and made sure he was tucked in.I leaned (standed on my tippy toes)and kissed his pale pink lips .and made my way to my lil bed on the otherside of the room and went to sleep so i can be up by 10
welll there yall go just a filler for now
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