Requested by @twix242
I feel like..something is missing.
Something about my memories are just..weird.
We were in the middle of our first class trial, but I couldn't focus at all.
It feels like..I have done this before.
A few times, actually.
I remember faces of people I don't even know.
But they were standing here once too. With..me?
Who were those people?
This class trial..these things about hope and despair..
I....heard that before.
This doesn't feel new to me at all.
I snapped out of my thoughts as I heard someone calling my name.
"Cassie? Hello??"
"Ah, uhm yeah? What is it?"
"Do you know something? You looked like you were deep in thought."
"Oh, ah, don't mind me. Just thinking too much."
I awkwardly laughed it off.
I looked over to Nagito.
When our eyes met, I quickly looked away.
Maybe I had a crush on him.
Ugh! That doesn't matter now! You need to figure out these memories first!
I tried to remember so bad, but couldn't.
I didn't notice much about the trial.
The others were quite devastated after the execution.
But as I said, that's not new to me.
..I think?
I left and went to my cottage.
This is just too much..
I think I fell asleep, and when I woke up, it was pitch black outside.
Guess I get some food.
"Ah! Sorry!"
I bumped into someone.
"It's no problem! Such a shame that you had to bump into someone like me."
I gave him a soft smile.
"Better you than someone else.."
I said quietly.
"Hm? What was that?"
"Nothing! See you around!"
I quickly left.
Why did I had to say that?????
Embarrassing!
This night I had a weird..dream?
I remembered a school, and strangely enough there were rooms for some of the students?
"Hey Cassie, what's your alibi?"
A blond boy asked me.
Who is he?
"My alibi? I was with you remember?"
At this point, I heard the Monokuma morning announcement.
I rub my eyes.
Well..that sure was a strange dream.
If it even was a dream..
I should go meet the others.
"Hey guys, what's up.."
"Good morning Cassie.."
Chiaki greeted me.
Everybody looked..down.
Well no wonder after yesterday.
Everything was quite..normal for some time..
I sadly didn't remember anything.. But everything still felt..weird.
Until this day.
"YOU DID WHAT?"
I screamed at Nagito during the trial.
"I tried the final deadroom."
I knew he was a little insane here and there..but..that he would go this far..and..with..5 out of 6 bullets..
My eyes began to water as I continued to scream.
"WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT? DO YOU REALIZE WHAT COULD HAVE HAPPENED? Do you realize..I could have lost you.."
I whispered the last part.
The thought that I could have lost him is..terrible.
"Why the hell are you getting so worked up? Are you two together or what?"
I looked over to Nagito, then quietly said: "N-No.."
I stayed quieter during the trial.
I didn't even look at him, I just couldn't.
I was glad when it was over.
I wanted to return to my room but someone called out my name.
"Cassie?"
I knew that voice only too well.
My feelings were all mixed up, but I still turned around.
"Can we talk? It's important.."
I just shyly nodded.
I followed him into his cottage.
"Take a look at this."
I couldn't believe my eyes.
My knees were almost giving in as I looked at the pictures.
The survivers of the first killing game..
1..Byakyua Togami
2..
3..
4..
5..
6..
7..Cassie..
I..I was in the first killing game? This really is..my second one?
So I was right?
But..why?
Tears were rolling down my face as I suddenly had a very bad head ache.
I sank to the floor, didn't notice my surroundings anymore.
I was trapped in a memory.
I..
Remember.
I woke up in a hospital, confused about how I even came here.
"Ah, you're awake. You suddenly passed out, I didn't know what to do so I brought you here."
"Nagito?"
"I understand if you don't want to see me, I better leave."
"N-No...!"
I really wanted him to stay.
And then it popped up in my mind again.
"Hey Nagito..I think I remember something from what you showed me yesterday.."
I don't know if I should tell him that, but I need to get it off my chest.
"Ah, yeah, that. Would you like to tell me? I-I can understand if you don't, but it may be helpful."
"Y-Yeah.."
I told him everything that crossed my mind.
I was in that school, with all these students..
The class trials..
The murders..
But there was one thing I couldn't remember.
How did I got here?
"That's.. Weird. Why would you be in a killing game again?"
I may not know that.
But..
There is something else..
My..sister?
My sister..was killed..
Yeah..killed..
From this little shit and his friend.
"I remember now!"
I screamed.
"W-What? Do you know-"
"Excuse me, I need to go."
I rushed out of the hospital.
I searched the entire island until I finally found him.
"YOU LITTLE SHIT! I FINALLY FOUND YOU!"
I grabbed him and pushed him against a wall.
"What the fuck-?!"
"You little Bastard killed my fucking sister!! With your bitch Peko!"
"Don't fucking call her a bitch! Bitch."
"I should just kill you. Yeah..maybe I should just.."
I kept whispering these this stuff as my hands grew tighter and tighter around his neck.
"Despair.. You killed.. Her.. I wasn't.. She wasn't.."
"Cassie what are you doing??"
A hand pulled me away from him.
"Nagito?"
When I saw him, I snapped out of my insanity.
I looked at my hands.
I was shaking.
"S-Shit.."
I looked over to the Yakuza I was trying to murder only a few seconds ago.
"We should just go for now."
I nodded and we went to his cottage.
"What was that just now??"
"I u-uh.."
He sat down next to me and took my hands.
"There is something you're not telling me."
"T-That is.."
I blushed hard, lost for words. My mind was now only concentrated on him.
"Please.. Trust me.."
"I-I- I do trust you.."
"I'm glad to hear that but..why are you shaking so much? Are you.. scared?"
He paused for a second and let go of my hands.
"Ah, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have-"
"I don't m-mind at all.."
I know this isn't why I am here..or what I should think about..but I..can't think of anything else..
"N-Nagito..? I-I know this isn't what we are here for but..I can't thing straight if I am not saying this right know.."
His eyes widened, but I needed to go on..
"I uh..really like you!"
I blurred out. My eyes shout, I waited for an answer.
Maybe he will reject me, but there might be a chance he felt the same way.
"Cassie.."
"I-I'm sorry..I shouldn't have said anything.."
"No it's just..so sudden.."
"I-I just needed to say it. I just..couldn't concentrate otherwise.."
"You're weird."
He laughed.
"You almost killed someone, yet you're only thinking about me."
"S-Sorry.."
"It's cute."
"C-Cute?"
I could feel my face getting all red.
He placed one of his hands on my cheek and looked me deep in the eyes.
"Now tell me..why were you trying to..you know.."
"Because he killed my sister."
"So you know him?"
"That's what I remember."
"But..maybe these memories aren't even real. You never know. Even that book could be all fake."
"I guess you're right.."
"Maybe that's just another motive. You shouldn't do anything stupid."
"Yeah..thanks for calming me down."
....
....
But it was all real.
After we woke up..
From this..sick fucking game.
They told us.
I had to do this twice because.. I fell into despair too.
My sister..really did die.
I would've killed this fucker who did it but..
I don't really think it was his fault after all.
It was Junkos.
The woman..
Who did us so things we didn't wanted.
Things, we had no control over.
I'm just glad it's over and.. That we did have our good ending.
I would call anything a good ending without killing.
"I love you, Nagito."
"I love you too."