You're Love
Tinakpan ko ang buong katawan ko ng kumot. Sumiksik ako sa gilid ng higaan at sumandal doon. Heros on the other hand look stiff as he embrace his body.
Hindi kami halos maka tingin sa isa't-isa. Siya dahil umiiwas at ako dahil nahihiya't kinakabahan. My heart is pounding so hard. Mas lalo kaming nawalan ng pag-asa ng halos lumipas na ata ang isang oras at hindi parin tumitila ang ulan. Bagkus ay mas lumakas ito na parang may bagyo. Hindi naman ganito kanina ah?
Tiningnan ko si Heros matapos ang halos isang oras kong pag pigil na hindi siya tingnan. He is now shivering in cold at sumiksik narin siya sa wall. Napatingin ako sa kumot na binabalot ko sa katawan at mukhang kakasya naman kami siguro dito. Medyo malaki kasi ang kumot na parang bed sheet kaya lang ay manipis.
"Heros..." Nanginig ang boses ko kasabay ng panginginig ng bibig ko. "Come here. It's cold there. Let's share this blanket."
Umiling lang siya. "Don't worry about me. Just stay there. Sleep if you want. I'll wake you up once the rain stops."
Bumuntong-hininga ako. "Come on. Huwag ng matigas ang ulo." Pero matigas parin siyang umiling at nanatili kung saan siya nakasiksik.
Tumayo ako para lapitan siya ng biglang kumulog ng malakas. Napatili ako sabay siksik uli sa pwesto ko kanina.
"Heros! I'm scared!" Mahinang sambit ko habang itinalukbong ang kumot sa buong katawan ko pati mukha.
I heard Heros curses again. And before I could spat him ay tumayo na siya't lumapit sa'kin. Kumulog uli at napatili na naman ako.
He hug me tightly as he was trying to calm me down. Mas sumiksik ako sa kanya lalo na no'ng kumulog uli na parang magigiba ang bubong sa kalakasan nito.
"I'm scared..." I said and hug him tightly.
"Shushh... It's alright baby. I'm here. I'm here..." Hinaplos niya ang buhok sa likod ko sabay tapik-tapik sa'king likod.
We stayed in that position until the thunder and lightning stops. Though the it stops, the rain becomes more strong. Naririnig din namin ang ihip ng malakas na hangin.
"Magiging ayos lang ba ang mga pananim niyo?" I ask after a long silence.
Parehas kaming naka sandal sa dingding habang magkatabi. Idinantay ko ang ulo ko sa balikat niya habang magkahawak ang aming mga kamay sa ilalim ng kumot.
Hinaplos niya ang kamay ko ng kay rahan. "As long hindi bagyo maayos lang. But I still need to check it tomorrow."
"Mukhang bagyo ata 'to eh." Tumingin ako sa kanya.
"If the rain won't stop tomorrow morning then it is. Let's just hope na lilipas agad 'to."
"You seem to love your land."
Ramdam ko at kita ko kung gaano siya ka hands on sa pamamalakad ng hacienda nila. Sa kaibahan nilang tatlong magkakapatid, siya lang ang nakitaan kong todo buhos ang oras. Busy si Mayor Hex sa career niya at si Hellina naman hindi masyadong involve sa ngayon dahil sa pagbubuntis.
"Zaccarrio is my home."
"But you grow up in California?"
"I love California too but I can never replace Zaccarrio to other places." Aniya.
"Why?"
Nagkibit-balikat siya. "I like everything here. I feel at peace and free."
"Bakit? Hindi ka ba naging peace at free while growing up in California?" Now this is the first time we talk on a lightly matters. Ngayon ko lang na realize na hindi pa namin kilala masyado ang isa't-isa.
"Kind of. I was busy with my school and looking out for my sister. I didn't have free time as much as I have when I came home here."
Tumango-tango naman ako. "So you were like a strict parent growing up as a teen?"
He chuckle and look at me with an amuse eyes. "I have to since kami lang ni Hellina sa states. Though Mom and Dad visit us often times."
"Talaga? Why do you have to live there pala?"
"It's for our own safety. Our life was at risk before from our rival enemies."
I gasp with what he says. "May mga kaaway kayo?"
"The del Carmen clan. Though we are all civil now. Thanks to Gileon and my sister."
"You mean sila ang pumutol sa hidwaan ng mga pamilya niyo?" He nodded. "Nakakagulat naman 'yang revelation mo." Kaya pala ganoon ang pagkagulat ni Manang Zana noong malaman niyang anak ng isang del Carmen ang napangasawa ni Hellina. Narinig ko narin ito noong napag-usapan nila pero hindi ko lang masyadong naintindihan.
Humalakhak siya saka niya pinagpatuloy ang pag haplos at pisil-pisil sa mga daliri ko.
"Pero bakit kayo lang ang pinadala dalawa ni Hellina sa states? What about Mayor Hex? Saan siya lumaki?" Now this is all too exciting for me to know!
"Here."
"Huh?" Ngumiti lang siya. "Bakit hindi din siya pinapunta sa California kung para sa safety niyo lang pala ang dahilan kung bakit niyo kinailangan tumira doon?"
Ilang sandali siyang nanahimik bago naka sagot. "He is Dad's favorite." Aniya at ngumiti uli.
But I didn't see his smile as happy as he tried to show me. Parang may guhit na lungkot at pait doon sa ngiti niya lalo na sa kanyang mga mata. Is he hurting? Is he jealous? Pansin ko rin kasi na mas close si Mayor Hex kay Tito Heu at si Hellina naman kay Tita Mariella. Whenever we eat meals together at wala sila, they always talk about Hex achivement and Hellina's life. Ang naririnig ko lang minsan kay Tito Heu ay tuwing nagtatanong siya kung kamusta ang pamamalakad ni Heros sa kanilang hacienda at rancho. Though Tita Mariella always emphasizes Heros credibility as the rightful leader to lead their business into success.
"You are too. Mahal ka ng Dad at Mommy mo." I convince him but he only smile at me.
Aw, my poor baby is jealous. I cup his cheek and kiss him on the side of his lips.
"You are love, okay? At tsaka I'm here. I love you..." And finally... I have said it to him. Hindi lang sa dahil gusto ko siyang e cheer up ngayon pero dahil sa gusto kong ipaalam sa kanya.
Two months maybe is a short time but my love for him is as sure as heaven. I didn't even know how it started. I just found myself waking up in the morning and feeling that my heart beats uncontrolably because of him. For some it needs to build friendship and trust first before you enter in a relationship. For me it needs genuine emotions and two committed person to prove it is true, that is is love.
"Did you just say those three words?" He look shock with my words. I chuckle and nodded. "You better not be joking Allyana."
"Hindi pa ba halata?" I laugh again.
He spit curses then he pull me and lock our lips together. I moan as his lips and tongue gives erotic feelings in this blazing cold weather.
I pull him more closer and lock his neck in my arms. His kisses were so intimate, slow and passionate. I could feel my heart beating louder than the rain. His touch ignite fire in my whole system that I lose my control and let him rule me. I want to surrender my all to him, to the first man I ever love.
"Baby..." I called him in between our kisses. Para na akong malalasing. Nalalasahan ko din ang alak sa labi niya. Nakalimutan kong uminom pala siya kanina. Magkahalong mapait at matamis tuloy ang nalalasahan ko sa kanyang mga labi. Ngunit mas nangibabaw ang tamis at init doon.
"Oh fuck!" He stop our kisses.
Habol ko ang hininga ko habang naka tingin ako sa kamay kong naka kuyom sa may dibdib na parte ng kanyang shirt. Nagusot ko na naman ito.
"What's stopping you?" Takang tanong ko.
Para akong bulkang sasabog sa pag-aasam na muntik ko ng makamit pero bigla niyang hininto.
"This is not right, Aya. You're still young. We can wait for this at the right time." Giit niya at akmang aalis sa tabi ko ng pigilan ko siya.
"I don't care. All I want is you, Heros. I love you and I want to give my all to you!" I said trembling.
Magkahalong kaba, takot at pagdadalawang-isip ang nararamdaman ko. I'm nervous because I have no experience. I am scared because I don't know what will happen next. And I'm doubting because I am not sure if I can hold unto this decision without asking myself in the future. Though mas matimbang sa'kin ngayon ang kagustohan na maipadama sa kanya ang pagmamahal ko. I can only express it best to him through this.
"I want it too but I want it done in a right way. Not like this because we are trap in a room."
"So that's how you think... Ano tingin mo sa'kin, malibog?" Disappointed akong umiling sa kanya saka ako umalis sa kama.
"Baby, no. It's not like that." Maamo niyang sabi at sinundan agad ako.
"Then what?" Galit na naiinis kong tanong. Why can't he understand that I want this because I love him and not for fucking lust!
"I love you and I respected you a lot."
"You love me?" I can hear inside in my chest the drum rolls playing loudly. Kumirot ang puso ko sa tuwa.
"Hindi mo din halata?" A small smile is forming in his lips but he tried hard not to show it.
Tinampal ko ng malakas ang dibdib niya. "How come you not say it!"
He grab my hand and put it on his waist. He embrace me in his arms and kiss me again on my lips.
"Do I really need to say it? Shouldn't love be felt and not said?" He said after our kiss.
"Of course it should be both! God give us lips to spread the word of love." Nakatingala kong sabi.
"Then from now on I'll never stop saying I love you." He said and smile at me.
"You should not stop showing it too!" I demanded.
He softly chuckle and nodded. "I won't."
Inangkla ko ang kamay ko sa kanyang magkabilang balikat at walang sabi siyang hinalikan. He pull me closer making me tiptoe just so I could reach him. He is so tall that even if he's bowing his head to reach me ay hirap parin akong abotin siya.
Naramdaman ko nalang na binuhat niya ako. Inangkla niya ang magkabilang binti ko sa kanyang baywang. His two other hand supported my back.
Our lips were lock as I grind my hips to him. I can feel the rising heat again in my whole system. I feel so arouse and turned on. Hindi 'to sa ulan at dahil naka kulong kami sa isang kwarto. It is my ablazing wild love for him that makes me feel so much heat and thirst for him.
"Easy, baby..." He said and layed me down in the bed again. The bed is smaller to him but perfectly fits for me.
He pulled off his shirt showing me his perfect naked body. His chest were firm and strong as his muscles in the arm.
He went on top of me and kiss me sensesly again. I feel so waisted drunk because of how good he kiss. Napaka eksperto niya sa bagay na ito. Halatang playboy talaga.
I grab and pull his hair tightly. Nainis ako bigla ng isiping marami na siyang babaeng ikinama.
"Baby my head hurts. Will you be gentle?" Maamo niyang sabi pero mas lalo lang ata akong nainis.
"You bed a lot of woman that's why you're a good kisser!" Inis na inis kong sambit.
"What?" Kunot noo at nalilito niyang binabasa ang mga mata ko. It took him awhile before he understand my mood.
"Stop kissing me like how you kisses them!" I spat.
His lips rose as he stare at me intently. "Oh baby, I never kiss any woman like this but you." He said and shower me with kisses. "And I won't make love with any woman like what we will do tonight until morning."
Until morning? Oh! He must be kidding right? But I don't think he is a as he looks dangerously serious with his words!