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> Alternate Ending
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> AN- This is going to start back at chapter 62 When shes just gotten home from the hospital and she was originally sleeping non-stop. Also pretend that her cast is off her leg.
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> Day 4 out of the hospital
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> "Carson, Carson."I open my eyes to see my mother standing over me."Its breakfast time." She tells me.
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> I look around and suddenly everything thats happened rushes back to me. I make some kind of noise and roll over. I can hear her leave and shut the door behind her. I try to fall back asleep and just as I'm about to my phone goes off. I just ignore it and go back to sleep.
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> "Carson, Wake up." This time my sleep is disturbed by my father. I could tell by the lack of light in the room it was late.
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> "Its time for dinner, Could you please come down and eat with us?" I shake my head no and close my eyes again.
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> "Love?" I hear Niall's voice loud and clear. I open my eyes to see him with a tray full of food. "You need to eat." I shake my head no. "Come on. Please."
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> He hold out a pice of bread for me. I look at it for a second then take it knowing I can't win with Niall. I eat slowly. We don't speak. I just eat while he rubs my leg. I don't know what to say and I don't really have anything. I never know what to say in weird situations. Thats what Niall usually does.
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> "We will get through this, I promise." He says once I've eaten and laid back down in bed. I look up at him as he sits next to me. I can feel tears slide down my face and he brushes them away.
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> "It hurts Niall." I tell him. He gets a really panicked expression.
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> "What does? Your leg?" His hands move from my sides.
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> "No, not physically."I shake my head. He relaxes.
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> "Oh, I know, Love." He lays and cuddles next to me. He holds me and I squeeze him. I don't ever want to let go.
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> Day 5 out of the hospital:
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> "Hey Carson,"I open my eyes and Charlie is sitting above me. "Jeremy is on the phone for you." She holds out the phone for him. Great. I can't talk to him. I've already disappointed him so much. I shake my head no. She sighs and leaves. I roll back over and close my eyes when my phone goes off again. I ignore it again but it goes off again and again. I groan and sit up. I pick up my phone and I have ten messages. I look at the first and its from Niall.
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> I know your sleeping but I had to run to the studio, I'm sorry. I'll be home soon. I love you so much. Always remember that. xNiall
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> I actually smile at that. I move on to my other texts going to answer Niall in a second.What I read shocks everything out of me. Any sadness, happiness, everything.
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> Leave Niall. Break it off with him and leave. Don't stay with him or else you both will be suffering more than you are now. You have 2 weeks to leave him. You must be out of his live completely by october 20th or you both will be in danger. Leave him Carson. Don't tell anyone about this text, I will know and they will be at risk then too. If you tell the police, what happens, everyone you love will be up to me.
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> I drop my phone and back away. What the hell?! Who would send that? Is this some kind of joke?!
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> I grab my phone and look at the sender, Unknown. Great. What do I do? I look at all the other texts, their the same one sent over and over again. Then my phone buzzes again.
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> Don't even think this is fake. Its real I assure you. If you don't believe me, just wait. You'll see.
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> Do I tell someone? No, the text said not to. But how would they know really? They wouldn't. There is no way they could have known. Its impossible.Unless they've bugged the house. Could I tell the police? Could they help? But then Niall would get hurt. I can't tell Charlie, Louis, Liam. Anyone. And I have ..3 days to leave? What the heck?! How am I suppose to..I can't leave! I don't want to leave! Why would someone do this?!
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> I can't leave Niall! I may be sad right now but I just need time. I just lost two people who were going to and do mean so much to me. I don't want to leave. I love him.I need him. Hes my everything. But who ever this is,what if there being serious? I can't let Niall get hurt. I could care less about me. I've already been hurt. But what would happen to Niall? I can't let him get hurt. Or anyone else. I won't be able to live knowing they got hurt because of me.
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> I go back to Niall's text. Should I respond? Should I just leave. Charlie's probably the only one here since Niall said he had to go the studio. Maybe my parents, I don't really now. I could pack, she probably thinks I went back to sleep and then I just have to be gone before Niall gets back. But leaving him now means leaving him forever. I can't do that. I can't be without him. I don't see a world with out him. I never have and I never want to. I love him. I love him so much.
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> But whoever this phyco is. I can't let them hurt Niall, or any one I love. That would be worse than me leaving. I stare at the wall for maybe twenty minutes. I need to decide. Niall will be home soon. I......I have to go. I can feel tears as I picture whats going to happen. To my life with out him. No more having someone to hold me when I'm scared. No more kisses, no more laughing, no more tickle fights, no more cuddling, no more anything. I fall to the ground crying. What if he finds someone else?
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> No. I try stopping myself. Time for crying is later. I rush to start packing. I throw clothes in my suitcase and grab all the things I really need. Then I stop. Where am I going to go?The only other place I have is America. So I'll finish packing then get out of here and book the next flight.... I can't believe I'm really thinking this. I can't believe this is really happening. I shake my head. I have to do this. Its to save him from whatever phyco is doing this.
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> I pick up a pice of paper and write a note to Niall,
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> Niall, I know your going to be wondering where I am. I'm really really sorry. But I can't do this anymore. We wren't going to work out. I just think its best if we both moved on. I'm really sorry. Please don't try contacting me its for the best. I wish things could be different. Always, Carson.
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> The paper is still in my hands. I stare at it. Its has lies written all over it. I don't think its best if we move on. I think its best if were together. He has to think I feel this way though.If I say it like this then he won't come after me endangering himself.
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> Tears fall from my face and land on the paper leaving stains. I look at my left hand and pull the ring off he gave me. I set both of them on the dresser. I stare at them. This is horrible. I hate whoever is doing this. I hate them so much! Who would do this?! I shake the tears away.
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> I wipe my eyes and make a move to go to my room remembering something I want. I grab the handle and open the door slowly. I peak my head out and no one is there. I go to my room and I grab what I came for. The picture book of mine and Niall's. The one he helped me make. It has the pictures of us from forever. Our whole relationship up until two days before the accident is in here. Pictures and notes we made next to them and notes to each other. I could not leave this.
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> I sneak back to Niall's room and close the door. I place a few more things I'll need in my suitcase. I start to zip it up and I realize everything is now real. I'm really doing this. I'm really leaving. I'm really leaving my life. I'm really leaving my whole life behind. I stand with my hands on the suitcase.
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> "Carson?" I turn, my heart stopping. Niall is standing in the door way with Liam behind him. They both have the most shocked faces. Liam has something in his hands. I can't really see what it is. I don't want to know.
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> "What are you doing?" Niall's voice is weak. Liam's is just looking from me to Niall.
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> "I..I'm..." I can't even say it. I'm trying to not let myself cry. He can't know the reason why. I can't tell him. I see Liam backing away from Niall without saying anything. "Niall." I start.
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> "Are you leaving?" He asks. The tears are threating me now. I look down and nod. God! Why do I have to do this?!
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> "Why?" His voice is only a whisper. God, why do I have to do this!? I hate whoever is making me do this! I hate them!
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> "I have to." Is all I can get out and even my voice cracks. I don't want to do this. I don't want to be mean. I don't want to leave Niall. I want to stay here, I want to stay in his arms. I don't want to be anywhere else, ever.
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> Just loosing our babies and now I have to leave Niall or else! Its ridiculous. Maybe I should just tell him. He'll help me figure something out. He won't let them touch either of us. But then we'll have to go into hiding. He'll have to leave his friends, family, career. Everything. I can't do that to him. This is the easiest way.
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> "What do you mean? You don't have to! I know things have been hard, of course its going to be but we can work through this. We can. I promise. I'll do whatever you want. Please, just don't go." Hes moved closer to me now and has his arms grabbing mine. Tears are in his eyes but not yet flowing.
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> "Niall, we can't. We just aren't going to get through it. Its just not going to work. We aren't going to work." I shake my head.
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> "We will. I swear. I love you so much. I love you more than anything. I'll do whatever you want. Please, don't leave me. I can't live without you. Please Carson, Please.I'm begging you. Things can and will get better." His starring at me begging me. God I wish I could say yes. I wish I could just give in. I want to. I want to tell him its all because someone is making me. All because some phyco is trying to ruin out lives. But I can't I have to find someway for him to let me go.
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> "Niall, there is nothing you can do. Nothing you can say. I...I'm leaving. Please don't beg me to stay because its not going to work. I'm sorry." I touch his arm, he has tears that are rolling down his cheeks now. Seeing him cry just makes me want to die.
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> "Why?" He asks again. His blue eyes are filled with tears, tears I caused, because of some fricken phyco out there! I can't stand it when he cries. I really can't.
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> I push back tears with everything I have. Its mostly not working at all. I loose it when he cries. "Because, were not good for each other. This experience has shown me that. Were not meant to be Niall. I'm sorry." I move away from him. He won't stop crying and everything in me is screaming to go and hug him and tell him everything, but I can't. I grab my bag and start to wheel it out of the room.
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> "Please, don't go." He says one last time. I don't even turn around I know if I do, I'll give in.
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> "I have to. And Please, don't try contacting me. It's for the best." I start walking down the hall as tears start to finally fall.
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> "Carson, why are you crying?" I hear my mother ask. I look up and see shes standing at the top of the stairs.
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> "Can we just please go home?" I ask her.
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> "What?" She looks confused.
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> "Could you please just take me home." I say walking past her.
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> "Wait, now? I don't understand." She stops me.
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> "I want to go home, now. Get dad and can we please book the next flight home?" I start walking down the stairs.
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> She looks at me funny then says,"Honey do you really want to do this?" I nod. She shakes her head and sighs.
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> "Alright, I'll tell your father. Hes at the hotel now. I'll call him. Put your things in the car and we'll go. But honey, you may want to rethink this. I promise you you'll regret it if you don't." Theres a loud thump upstairs, but I keep walking. Everyone stares at me as I walk past. Theres more loud thumps from upstairs and I hear people run up the stairs.
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> "Hey, hey. Whats going on?" Harry stops me. "Whats with the suitcase? And why are you crying?" He looks down.
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> "I'm going home." I get out from behind tears.
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> "What why?" Harry asks confused.
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> "Your going home?"Charlie stands up from the table.I rush over to her and grab her hand. I pull her and my suitcase outside.
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> "Whats going on?" She asks as soon as we get outside.
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> "I broke up with Niall and I know your freaking out I am too. Please don't make me feel any worse. But I can't get all of my stuff out of here. Its going to be too hard. So could you please and send them to my house in America?"
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> "Woah! Slow down. Why did you break up with him?" She holds up her hands.
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> "I..I had to. I can't explain. I wish I could have. I wish I didn't have to, but I did. And I wish I could tell you but I can't." I say through tears. "So could you please just send my stuff to me?" She holds her hands to her head.
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> "Wait. Why can't you tell me?"She asks again. I stomp at the ground.
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> "I can't! I can't tell anyone.Just please! " She looks startled.
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> "Fine."She says. I turn away from her for a second to hide my tears. "Are you crying?" She asks. I can't deny it, its obvious. I just nod. "Then why are you doing this." She whispers.
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> "I can't tell you." I repeat.
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> "Carson, your fathers getting us a flight."My mother says coming around the house. She sees us and stops. She slowly comes to us. "Honey, why are you doing this?"Why does everyone keep asking?! I can't say!
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> "I can't tell. I can't tell anyone. Ever." I grab the suitcase and head to the car. Charlie and my mom stand and talk for a few seconds as I put everything in my moms rental car. Then she comes and we get ready to leave. I wave to Charlie. I'm going to miss her.
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> Just as we start to pull away I see Harry and Liam rush out of the house and to the car. Then Louis, Zayn and Niall come out just as were pulling down the street. There all going to the car.I see Charlie run for the car two seconds later just as we pull out of view. Where are they going? I hope not to follow me.
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> "Our flight is in four hours." My father informs my mother and I. I don't say anything, just sit in my little ball on the chair of the hotel room. I'm trying not to cry.I just need to wait. Wait until I'm home. In my own bed. Until I'm alone. But that seems so far from now. My phone goes off.
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> Very good. Since you have done what I have asked. Niall and no one you love shall be hurt. They are all safe. If your wondering who I am. Stop. You'll never find out. If your wondering why. Well lets just say because its not fair for either one of you to be together. Its not right. I will not contact you again. Good-bye.
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> That was the weirdest text of my life. At least Niall and everyone is safe. I don't have to worry about them getting hurt now. I wish I could text this person back and just yell at them. How is it not fair for Niall and I to be together? We were fine. We weren't hurting anyone else. And I will never stop wondering who ruined my life. Ever.
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> *Knock, knock knock* I look toward the door. *knock knock knock* My mother stands to open it. She opens it and I can see Liam and Louis in the door. I stand up.
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> "Yes boys?" My mother asks.
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> "We need to talk to Carson." Liam says I move, so I can't see them but hear them.
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> "I..I'm afraid she doesn't want to see you boys. I'm sorry." My mother tells them.
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> "Please, Carson! I know your in there. Just listen! We know you love Niall and he loves you so why would you do this?" Louis yells. I fall to the floor crying. I'm literally sobbing. I don't care who hears or sees. I do love him! I love him so much. I didn't want to leave! I want so badly to tell everyone!
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> "Okay boys, Please." My mother tries to get them to leave.
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> "No, please. She can't do this. Niall needs her. He punch a wall right after she left and broke his hand. He totally trashed his room. Its destroyed.We had to pull him out of his room while he yelled at us." Liam says. My heart stops.
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> "Is he going to be okay?" My mother asks. Of course she has to be so concerned. But I actually do want to know if he'll be okay.
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> "Trish!" My father scolds her standing and joining her side.
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> "I'm really sorry fellas, but Carson shes kind of...um." He looks for the word while I sob on the floor. He broke his hand?! Trashed his room?! Because of me?! I didn't think he'd freak like that. Oh my god, I'm a horrible person. I never wanted this! Never! I hate the bastard who did this to me.
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> "Shes a mess right now." My mother says.
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> "So is Niall, so why did she leave?" Louis asks. I just want to scream!
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> "Boys thats her and Niall's issues." My father says.
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> "But she wouldn't even tell him it makes no sense." Liam says this time.
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> "I'm sorry. But thats just how it works sometimes. Now if you would please excuses us, we need to get ready for our flight." He says.
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> "Flight?" One of them asks.
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> "Yes, were going home." My mother says.
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> "No! You guys can't!" Liam says.
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> "I'm sorry but we are, now if you'll please move so we can shut the door."
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> I hear some rustling and then the door closes. I stay where I am letting the sobs go. My mother comes over and grabs me into a hug. She hold me for what feels like forever.
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> Theres another knock at the door. My father groans. "Those damn boys are so persistent." He stands and walks to the door.
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> "Oh, hello Charlie." He says I sit up straighter and look around my mother for my best friend.
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> "Can I come in?" She asks.
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> "Of course, please." My father opens the door wider and I see her standing with a suit case.
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> "What are you doing here?"I ask standing.
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> "Do you really think I was going to let you deal with this alone?" She smiles. I can't help it I run and hug her.
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> "Well here we are. Home sweet home."My mother opens the door. I slowly walk in with Charlie at my side. I'm so glad she came. She somehow found out what flight we were on and booked a seat on that flight too. She truly is the world's greatest friend. I'm so glad she came. She kept me distracted the whole plan ride here by making me play stupid little games or talking about when we were kids. When I wouldn't want to talk she would hit my boob. Which if your a girl and you've never had it happen it hurts..a lot. So I would give in. Thats why I love her.
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> Its really late and I can't see anything. I flip on the light switch and then start dragging my suitcase up the stairs to my room. Charlie's not far behind me with hers. It feels so weird being here and knowing I don't have another life anywhere but here. My life is here now. Forever. I will probably never leave the united states again.
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> The house seems scary and quite as make our way to my room. I have to keep flipping on lights. We get to my room and I flip on the light. I see everything. My dresser my trundle bed that my parents bought because Charlie basically lived here when we were younger. And..the posters on my wall..of one direction..and of him. Charlie runs in front of me and starts ripping them all down, one by one. Each poster, each one before my relationship with him. Before I really knew what love was. When I was with Jordan. I thought I did. Then he turned around and hurt me. I never knew what love was until...Niall. He showed me so much.
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> So many things that will stay with me forever. He gave me so many wonderful memories, that I will cherish forever. He showed me how to love and he showed me I will never love anyone like that ever again. No matter what. I flop onto my bed and curl into a ball.
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> "Hey wake up." I groan as Charlie tries waking me up three days later.
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> "No." I roll over pulling the blankets over my head.
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> "Come on! This is enough sleeping. All you do is sleep. I'm going to pour water all over you." Charlie threatens me.
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> I sit up and give her an evil look, "You wouldn't dare."
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> "Try me." She folds her hands over her chest. I groan but sit up. I just want to sleep! Its only been three days but I still feel horrible. Still can't believe I'm not waking up next to Niall. I try to push those thoughts aside.
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> "Why do I need to get up? It's not like I have anything fun to do." I complain.
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> "Today you do. Were going shopping. So get up take a shower lets do something productive. And get looking pretty." She gives me a creepy wink as I stand up.
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> "You are seriously the worlds biggest freak." I stare at her.
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> "I really do try." She smiles.
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> I open my suit case for the first time since I've been home and see the photo album sitting on top.
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> "Whats that?" Charlie asks.
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> "Its..its nothing." I take it and try to put it in my closet but she rips it out of my hands and starts trying to flip through it as I try to get it back.
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> "Stop! Charlie come on!"I pound on her back as she starts flipping through it. I stop hitting her back and she turns around.
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> "Here." She hands it too me. I take it and put it in my closet. "I'm sorry." She says.
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> "Niall mate, were going out for some Nando's want to come?" I hear someone ask but I don't turn to see who.I just keep flipping through the TV channels. I don't want to go anywhere. Not even Nando's
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> "Come on Niall. All you've done is sit in here and watch tv." Liam complains. I ignore it.
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> "Lets just go. Hes not going to move." Harry says. Hes smart. I'm not moving. I'm not leaving this house. Theres not point. Not since Carson left. I didn't even want to go to the hospital but the boys told me they would take me to see Carson. Then they lied and I went to the hospital.
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> I'm still shocked it happened. I don't even know what went wrong. I didn't think I did anything wrong. I was giving her space to be alone because of what happened. Maybe i shouldn't have. Maybe I should have stayed with her. But I thought she would want to be alone. I don't know what I did. I can't live with out her. She left me her ring..on a note that I can't let go. Its the last thing she left me. Its the last thing I have to remember her. Liam has been coming in and taking stuff of Carson's. Hes packing up to send it to her. Charlie's with her.
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> I found a picture on the ground of us. I keep it with me. Its a picture of us in the car. Shes smiling and I'm driving and my tongue is out. I'll never get to do this with her again. I'll never hold her, never smile with her, never make her laugh. Nothing. Ever. Again.
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> "Girls come on downstairs for a second! I have a surprise." My mother calls to us just as we were about to go downstairs anyway. We grab everything we need and head downstairs.
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> "Yeah mom?" I ask because she standing at the bottom.
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> "Theres someone I would like you to meet. Do you girls remember Kathy Phillips? My friend from college?" My mom asks. We both nod yes because she was around all the time while we grew up.
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> "You remember her son Alex?" I faintly did. He never came around much after we turned about 12. When we were younger maybe about 10. I thought I loved him. We would play games with him, Charlie and I. And I would be the mom and he would be the dad and Charlie would be our kid. We would always play and I would kiss him good bye for work every morning like my parents did. I had the world biggest crush on him. Then when we turned about 12 he moved to some fancy boarding school or something. I think the last time I saw him was when I was 14. And it was only for a few minutes because I had to get to choir practice, which he had teased me for then.
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> "Yea..why?" I ask her giving her an odd look.
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> "Well," She grabs my hand and starts pulling me. "Hes out of school now and hes in the living room.And I think you guys should talk." She smiles at me.
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> "Mom!"I groan. My mom has this thing where when I break up with a guy she tries to find a replacement in less than two seconds.
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> "I didn't say you had to date, just talk." She pulls me. I look to Charlie for help. She gives me a sympathetic look and shrugs. I get pulled into the living room where I see Tyler sitting with a guy I'm guessing is Alex. I give my mom props because hes actually as cute as I remember.
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> "Hi." He stands up.
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> "Hey." I reply.
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> Hey guys so this is the alternative ending.
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> I hope you liked it I liked it wayyyyy better. Just saying. Let me know what you think. So like I said my new book will be post on november 8th. So I still need ideas and I think I'm going to change the title of this book and I need ideas plaese people! I need ideas!
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> So let me know what ending you liked best! Let me know!
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> So for the starting of my second book I'm going to go with the second ending or this one. So don't get confused if you read my second book.
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> xx-alyssa