Jade's P.O.V.
Ever get that really guilty feeling in the bottom of your stomach when you know you did a horrible thing, and regret it? Don't you wish that you could relive the past day because of that guilty pleasure you recieved?
I have that exact same feeling. It got so bad that I couldn't sleep. Connor slept peacefully beside me with an innocent smile. I smiled, but somehow, the guilt just wouldn't go away.
I looked at my alarm clock, and it was 2am. There was a pen and note pad on my bed side table.
As I got up to move, Connor shifted in his sleep and held me closer and tighter. I slowly moved out of the bed and quietly put on my robe. I tip toed to my dresser and started throwing the clothes in my suit case again. Once I had everything packed, I walked into the bathroom and took an ice cold shower. It reminded me of the hot sex I just had and needed to cool down from it. The freezing cold water also brought back memories of my mother not paying her bills on time. I put on some sweats and walked back into my bedroom. I continued to look at Connor while he was asleep, and thought, maybe I should just stay here with him. But the other voice in my mind told me to leave, just for a night or two, to give each other space. I really didn't want to leave him, so I sat on my bed, having a fight in my mind, trying to decide if I should go or stay.
I took the pen and note pad and began to write a note to Connor as to why I was leaving.
Dear Connor,
It really breaks my heart, but I have to leave. The truth is, I know you want a divorce to be with the whore you work with, so I'm going through with it. I hate seeing you unhappy and if its because of me, I would do anything to see your smile again. You were my entire life for the past 18 years, and helped me raise two kids. I couldn't have done it without you, but now it's time for me to let you go. I'll love you forever and always,
Jade
I put the note on the pillow next to where he was sleeping, and where I was once laying. I gave him one last kiss good bye and grabbed my luggage. I took it to the car and looked back. I couldn't just leave Ray and Kay hanging like that, so I went back inside and wrote them letters too.
Dear Ray,
I'm sorry I have to leave you hanging like this, but it's for the best. I'm leaving because I love you, and I screwed up your entire life. Please, if I don't come back, take care of your sister, and daughter and unborn niece or nephew . I'm so sorry, but it's time for me to let go of the past, live in the present and think about the future. I love you sooo much first born,
Mom
Dear Kay,
I know I haven't been the best mother in the past, but I've been so focused on being a better mom than Amy, that I totally forgot that I'm feeling exactly like you right now. I'm so sorry that I'm turning out to be Amy and that I only made your life worse, but you finally get what you've wanted; me out of your life. I just want you to know, that I love you and I always will and always have. Please be an even better mother to your child and you'll prevent all of this drama from happening betwern you and Prince. Speaking of you and him, keep him close, because you wouldn't want him or her growing up like me, a person who looked for their father their entire life. Just remember to keep your head up and stay positive, except for pregnancy tests. Anyway, I love you more than you could ever possibly imagine baby girl, love,
Mom
I put the notes on their pillows as well and kissed their foreheads.I walked out of the house for good this and never looked back, because it would only hurt more.
Kay's P.O.V.
Sunlight peered through my window, when I turned, thinking that my mother would still be holding me in her arms, but instead she was gone, and I found a note.
Dear Kay,
I know I haven't been the best mother in the past, but I've been so focused on being a better mom than Amy, that I totally forgot that I'm feeling exactly like you right now. I'm so sorry that I'm turning out to be Amy and that I only made your life worse, but you finally get what you've wanted; me out of your life. I just want you to know, that I love you and I always will and always have. Please be an even better mother to your child and you'll prevent all of this drama from happening betwern you and Prince. Speaking of you and him, keep him close, because you wouldn't want him or her growing up like me, a person who looked for their father their entire life. Just remember to keep your head up and stay positive, except for pregnancy tests. Anyway, I love you more than you could ever possibly imagine baby girl, love,
Mom
As I finished the letter I was in tears. Where would she go? Why did she go? Who did she leave with? When did she leave? I ran out of my room and into Ray's. He was half asleep when I saw he had a note too. When I read his note, my heart crumbled into tiny pieces.
Dear Ray,
I'm sorry I have to leave you hanging like this, but it's for the best. I'm leaving because I love you, and I screwed up your entire life. Please, if I don't come back, take care of your sister, and daughter and unborn niece or nephew . I'm so sorry, but it's time for me to let go of the past, live in the present and think about the future. I love you sooo much first born,
Mom
As I read the note aloud to Ray, his eyes opened and he snatched the papers out of my hands. He read it over and over to himself until he was in tears too. I threw myself into his arms and cried. You have no idea how much I need my mom right now. I can't go through this alone, not without her.
We walked to my mom's room and found my dad sitting on her bed, reading what I'm guessing is a similar letter from her. My dad took a deep breath and pinched the bridge of his nose. He started to breath heavier and his leg bounced up and down.
Dad: She's...gone...I can't believe she left...And it's All.My.Fault!
He got up and started throwing things around the room, breaking almost everything in sight. A glass almost hit me untill Ray pulled me back and tried to stop him. I thought he wanted the divorce, he said he cheated too, so why is he so surprised and upset when she's gone? I kinda have him to blame for this.
Now that I'm piecing the puzzle together, I know why he's mad she left. They had sex last night! And hours earlier. That only explains why he's acting like King Kong or whoever the monkey dude was that climbed to the top of the Empire State building.
Ray: Calm down!
Dad: She's fucking gone! How could I calm down?! She left because of me!
Kay: Dad-
The doorbell rang and someone knocked on the door. I had the brightest smile ever, because I knew it was my mom. I can just feel it. I raced through the halls screamin for my mom and once I opened the door I got overly excited.
Kay: Mom?!
My smile disappeared when I saw Prince standing there. He had a huge smile when he saw me, but when he saw my sad face, he frowned.
Prince: What's the matter?
Kay: My mom left!
I cried as he hugged me. He rubbed my back told me it would be ok but it only made me cry harder.
Prince: Some woman with blonde hair told me to tell your dad he had to be in court at 10 and that she quit, whoever she was.
Kay: She was his Secretary and what time is it?
Prince: It's...9:47.
Kay: We only have 13 minutes to get ready!
Prince: You better hurry.
I ran to my mom's room and found my dad sitting on the floor with his head in his hands.
Kay: Dad! We have to be in court in 12 minutes!
Dad: Oh shit! My head hurts.
Kay: *Mumbles and runs* Hangover.
I took a quick shower and threw on some professional clothes, allthough it barely fit.
I ran to get my phone and charger, but I realized it was in the car.
Prince: It's 10:03.
I ran past him, but I saw a mob of paparazzi flashing their cameras. I tried to push past them, but the more questions they asked the angrier I got.
I went back into the house and slammed the door, waiting on my brother and father. The both almost tripped down the stairs trying to fix themselves as they down.
Kay: It's paparazzi out there!
Dad: I played football in high school, I can push past them.
Prince: I'll see you guys later.
Kay: No! Please come with me?
I grabbed his hand and got to the car with some problems, but my dad punched a guy, si I guess it's ok. (I'm trying to make this quick guys.)
We got into the court room 30 minutes late. I saw no sign of my mother either. We waited 20 minutes for her.
Judge: if Mrs.Jade Smith doesn't show up in 30 minites, I will dissmiss this case and have another trial on *blah blah blah*.
We waited,
And waited,
And waited for 29 minutes to be exact, untill I looked at the the back of the room, praying that my mother would walk through. The doors opened, and I saw.....
Hi guys! Bye guys! ~K_thax