Earth - Year 3204
Northern Academy
Blaze:
Pool and I get to the hospital not longer after. When we get there we're told that Breeze has been awake and that they expect his recovery to be without further complications. Right now he's just resting. At least there are some good news: my partner didn't die so I won't be entirely on my own...again. We both check on him for a minute or so before Pool leaves me. I get one of the chairs closer to Breeze's bed and cover myself with a hospital-blanket. Even though he's been awake, his body temperature still has a little way to go so they've put up the heat in the room. One of the few perks being here to be honest.
I've heard that people reveal many secrets when they sleep. Looking at Breeze in his sleep, I realize he's giving away something he probably doesn't want to, especially not to me: sadness. Looking at him from where I sit, his face mirrors sadness as if he was to be grieving over something or someone. They said he was awake for a little while. They also mentioned a visitor. Obviously they didn't say who it was, but if my intuition is right, there is only one person that could have been. I'm sure it was the very same person that I ran into on my way from this very hospital.
Letting my thoughts spin like that makes me tired...even more tired than I already was before coming here. Remember I actually slept before Pool came into my room? Right, now I want to go back at it, but finding a right position in a chair really isn't easy I learn. In the quarters the cold temperature was hard to ignore when I went to sleep. In here, the temperature is just what I am used from the Eastern Academy. Most of it is actually what I'm used to right here, but the chair, God, the chair ruins everything!
During the next hour I give up trying to sleep. There is no position on this chair in which I will able to sleep so I just sit there observing Breeze as he sleeps through my 'struggles'. There are many traits to notice when you just look at a person: sometimes he tightens his eyebrows as if he's in the middle of something, and then other times he relaxes. Of course it makes me curious as to what's going on inside his head. He entered my mind once, not too many days ago when I come to think of it. Maybe I should enter his head this time?
"No..." I then hear. I look up at him for a moment. How did he...how did he hear me? I didn't even say it. "What?" I let out trying to grasp where he's getting at. "No as in you're not getting inside my head." I hear as he slightly opens his eyes. "That's ironic of you to say considering you probably just entered mine..." I let out as I sit up further in the chair and put my arms in a cross above my chest while pulling the blanket closer to me. "You were thinking quite loudly at that...I didn't really have to enter your mind." He answers back. Apparently I'm one of the worst at hiding my personal thoughts in this academy.
He still looks a little distant in his eyes. I don't really have to read his mind to catch on to it. It's like he's looking at me, but at the same time he's not. The curiosity of what's going on inside his head is actually getting on my nerves. "Are you gonna tell me what's with that distant look in your eyes or do I have to dig around your head to find it?" I ask as he turns his head towards me finally. He seems surprised. "I didn't really think you cared about me like that..." He answers. I shrug lightly as I show him my bandaged hands. He nods weakly. "It takes a little time but eventually I start caring. If I didn't care, do you think I'd go through this?" I point out. "Takes time to get used to someone else than your sister, you mean."
It feels like he knows something by the way he says that. I turn quiet for a minute, not sure if I want to reveal that to him or not. "You just said it with the silence, you know?" He then says as I look up at him. I don't do much to respond to that. He just takes a deep breath and stays quiet for a while. "You know that first night you were here?" He starts as I look up at him. I nod weakly. "I think we shared the same dream." He goes on. I sense myself being slightly guarded about his words. I don't really know where he's going or how I'm going to react, but for some reason I know I won't like it.
"You were having a nightmare about the loss of your sister...loss of your partner." He says. How does he reach the conclusion that we shared the same dream? "What makes you think that?" I ask him slightly defensively. "I saw everything the way that you saw it. It was as if something or someone connected our minds so that I could see it: you, the Seniors, Rocky..." My breath is shaky as he goes on. I fiddle with my hands the best as I can before I even think about saying anything.
"Have you said anything to anyone?" I then finally ask. I'm actually surprised when he shakes his head. "Why?" He turns his head towards me for a moment. "It's not my story to tell. Besides, I've been trying to make you trust me so I did anything possible to make your secrets, my secrets. I guess it will be from now on as well." He goes on. "You're a smart one, I'll give you that." I let out, slightly giving him credit. "Not as smart I would've liked to be sometimes..." He answers with a slightly heavier tone. What I thought I saw earlier is coming up to the surface now.
"Seems to me like you've got some demons of your own..." I then let out as he seems to be catching his breath. It feels like he wants to talk about it but he's struggling to find the right words. I know somehow that it is connected to the person that was here earlier and I'm just wondering right now if I should ask him or not. "I guess we have that in common...none of us are really good at hiding our emotions." He lets out surprising me. I lift on my shoulder slightly innocent. "You seem better at that than me, but...it doesn't mean I don't see that something's bothering you and I might even know what. It's about Rain, isn't it?"
Breeze:
I'm slightly surprised by her so precise notion. I turn my head over to look at her. I have no idea how to respond to that. Somehow I know she did suspect him but...but I didn't expect her to be so straight forward about it. "That silence right there just gave me the answer..." She says, mimicking my words from earlier. I half-smile at first before the conversation with Rain comes back to me. "It wasn't just any normal conversation...him insulting me or pushing me further towards the edge..." I start. She looks over at me intently. "No, this one was...this one was special one could say." I say as I let her wonder on it. "How is that?"
I stay quiet for a moment as I try to find a way to formulate it into one sentence. Although it's pretty straight forward to me how this was a different conversation, I can't find any words to describe it further. "I met him on my way back to our quarters a few hours ago. When he pushed me for your location he seemed genuinely worried about you." She starts as I turn my attention towards her. "In fact he was angry at me for not looking after you better. Of course he ignored my frost-injured hands and then there was the lack of knowledge that you felt like I insulted you after our meeting with him and Ember..." She lets out.
"As insulting and hurting it was to hear it, you were just telling the truth...to them and to me." I answer as that part has really just gotten in the back of my head. It's nowhere near of where my concerns are now. I know she was right. Looking at her, I see that she's turning her attention towards the floor. "Well, I have a bad manner of telling the truth to people. I tend to hit people in the face with it and I never think twice about it...least I haven't before now. I'm sorry for doing that to you..." She lets out. This might be the first time I actually hear her say something nice...sort of.
"Imagine that, you're actually apologizing." I manage to say slightly amused about it. She looks over at me confused. "Are you finding that funny?" She asks me as if she was to be offended by it. "I kind of am...I mean, I've barely known you for what, two days? In that period of time I never heard you say anything that hasn't been...condescending, rude?" I let out matter-of-factly. She raises an eyebrow immediately. "Oh, do you want me to go back to that? Because I can do that" She then asks me. "No, I like this new thing we've got going on...whatever that is." I let out as after a while, both smiles fades away.
"You look scared..." She then says. I look over at her for a while before I look down on my hands. "That's quite observant..." I let out. My hands are slightly shaking as I sense that feeling inside my chest about to shut me down completely. "What happened?" She then asks. "I guess I can finally say that I cut the cord with my brot...with Rain." I correct myself. Blaze seems a little surprised at first as she corrects herself in the chair. "How did he react to it?" I actually find myself smiling ironically back at her. Once again she seems confused by my reaction.
"There's quite an irony in that, actually. He said that he's been treating me the way he has to make me stronger, more independent on him." I let out as she nods. "And now that I actually just cut the cord, he goes on about how I'm never gonna be strong enough without him." I sigh deeply. "What do you believe? That he was trying to make you stronger or is that just a way to get inside your head?" She asks me. I shake my head as I truly don't know what Rain's really up to. "A part of me believes it to be true, but another part of me has had enough of all the times he's been able to trick me." I answer as she leans back on the chair as I actually realize something...
"I'm probably not the best conversationalist on this topic...considering my past with losing my sister...I'd just be happy to have her around." Blaze lets out as it hits me in the face. "Yeah, I know..." I admit as I think about how this isn't the right topic to discuss with her. "I'm not gonna guilt-trip you into a decision, but you should be absolutely sure that cutting the cord is what you want...I mean, I know he's been hurting you and humiliating you for years, and maybe he was telling the truth earlier, maybe he wasn't...but he's always going to be your brother. That's a bond you'll never be able to fully break." She goes on as I keep my attention at her.
"You need to be absolutely sure that you can handle him not being in your life." She finishes as she looks at me. "A couple of days ago, I wasn't..." I admit as she turns curious. "And what's changed since then?" "I didn't have a partner back then, but I do now. I'm no longer alone..." I let out. She looks down on her hands. She doesn't say anything for a while as I let the silence settle between us.
Getting to know Blaze, I've realized that learning to trust all over again, craves a certain amount of strength in all of us. She didn't trust me and I didn't trust her...mostly because we didn't know each other's stories. I didn't know of all the pain, anger and fear that she carried around. More to the point, I didn't understand it. Now I do, because I've recognized the very same things inside of me. I know that's how we can learn to trust each other, to rely on each other the way we need to.
"...and neither are you." I complete as she looks up at me. She eventually nods agreeing. "I know...I just needed to get used to the idea of learning to trust a new partner." She lets out as she struggles to find a right way to describe it. "It went both ways..." I let out. "I guess that's how it is with new partners..." Blaze admits as she turns quiet. "I wanted to trust you right away but...there was just something in your nature that stopped me." She's turning even quieter now. "That also went both ways...I considered you a coward in the beginning...I don't do it now, obviously, but in the beginning..." She starts defending herself as I half-smile at her.
"I think I've proven otherwise by now, don't you?" I ask while referring to the state I'm actually in. "By surviving it, you definitely have..." She answers back confidently as I'm starting to sense my strength fade away little by little. "I should probably let you sleep...come to think of it I should get to sleep as well." She suddenly says. "Thank you, I would very much appreciate that...and yes, you really should sleep as well." I answer. She lightly shrugs at my comment as I see her heavy bags underneath her eyes.
"Wait, how do we do this from now on?" She asks. "You mean how do we sleep?" I ask her slightly raising my eyebrows. "No, you idiot...how do we, you know, get through sessions, life, challenges and stuff?" She asks. I can only come up with one simple answer to that question. "As a team..."
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A/N: So sorry it took me this long to get this up. I really struggled to find the right mood for this chapter. Also I've had some rough days in between and I just needed a break from the writing itself. I hope you enjoy. I plan on making a little time-jump for Chapter 20 so hang on to your hats
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