"To fight?" Jimin questioned, his voice wobbling.
Taehyung looked at him sheepishly, his whole body language giving away the face that he too was extremely scared for the outcome.
"Just this morning they left." His best friend replied.
"So what do we do until then Tae?" Jimin asked, "I need to see Yoongi, I need to see him." His voice wobbled and the dam broke, tears overflowing and pouring down his cheeks. He briefly heard Taehyung shout for everyone to leave, obviously Jimin's return had built up a curious audience, and then his head was being tucked into Taehyung's neck, and he was being whisked away into a different direction.
The last few days had been torture for Jimin. The wolves still hadn't returned, and a somber mood had fallen over the whole pack. He hadn't been sleeping properly, or eating properly for that matter. Taehyung was doing his best though, he was constantly there for Jimin, reassuring him and never forcing him to talk about anything he didn't want to. Jimin often wondered how he got so lucky to have found a best friend like this, a best friend who would be there for him when he most needed it, a best friend who would love him despite his flaws.
He had seen Seokjin and Namjoon the day he got back, the omega immediately falling into the pairs open arms and sobbing relentlessly against their chests, no care for embarrassment. Seokjin had been wonderful as well, bringing him special baked goods he had been making recently. But Jimin knew deep down that the countless treats being shoved down his throat were only a distraction for the pack omega. As for Namjoon, he did his best to reassure Jimin, he showed them the plan that was constructed just hours before he had returned. He showed him the route, clearly Namjoon had excellent knowledge of the forest and other packs in relation to them. He was told the plan of action, they were reliant on a distraction, then they would all attack from different angles.
All in all the plan looked decent, it couldn't really go wrong. But as 3 days turned into 4 days, Jimin began to see the pack alpha crack. It wasn't obvious, but sometimes Jimin would glance over to Namjoon, only to see the other staring off into the tree line, a somber look on his face. It was worrying. Very worrying. They should have been back by now, and the constant thoughts of what could be happening to his lover and his friends out there kept him up all night.
He was currently lying with Taehyung, Yoongi's furs pressed up to his nose as his best friend combed his fingers through Jimin's hair.
"Jiminie?"
"Hm?" Jimin wasn't all too awake, the lack of sleep catching up to him and Taehyung's constant stroking was making him feel drowsy.
"You don't have to answer if you don't want to," And god, Jimin already knew where this was going, "But, rhis secret you've been talking about, is it really all that bad?"
And well, Jimin didn't really know. Was his secret that bad? Sure, to him it was, it was the worst thing in the world, the thing that haunted him for months on end. But would it be all that bad to Taehyung, his best friend who was ever so compassionate? He had told Taehyung about many of his traumas, his miscarriages, and his time in the old pack. Would this really be any worse?
He took a deep breath before he started, words spilling out of him ever so fast. He ranted and ranted until he was sobbing against Taehyungs shoulder, unprepared to see the look on his face. He was worried Taehyung would judge him, or even hate him.
Jimin's pack life with Cheon did have a few good moments, although they were rare, he cherished them and kept them close to his heart. Some of these included meeting life long friends, although they may not be with him anymore, he still was so grateful for their presence in his life. One woman in particular, a lovely omega named Misun, was an extremely important part of his life. Misun was a kind soul, always looking out for others before herself, despite the awful circumstances. She would always try and ensure that Jimin was safe during his first few months at the pack.
The two became close, along with Wooyoung. She took the two under her wing, acted as a mother figure for them and managed the best she could despite her hunger, her pains and her sadness. She was such an interesting character; her knowledge was on a different level, that woman would have a fact about everything. Jimin often thought it was such a waste that someone like her, ended up the way she did.
Her name meant beauty and goodness, and it was scarily fitting to her character. Her beauty was unmatched, even for her middle age, even after what she had been through during her life, she still remained as young and beautiful as ever.
Unfortunately she wouldn't stay that way forever. The news that Misun was pregnant was not usually a shock in their pack, however this time it was. She was old. Yes, she was still capable of bearing pups, still capable of doing everything. But the fact that she got pregnant instead of the young fertile omegas, was a shock.
The months during her pregnancy were tough. Her health was slowly deteriorating, and it was still a shock that her baby was even alive at this point. It pained Jimin to see her like this, suffering when she least deserved it, in pain when this should have never happened to her.
The news that she had given birth to a beautiful baby girl quickly spread around the pack, and momentarily, Jimin forgot their situation, forgot their awful circumstances, and just enjoyed the beginning of a new life, a beautiful baby girl.
However when other news spread, news that Misun herself didn't make it, and had died after giving birth, time seemed to stop. How could anything good come out of this? Jimin knew it would never be that simple.
The baby was taken under Jimin's wing. The alphas refusing to care for it, but luckily Wooyoung, Jisoo, and some other omegas participated in helping out. Jimin named the baby Micha, meaning beautiful daughter. He picked a name he knew Misun would love, and he hoped she was proud.
As Mi cha grew, so did Jimin's confidence. At the start of joining, Jimin was awfully submissive to the alphas, but as time went on, he became reluctant and tried to stand up for himself many times. He never knew it would be such a big mistake.
"You've been getting awfully sassy lately, haven't you?" A weird smelling alpha mumbled, getting far too close for comfort.Jimin was honestly sick of these people trying to control him.
"Get the fuck away from me." He snapped.
"You'll regret speaking to me like this one day."
And regret it he did. It seemed that had been the final straw for Jimin's behaviour, his obnoxious and sassy actions only earned him more beatings and punishments. He could deal with that, he could deal with the beatings, the words of abuse. But when they discovered his weakness, they took advantage of it. And that was one thing he couldn't deal with.
"You can't t-take my baby." He pleaded, struggling and kicking to try and get out of the two alphas grips that were holding him back.
"Will you ever stop disobeying?" Cheon questioned, Mi Cha held firmly in his grip, wailing and screaming as she scented Jimin's distress.
"Y-you can't." He begged. "I'll do anything."
"It's too late for that, little one." And cheon walked off, whilst Jimin remained still until he couldn't hear the baby's cries any more.
After that, Jimin officially broke. And things seemed to go even more downhill from there on out. He had promised himself to put that child first, never to harm it and to always try his best to keep it out of the alphas way. But he had failed, and after two weeks of not seeing his baby, he took a guess at what had happened. What would Misun say if she was here right now? Would she hate him? Or would she understand?
The rest of his time at that pack was the worst times of his life. He wasn't Jimin anymore, he had been broken down into someone, someone so different from his former self. The omega didn't really think there would be any coming back from this.
But did he deserve it? He let his baby die. He caused his baby's death. If not for him acting up, would Mi cha still be alive? Probably. He was the reason this had happened. Nightmares of Mi cha and Misun were almost daily occurrences, and still there is never a day that passes where he doesn't think about the two, and blame himself. Sometimes, Jimin wonders what her life would have been like in that pack if she had grown up, how awful it would have been. He often ponders whether Mi cha was better off dead, and hates himself a little more each time that thought crosses his mind.
"Jiminie." Taehyung whispers, using his thumb and index finger to gently grasp Jimin's chin, and lift it up to face him. His best friend didn't hold any judgement in his eyes, just pure sympathy and understanding for the events that took place. And for some reason, this made him cry even more. Did he deserve him as a bestfriend?
"I'm proud of you for telling me that." The omega felt gentle fingers through his hair. "It's okay to talk about these things. It was a while ago, and I hope you have forgiven yourself."
"B-but-" He sobbed.
"-Its what Misun would want."
And maybe Taehyung was right. Misun wouldn't want him carrying around this burden of emotion on his shoulder for so long, but he couldn't really find it in him to forgive himself. So for now, the best he could do was get lost in the comforting feeling of having his bestfriend by his side, and await the return of his loved one.
Okay phew wow!! That was a big one! To make up for the time i've spent away!
What did you think of it? Are you in your feels? Do you feel sorry for Jimin?
I'm back at school, have been for a while, irs so stressful :(