Chapter 42
Alexis’ P.O.V
I woke up with some birds singing and the daylight invading my room through the blind holes. I was sure I wasn’t any near from the same position I fell asleep to. Bingo!
As soon as I opened my eyes properly, I noticed I had my head laying on Luke’s chest. He was still asleep and how fragile he looked. Sometimes I wished he could look like that forever, but that would never pass from a simply wish. Luke was everything but fragile most of the time. He obviously had his weakest moments, some of them I witnessed myself. But that was it, just some little and rare weak moments, just like everyone deserves to have sometimes. I had a bunch of them myself, but I was a goner, for real. I was nothing but weak and Luke was the one who knew that better than anyone.
“You’re so stupid.” I thought to myself while realizing I was making everything about me, even my own thoughts about how fragile Luke looked, it had to end up being about me and my weakness. Maybe he was right, maybe Luke was right when he said that despite everything I was full of myself, well I wasn’t but it seemed like somehow I always ended up making everything being about me, one way or another. But I had to let that go, I had to let those stupid and useless thoughts go. For once in my life, I wasn’t feeling as sad and as empty as I used to, for once in my life I was feeling something, something beyond what I could I explain.
It was incredibly surprising the amount of times I moved my body and my head which was above his chest and still, he didn’t woke up. Heavy sleep, I would say.
Finally I was having the opportunity to check out clearly his chest’s tattoo.
I carefully moved my head from his chest and supported my body on my elbows. Guess what? Nope, he didn’t woke up. He was very tired last night, which was probably normal.
I then looked mindfully to his chest and could clearly see what that tiny little black drawing was. A dagger, he had a very weevil dagger tattooed on his chest, just right above his heart. Realizing that gave me chills. Why would he tattoo a dagger above his heart? Creepiest, why would he only tattoo that on his torso when the rest of his body his covered in tattoos? Well, despite his face, of course. But seriously, I was more intrigued than ever, more intrigued about him, about his so evil and dark past.
Then and there, I slowly moved my face towards his asleep one and carefully placed a small kiss in his cheek. Did I already mentioned how handsome he was? Well, he actually was and I was so grateful for being able to see him sleeping, it was one of the most adorable things, in fact.
“Oh, that’s how you wish me a good morning?” He scared me as soon as I removed my lips from his face. That jerk was awake for a while now, he was just pretending to be sleeping, for sure.
“Holy…” I started to speak but he quickly made his way towards me and pushed me against my mattress.
“Shh…don’t swear, it doesn’t look good in a girl, especially in such an innocent and good girl like you.” He teased me while biting his bottom lip and with his forefinger placed on my lips. If his intentions were to kill me by the morning then it was working, for sure. “Now…were you just by a matter of fact, watching me sleeping?” He asked raising his eyebrow seductively and I only felt like biting him, but I didn’t.
“What…what? No.” I lied very embarrassed and he laughed, the motherfucker simply laughed.
“Liar…I guess I already told you I don’t like liars, Lexi…” For Christ’s sake, I freaking hated it when he called me Lexi, I hated it because it turned me on so much.
“Yeah? What are you going to do… tickle me?” I provoked him, lifting my legs in a very slow movement and making them touch the middle of his. His face was priceless.
“Maybe…”
“Well, I’m sorry but I’m not ticklish.” I interrupted him and he quickly let his body, which was being supported by his hands placed on my mattress, fell above mine. GODDAMN IT! He was kinda heavy to do that, I would have probably threw up if I had ate anything already.
“Or maybe not.” He said and then he slowly started to do those movements above me, those movements I couldn’t handle. He was freaking pretending to be having sex with me, he was moving his pelvis up and down on me. Worst was that we were both only wearing our panties. I mean, I was wearing my panties, he was obviously wearing his boxers. “Revenge is a very good sensation.” He whispered right on my ear and without even thinking, I moved my hands towards his butt and quickly placed them on each of his buttocks. I then wildly squeezed them with my fingers, not even regretting it. “SHIT!” He moaned too loud and I quickly had to shut him down with my lips. Seriously, he practically screamed it totally forgetting that it was early in the morning and that my family was probably home, which meant my dad and my brother. Their bedrooms were right beside mine. I seriously hopped none of them had heard him.
“Are you out of your mind?! My father and my brother could hear you!” I yelled in a very low tone right after we broke our kiss.
“Me?! It was your fault!” He automatically complained and removed his body from mine. Oops, seemed like I had screw it all up, once again. But I was right this time.
“Oh let me guess… you are gonna play the dumbass now?” I asked in a very provocative tone when he got up from my bed. He had his back facing me and as soon as I spoke, he turned around and raised both eyebrows at me.
“Did you seriously just asked that?”
“No, my dad did.” I joked and he quickly closed his eyes and bite his lips very frustrated. I knew, I knew that I was totally getting into his nerves, which was the point.
“Whatever, I’m leaving.” He simply said, clearly upset and made his way towards his clothes which were on the other side of the room, the side of the bed he slept in. But wait, he was leaving?! Why the hell? And how? He obviously wasn’t thinking about jumping from my window. Was he?! “Oh, and you can keep these.” He affirmed taking something from inside his shorts’ pockets and threw it at me. What the…my bracelets! I had totally forgot about them. He had them, all that time, he kept them with him.
“Why did you kept them?” I asked out of nowhere. I didn’t even realized I was about to speak, it simply flew out from my mouth.
“Why the fuck do you only make me stupid questions?” He asked mad and shocking his head. Wooow, was he seriously that angry at me? Like I did any big mistake or something!
“Why are you acting so childish, right now?” I honestly asked getting up from my bed and walking towards him. Luke stopped doing what he was doing and started to laugh like some insane person.
“Me?! Acting so childish?! Seriously, you could never tell such a good joke!” He affirmed laughing and laughing harder. Was he insane?! My dad would hear him, Michael would hear him.
“STOP! LUKE STOP!” I yelled even louder than he was laughing, I didn’t even realized I did but he had to stop, I was getting really frustrated with his actions.
“Oh, be careful. Your family might hear.” He stopped laughing and looked ironically at me.
“You know what? Screw you! You can keep this.” I affirmed for the last and quickly took off his t-shirt from me and extended it at him, leaving my boobs completely unprotected.
“Are you seriously doing this right now?! Do you think that will work?!” He asked pointing frustrated at my breasts. What the hell was he talking about?! “Are you seriously gonna do that every time I’m about to leave just so I won’t?!”
“Excuse me?!” He couldn’t be serious, oh no he couldn’t!
“You heard me! You know what?! I’m not falling this time, I’m not falling for this, this time!” He affirmed mad, grabbing his t-shirt from my hands and quickly closing his eyes.
“What the hell are you doing?! What the freaking hell is wrong with…” I was just about to explode when suddenly I heard a knock on my door. OH CRAP! That couldn’t be good, at all!
“Alexis? Sweetheart, are you alright?” My father asked from the outside and I bite my tongue. AWESOME!
“Dad…ahh…I’m…I’m fine, I was… I was just having a nightmare.” Best excuse ever, Alexis, seriously.
“You scared me, I heard some screams, it didn’t seem like you were alone.” I would freaking kill Luke, oh yes I would.
“What? Of course I am dad, who else could be here?”
“Calum?” My dad asked and affirmed at the same time. Luke, whose eyes were open again, made a very ugly and disapproval face when hearing that name.
“What? Dad! No, he’s not here!”
“Then why are we talking from different rooms? Why is your door locked?” Christ! He got me on that one.
“Because…because…I don’t know, I just felt like it last night. What’s the big deal? Can’t one want her own privacy now?!” I pretended to be annoyed and I heard him laughing. I sighed in relief, knowing he wouldn’t bother me anymore.
“Whatever…I’m leaving for work now, your brother is out already. Take care and be a good girl!” He affirmed for the last and left.
Luke suddenly started to laugh as soon as he made sure my dad wasn’t anywhere near. Seriously, why was he laughing?! Nothing of that was funny, at all!
“Take care and be a good girl!” He imitated my dad’s voice and kept on laughing. Oh, obviously he was laughing about that, what else could it be?!
“Yeeey, you happy now?!” I sarcastically asked while turning around, leaving my back to face him. I was still only wearing my panties, in general. My boobs were still undressed and I didn’t felt any comfortable with that, especially not right that moment. “You can leave now.”
“You can leave now, you can leave now… is that all you can say?” He asked and I was sure he was smirking. So now he wanted to play the funny one?! “Come on, turn around.” He asked, his tone was serious again. Like I said plenty of times, so confusing!
“Why do you want me to turn around?! To tell me I’m showing of my boobs so you won’t leave? To practically affirmed I’m acting like a slut to get what I want?!” I asked, clearly hurt and sat on my bed, with my back still facing him.
“What? I never said that.” He affirmed but deeply inside, he knew he almost said that. “Okay, I might have said something which was practically the same as that but… but I didn’t mean it… I was mad, you made me mad, like always.” Yeah, sure, always my fault.
“I know, I already know that it is always my fault… you can leave now, seriously.” I affirmed and I really meant it, I didn’t really wanted to be with him at that moment, he was making me feel like crap again.
“For Christ’s sake Alexis! Can’t you handle a little fight like a grown up?!” He yelled, slightly frustrated and I sighed.
“You kidding me?! You do exactly the same thing whenever I go to your van! You always end up making me leave, with your threats and violence just because you didn’t like a simple word I said.” I confessed and I ended up saying things I didn’t mean. I obviously didn’t said any lie but I also didn’t want to say it all like that, I didn’t want to affirm that he was violent with me, which he was, a lot and a bunch of times but I just felt like I had hurt him with those words, somehow, I knew I had. I already knew he hated to hurt me and that his actions were beyond his wishes, that he couldn’t control his feelings and his violent actions but still, I said it, I freaking said and I knew I had hurt him. AHHHH, I was such a coward! And I was still with my back facing him, which was even worse.
“Oh…” He simply said and I could tell by his voice’s tone that he wasn’t happy or even angry. He was hurt.
“Look…I’m…I didn’t mean it that way…” I quickly tried to make up for myself and I even got up from my bed and turned to face him.
“Don’t…don’t even try… You won. I’m leaving.” He affirmed while putting one his t-shirt, the one I had just undressed from my own torso minutes ago. He seemed so sad, it even hurt my own heart, especially because I knew I was the one causing that. But he wasn’t sad with me, he was sad with himself because he was blaming himself, he was blaming himself inside for hurting me all those times he did before.
“No, Luke… You don’t… it’s okay. I’m okay… I know you didn’t mean it when you hurt me…” I tried to make him see it wasn’t his fault but I guess I only made it worse.
“I…I’ll speak with you later Alexis.” He said for the last while putting his shoes on and made his way towards the door “Oh, you better put some clothes on.” He spoke, unlocked my door and left my bedroom.
Why the freaking hell did I needed to always screw everything up?! WHY?! There was no way I could stop making everything being about me when in reality somehow, one way or another it was about me, it was about me being guilty of all the crap happening around me, of all the crap happening with the people I cared about.
I shouldn’t have let him leave like that, I shouldn’t because I knew what he was going to do, I knew exactly what he was about to do and I didn’t like it, I didn’t like it at all, in fact I hated it, I hate the fact that I knew he was just gonna call his damn drug dealer and buy some more hell of drugs and these time it would be because of me, because of the stupid crap I had told him. But I didn’t, I didn’t go after him because I was too weak for that, once again, my stupid and useless weakness.
I sighed and tried my best to keep my thoughts away from what he could possibly be about to do and went to my closet searching for some clothes to wear.
Quickly I got on my bathroom and cleaned myself, putting on some clean underwear, a black large t-shirt and some denim shorts.
Just when I was about to put on my black doc martens, my phone decided to start ringing. Great, always be interrupted.
Best thing was that I didn’t even knew where the hell I had put my phone last night. Oh right, my nightstand.
As soon as I grabbed my phone, whoever it was that was calling me hung off. I then went to my recent calls and checked who could possibly be calling me. It was a number I didn’t have saved in my phone but I was recognizing that number from somewhere, I was… ASHTON! That was it! That could only be his number, of course! Oh my! My best friend, how much I was needing him, more than ever.
I didn’t even thought twice to click on the call botton.
After three rings, he finally picked up.
“Hello? Alexis?” Oh, that wasn’t Ashton but I was recognizing that voice. Who was it?
“Yeah, that’s me. Who’s this?” I asked quite curious and nervous, not even knowing why.
“It’s Caspar, Ashton’s neighbour. I’m calling from his phone because…” he started to speak and I automatically remembered who he was, me and Ashton used to hang out with him some times, he was alright. But what I couldn’t believe was what he told me next, what he freaking affirmed. I almost let my phone fell on the ground. “Thanks for the call… I’m on my way!” I said in a rush and quickly turned off the call.
I putted on my doc martens as fast as I could, I grabbed my phone, my house keys, my wallet and everything that I needed and ran downstairs.
I left my house faster than I had ever done and without even think about it I ran towards him, I ran towards his van, Luke’s van.
As soon as I reached his van I started to knock on his door frenetically, hopefully waiting for him to open. Oh god! What if the wasn’t home?! What if he was with that goddamn drug dealer?!
“What the… What do you want?! I told you I would speak to you later.” He affirmed clearly annoyed as soon as he realized it was me and was just about to close the door on my face but I pushed it with both my hands.
“No, please! Listen to me!” I asked nervous and anxious. My heart was beating faster than ever and I was just about to cry. “I need you to take me somewhere!” I affirmed desperate, knowing he would be my only salvation.
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