just a disclaimer⚠️ This chapter includes themes of abuse and non-con. Ill make note of where it starts and ends, it's not necessary to read the flashback as it is just an insight to a previous panic attack in his old pack.
this is long buckle your seatbelts
Jimin remembers clear as day the last time he had a panic attack, a truly terrifying one for that matter. Since the pack leader, Cheon, had taken over and drove their pack dynamics and respect for each other right into the ground, panic attacks were a regular occurrence for Jimin, and the last one he had was a couple of days before the fight that changed his life forever.
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The sun shone down, rudely awakening Jimin from his not so peaceful slumber. He slowly lifted himself off of the hard floor, without even wincing at the unbearable pain that shot up his back from sleeping in such bad conditions, it was a normality to him now. He glanced to his left and gazed fondly down at Wooyoung, one of his good friends in this pack. Wooyoung was an omega like himself, and they had been good friends since they were pups. The other omega was quite reserved, and Jimin cracked a smile at the memories him and Wooyoung held.
A deep, loud voice abruptly snapped him out of his thoughts, and seemed to startle the omega next to him as well, who slowly opened his eyes and rubbed at them cutely. The footsteps got closer and the scent got more overwhelming. That stench of a scent only belonged to one person, Cheon.
"Omega! You're needed." Cheon almost shouted as he walked in and rested his eyes upon Wooyoung. No, Jimin thought, Wooyoung had had it bad yesterday, dark bruisers scattered his arms and legs, and even his face, and he could tell he was extremely sore. Jimin thought back to yesterday when he spotted Wooyoung, completely lifeless on the floor beside the food hall. He had been left, naked and drifting in and out of consciousness with dried cum smeared all over his body, and red covering his inner thighs. It was nothing that hadn't happened to Jimin before; he used to end up like this almost everyday when Cheon first took over. Jimin was rebellious back then, he still had fight in him, but when the punishments reached that sort of level, he quickly learned his place. He couldn't help but wonder what Wooyoung did to earn this, he was always fairly submissive and extremely scared of Cheon, even from the beginning. Jimin may or may not have left his chores to steal food from the hall and clean up Wooyoung, and put him back to where they slept, luckily no one found out. Again Jimin was brought back to reality by shuffling next to him, Wooyoung was barely managing to stand up as he wobbled over to Cheon.
"No!" Jimin shrieked before it was too late. Cheon looked at him in disbelief, anger quickly rising.
"What was that omega, i thought i heard you speak?" he spitted.
"T-take me instead alpha, I haven't been used in a while. " He pleaded, knowing full well he was only used two days ago by Suho, a smelly alpha, who he despised. Wooyoung turned to him in shock, he remained silent but Jimin could see the thankfulness in his eyes, it was overwhelming.
"You think you can order ME around and tell ME who to take?" he bellowed, causing both of the omegas to shrink in on themselves. "Let's not forget who i am, compared to who you are, you're worth nothing, good for nothing except pups, but you can't even seem to fucking do that right, can you omega?" He questioned. His voice was calm, but to Jimin this was even more worrying then him being angry, knowing he was going to take it out on whoever he brought with him now.
"Answer me, i'm right aren't i, you're good for nothing, say it." He ordered. At first Jimin didn't answer, tears began forming in his eyes as Cheon stepped closer. Jimin from the old pack wouldn't have stood for this, he would have shouted back, stood up for himself and told that bastard that he WAS worth more than that, but all fight was gone now, and he knew he didn't stand a chance anyway. "You can't even fucking answer me when i speak! I thought we got over this rebellious stage of yours, looks like you need more training?"
"N-no alpha." He was crying now.
"You DONT get to tell me no. And to think i was going to take it easy on your friend here, but now, you've put yourself forward haven't you? You've ordered me to take you, and that i will. Since you've obviously forgotten what obedience means, you won't be getting it easy, maybe i'll call the other alphas, we can all have you at once, how does that sound?" Cheon was seething at the fact Jimin had told him no, he was fucked. But he said it again.
"No p-please." He was full on sobbing now. Cheon reaches forward and pulled his head upwards, staring at him in the eyes.
"You wanted this remember, you offered yourself, you want this." He tried to engrave this in Jimins brain, but no, he certainly did not want this.
Before he knew it, he was dragged out and thrown into another den, where 2 alphas were already waiting. The next movements were a blur, he heard a brief conversation about obedience and 'offering himself' but his sobs drowned out the most of it. He was quickly stripped of his minimal clothing and put in handcuffs before being thrown down on the bed.
"He's a noisy one."
"He doesn't shut the fuck up, how draining."
He heard the alphas laughing, and then he was being hit, over and over again, until
blood was dripping from every inch of his body. He was drifting in and out of consciousness as the pain increased in his chest and he felt something brush against his ass.
"N-no please." he sobbed, but it was no avail as two alphas roughly slammed into him at once and he began fully shivering now. The pain was relentless and the hits were continuous, he still couldn't breathe from the panic that welled within him, and he really thought that this was the day he was going to die, at least Wooyoung would survive, until the fight at least. All Jimin remembers was that the majority of the pack had his way with him, sometimes 2 or even 3 at once, and soon everything faded to black as his breathing stopped.
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That probably wasn't the best thing to think about whilst Jimin was currently outside in an unknown environment having a panic attack, but it was all that consumed this thoughts. He then sniffed in and a scent of an alpha found its way to his nose, the alpha that was currently holding his shoulders and trying to get him to calm down. He knew full well that it was Jungkook, a person he would now consider a friend, but at this moment of time he tried to scramble as far as possible away from Jungkook, while repeating 'don't touch me' and 'no' like a broken record. How did Jungkook even get here before Yoongi, he's sure he saw him turning around, or maybe it was his mind playing tricks on him.
He briefly registered more voices, all trying to calm his breathing, but in all honestly it made it much worse, and much more frightening. Jungkooks hands were off his shoulders now, well at least he thought, and he felt himself being drawn into a hug and pressed against someone's chest. Jin. But no, he was still terrified and completely untrusting, his brief pause of hope was replaced with more fear, as his scent was now completely ruined and tinged with spoilt milk and anxiety. The omega was screaming now, he didn't want to be held by jin, he was trying his best to push himself away, when he heard a voice, and oh he knew that voice, it was his favourite.
"Sunshine, baby please breathe for me." It was Yoongi, his most trusted person. But of course these thoughts didn't last long as his senses deceived him and alerted him of danger at the smell of the alpha. He was desperate, struggling to fight his instincts as he told himself they weren't going to hurt them, but the overwhelming smell of alpha spoke otherwise.
He was then roughly pulled against someone's chest, and large hands were rubbing up and down his back. One hand briefly left to push his head into the mysterious persons chest, and he could hear a clear heartbeat and a rumble from where the person was talking.
"Sunshine, it's Yoonie, your Yoonie hyung." Jimin could make out his voice clearer now, and the reassuring hands and stray heartbeat were helping him to calm down.
"You're doing so well for me sunshine, can you breathe for hyung, that's it." His breathing was slowing but his chest still ached and he was far from okay. "In and out, follow hyungie. You're safe Jiminie, you're okay." He soothed. Reassuring phrases were repeated until Jimins breathing returned to normal and all that was left were brief sniffles. After 5 minutes of not moving, Jimin lifted his head to find that, first of all his neck felt like it weighed an extra 800 pounds compared to earlier, and second of all, he was surrounded by his new family, they were all here. Taehyung was threading his hands through Jimin silky smooth hair, and Jungkook was rubbing his arm slowly up and down the omegas arm. Hobi and Jin were bent down, smiling at him fondly. And then there was Yoongi. The Yoongi who currently was being sat on by jimin, and was speaking slowly and soothingly to the omega.
He tried to speak but was instantly told to 'shhh don't worry' by Jin, and was hauled up and carried to his den. The last thing he remembers before drifting into dreamland was the alpha tucked snuggly beside him, peppering kisses all over his face.
fuck me that was long
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