Lily | therapist | Ginny | George | notes
Transcript Entry #1
Name: Lily Argent-Fowler
Date: 3/5/98
Patient 18 years of age. Female. Quiet. Warned that she can be hostile - usual precautions have been taken.
Hello Lily.
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This is session is the first of ten Ministry mandatory ones. It's up to you how well you use this time, but if after the tenth session I do not believe you have made significant progress, I won't be able to sign you off.
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Lily? Anything you want to talk about?
My mother was wrong.
Your mother? I don't have any records of a mo-
She's dead.
Ah. I'm sorry for your loss.
Don't be.
Why do you say she was wrong?
The diamond was never made out of loneliness. It was made from love. It's my salvation.
Sorry? I don't think I follow.
I should forget it all. Make up another scenario of how it all happened.
Well I know we all wish we could forget the horrors of war, but we have to learn to move on. That's how life works.
You sound like him.
Like who?
But even he would agree with me right now.
Who would?
What do you do when the person you care about most in the world can't bear to look at you anymore?
I'm sure with some time they wi-
No he won't.
Patient refused to talk for the rest of the hour. She spent most of the time staring out of the window, not responding to any of the questions I asked. In the end, I let her sit in silence; but when I moved to leave, she stopped me and asked me to stay. At this moment, I believe she only wants company. Whether she'll trust me enough to open up is yet to be determined.
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Transcript Entry #2
Name: Lily Argent-Fowler
Date: 5/5/98
Patient arrived late, seems distracted and continually looking at the door, as if she is waiting for someone. Perhaps she has a meeting with another person after this session?
So Lily, what brings you here?
Aside from the fact that this is a mandatory assessment from the ministry? Oh I don't know I was just in the area.
Perhaps we should talk about the past couple of days, how have you been?
Let's see, my guardian who is actually my dad died. I wasn't even there and had to hear it from Malfoy. Can you believe it? Malfoy of all people told me that my dad's dead. Guess that's everyone in the family now.
I'm sorry, I'm not sure I understand. Your dad?
Severus Snape. Wait - you have this confidentiality thing right? I watched you take the oath so you can't tell anyo-
Unless my patient is in imminent danger. Whatever you say in this room stays here.
So he was murdered. I didn't really get to say goodbye. I was so harsh to him this past year. I'm not even too sure what to do with his body. I was thinking about burying it by my father's. But then Harry was talking about putting him with everyone else.
Your father's?
Ben Fowler, please, I thought you did a background check.
My apologies, please continue.
I knew it wasn't likely that he would survive, but I guess it hasn't hit me that he's gone.
That's perfectly normal, it will take some time.
It's not just that, I- he also died. I couldn't, I watched hi- Bellatr-
Here, take a tissue. Just take a moment, deep breaths.
I can't do this. I'm sorry.
No wait Lily stop!
Talking about the mystery death caused her to break down. After crying, she looked horrified as if she was scared of processing these emotions. When offered with a tissue, she stood up and ran out. The hour was not completed, but I will note this as a completed session.
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Transcript Entry #3
Name: Lily Argent-Fowler
Date: 7/5/98
Patient arrived late and spent ten minutes standing outside the doorway before coming in. Signs of mental deterioration and stress are on amber level.
Lily, it's good to see you again.
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Last session you were talking about your dad, did you get to bury him?
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It says here that you were found trespassin-
I was taking my belongings. Slughorn had no reason to report me.
It says you threatened to- I'm sorry- did you threaten to burn him?!
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Lily?
This was a mistake.
Lily wait!
Note to self: find a spell to extinguish fires. Or find burn ointment, just in case.
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Transcript Entry #4
Name: Lily Argent-Fowler
Date: 15/5/98
Patient has not come in for scheduled sessions for the past week. Found loitering outside my office late last night, responded with hostility when approached. Called in at 03.20am as she refused to leave until I came. On arrival, she was curled up on the floor, eyes bloodshot.
Lily it's really late.
I'm sorry, I can't do this anymore. I can't just pretend I'm going to be okay.
You don't have to pretend here. That is the point of these sessions. You can talk freely here.
It's his funeral next week and I don't know what to do. No one has told me anything. They've just left me or maybe I left them, I can't remember.
Who? Severus Snape?
No, I buried him yesterday.
So who are you talking about?
Fr- my bo-
It's okay dear, here have another tissue.
I'm so pathetic. I feel sick. But I know I have to be strong. I know I haven't been deserted, or abandoned or unloved.
That's quite mature of you.
It's not mature. You don't understand. I don't have a choice. It's either this or unleash Hell. And I'm trying. Merlin, I am tryi- bu- ha-
It's okay, it's going to be okay.
I've got to go. I can't be here.
It's almost 4am - where are you going?
Away. Far away.
Emotional scarring from the war seems to be difficult for her to deal with. I'm not even too sure she has a safe home to go to. There is no written next of kin noted. Must research into her background to see how she is related to Severus Snape.
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Transcript Entry #5
Name: Lily Argent-Fowler-Snape (?)
Date: 17/5/98
After doing some extensive research, I have found that Severus Snape has named Lily as his sole heir. Emilia Fowler, known mother, has also named him as godfather, but through the sessions, I believe Lily may see him as her father rather than her guardian. He adopted her when she was only five so this confusion is understandable. Patient has not attended sessions at scheduled time. If patient does not complete the recommended ten sessions, I will have to refer her for further assessment.
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Transcript Entry #6
Name: Lily Argent-Fowler
Date: 20/5/98
Fred Weasley.
Pardon?
It's his funeral. Tomorrow.
I see. Are you going to attend it?
I'm not invited. I don't know if I'll be able to see him.
Well open caskets aren't always guaranteed.
What?
Seeing Fred- that's what you're afraid of?
No. I've seen a dead body enough. I know the drill.
Then who are you afraid to see?
Do you think people deserve second chances? Even when those second chances are actually the hundredth chance?
I suppose it depends on the circumstance.
Yeah I agree.
But you can never know what the answer is unless you try.
I guess.
Will you come in for your session tomorrow? I think it will help you sort through your feelings.
Feelings? I haven't even thought about them.
All the same. Please come in tomorrow.
I- Ma- Alright.
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Transcript Entry #7
Name: Lily Argent-Fowler
Date: 21/5/98
Lily Argent Fowler Snape here reporting for duty Sir!
I am glad you came.
I promised and Lily always keeps her promises.
How was the funeral?
Dunno.
Did you not go to it?
No. I spent the evening with Abs instead. Hey that's what Fred used to call him!
You've been drinking?
Caught on have you? I thought you were supposed to be smart.
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You see, I've realised. It doesn't matter if you're a good person or a bad person. Bad shit happens and it doesn't care whether you're good.
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I'm sick of apologising. People should know that things happen at war. My dad died. Merlin during the last war my father died. I traumatised the closest thing I had to family. And now Fred's gone. I think he really cared about me in the end. If he was here, he'd tell me to stop moping about. Actually maybe he wouldn't. Maybe he'd be annoyed that after everything he was the one who died and I survived.
I don't think he would be that bitter. He was of Age. He knew the risks war carry.
He was always there for me you know? Even when I messed up. He was there. And then when he needed me, I couldn't do it. I couldn't show my face.
Are we still talking about Fred?
This is about the only thing I can bring myself to come to. Even then, I only do it for Emmie. My mother you see. Brilliant woman. Well, sort of brilliant. Well, I wouldn't know - she died when I was born. Hah.
Where was I?
Who can't you show your face to?
Oh yes of course! I bet he comes here too. I bet he talks about it all. He's a talker you know. Rambles on and on.
Right.
Do you think he blames me too? In his version? Or have I already messed up? Have I changed my perception of the truth? But then why would I keep the memory of him? Why not just destroy everything?
I'm not sure I'm following.
I just want to tell him I'm sorry. I want to tell him I'm sorry I couldn't be there. I tried. I got to the door. But then I saw him and it all came back to me and I couldn't step in the room.
I'm sure he understan-
I killed his brother. How could he understand?
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Freddrick Weasley. My best mate. Well kind of my best mate. Well not really, more like a guy who hated me then got over it, then spent months on the road with me on soME STUPID MISSION!
Please calm down Lily.
BET YOU ENJOYED THAT AY DAD? WATCHING ME FAIL BECAUSE OF YOUR STUPID SECRETS. WELL WHOSE LAUGHING NOW?
Lily sit down!
Not me. Not ever.
Get off that table!
He was helping me. He pushed me out of the way. He knew Bella was after me. Then shE MURDERED HIM. SHE MURDERED HIM AND I CAN'T LIVE WITH MYSELF HOW'S THAT FOR IRONY!
Be careful of th-
HEALER WE NEED A HEALER IN HERE.
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Transcript Entry #8
Name: Lily Argent-Fowler
Date: 24/5/98
You had quite a fall there. Are you feeling okay now?
What's your name?
Sorry?
Your name, I just know you as Mr. Therapist.
... Terry
I prefer Mr. Therapist.
You only have two sessions left.
How sad. I will miss you.
... Lily I am trying to help you.
I know. I'm sorry. I'm trying. I really am.
I believe you.
I saw him yesterday.
Saw who?
He looked so broken. I wanted to go talk to him, but then I couldn't. Not because I was scared but I can't be another problem for him right now. I need to sort my life out first, right? That's what we're doing here. Making me independent and self sufficient?
If that is what you wish, then yes of cour-
But you see, I've realised, he's not always been there. I've had to deal with crap myself before. Granted it didn't always go so well, but I'm ready you know. I'm ready for a change.
That's good to hea-
He doesn't know that though. He thinks I'm just hiding. I bet he didn't even attend any of his sessions. Or maybe he went to one and they decided he didn't need anymore.
Who?
I love him. Merlin I still love him. Is it supposed to hurt this much?
Who are you talking about?
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Transcript Entry #9
Name: Lily Argent-Fowler
25/11/98
I hear you have a job now and your own place. That's good news.
Yes, I sold my dad's house. I couldn't stand to be in it another minute. So much darkness and loss.
It's a good way to move on.
I think I'm going to be okay. It's been six months and you know what, I'm actually so proud of myself.
I'm proud of you too.
You don't even know the half of it. I found Abi and Jerry.
Who are they?
They helped me during a really difficult time. They're okay. They're safe. Malfoy didn't harm them, but I was always too scared to check I guess.
That's good, did you go speak to them?
No. I didn't want to do that to them. I gave them the money from the house though. Anonymous donation.
You didn't have to do that.
Yeah I did. They were there for me when I needed someone.
Should I expect an extravagant gift too then?
Terry, please. My presence and compliance in completing these stupid sessions are gift enough.
*laughs* I can't deny that. Well I'm really happy for you Lily.
You know what. Me too.
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Transcript Entry #10
Name: Lily Argent-Fowler
Date: 12/12/98
Patient has arrived with a guest.
Lily I wasn't expecting you today. I thought we scheduled the next one for next year.
I know, but I thought get the last one over and done with. Plus Ginny here was shocked that I still have one left.
I finished mine in like 2 weeks. Come on ten sessions are so easy.
Listen okay, it's been a tough ride.
Sure, that's why I found you shopping in Madame's and Monsieur's last week.
Shut up, I was looking for Christmas presents.
Mmm, I bet I know who for.
Ugh why did I agree to this?
I'm sorry I'm not sure I follow.
Oh sorry, I'm Ginny Weasley. Lily here used to date my brother, George.
And here we go again.
I've told them both that they need to just see each other. But they're scared. You bring shame to Gryffindor name.
Listen I can't. We've been through too much.
Hah. Excuses.
We have! I was in a dark place after the war.
I know. We know. I tried to find you after Fr- after the funeral but you moved out?
Yeah I sold the house.
Good. Bloody hell that was a dreary place.
Mmm. The point is, too much has happened and we're in different places now.
So what? We were in different places when we met. And look at us now.
It's different.
How so?
It just is!
Please help me here. She's being stubborn right?
Well I'm not sure wh-
Hah see. Even Mr. Therapist doesn't care for this.
I didn't say tha-
Listen you can't keep running away.
I'm not! I've stayed in town. I've done pretty well. If anyone was running, it's him.
What's that supposed to mean?
He's going to America right? To set up Wizard's there.
... No?
No?!
He changed his mind. He's staying here. Didn't I tell you that?
No you didn't you bloody rascal.
Well what's that got to do with anything?
We- Nothing! I mean it doesn't change anything.
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Stop smirking at me you jerk. I told you I don't care.
Sure. So the fact that he's moving back into the flat today is of no interest to you?
Wait what? Is that why you wanted to go Diagon Alley?
No that's why you're going to go there.
I'm not going there.
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What time is he supposed to get there?
Atta girl! Around 3 ish.
3ish?? That's in ten minutes. Holy Merlin. What do I look like? Do I look okay?
Erm, sure. Let's go with sure.
Ginny!!!
Listen it's raining so it's not like he's going to look perfect or anything.
It's raining?!?
Honestly how did you make any progress with this girl, genuinely you need a raise.
Hey!
It's been one of my more interesting cases.
I bet it has.
Ginny, Hello? Dealing with a life altering decision here!
Such a drama queen. You both deserve each other.
Crap, it's 2.55, I've got to go. Mr. Therap- I mean Terry, it's been a blast but I hope to never see you again.
... Likewise. Take care Lily.
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Transcript Entry #11
Name: Lily Argent-Fowler
Date: 3/5/99
MR. THERAPIST- WE FINALLY MEET!
I'm sorry, I don't believe I have a session scheduled today?
Terry!
Oh right. You're back. But why? I thought we agreed that we didn't want to see each other again.
Yes, but then I realised, I only actually did nine sessions out of ten.
She worms her way out of everything. Bloody hell, how comfy is this sofa?!
Stop being an idiot. I'm sorry. He insisted on coming.
I wanted to meet the infamous Mr. Therapist. You really made an impression on my girlfriend here.
You're in a relationship Lily? That is good to hear!
Well, she kind of never stopped being in one. She just didn't know it.
I'm not sure I follow.
Ignore him. Anyways, how have you been Terry??
Me?
Yes we talked about me for Merlin knows how long, I thought hey! Let's check up on Terry!
Actually it was my idea. Look here, he's got all your notes and everything.
That's private!
Yes please can you put that down Mr.?
Weasley. George Weasley.
George Weasl- but surely not the same Geo-?
Shut up shut up shuT UP TERRY.
What's this? You talked about me?
Sorry, it's just that in our last session she left to go see you. So I suppose it all worked out?
*laughing* you needed to go to therapy AND have Ginny to come see me.
Ugh see what you've done. I thought you were going to America. You KNOW this.
Still it's nice to hear. Did she tell you the first thing she did when she saw me?
Oh here we go...
Jinxed my trunk! My new trunk! Split right in half, I spent 10 galleons on that.
I was trying to be sentimental!
Still owe me 10 galleons.
Bloody hell. It worked, didn't it?!
Yeah I suppose it did.
Well then, quit complaining.
You know, she tells me all sorts of stuff now. Can't get her to shut up sometimes.
I know the feeling.
Hey!
You know what I don't understand is why you insist on calling yourself Lily Argent-Fowler. Isn't it such a mouthful? It's written here at the top of each of your session notes - look.
Actually it's Argent-Fowler-Snape now. I've decided to take up all the names. And quit looking at my notes!
I'll make a note of it.
Don't. Seriously, it's such a long surname.
It's a nod to everything that makes me, me.
Right. Or you're just being overly extra with all these details.
You're the one who says you love every part of me.
*reddens* don't admit that stuff in front of Terry here. Poor lad doesn't need to hear about our domestics.
*smirks* well you're the one who brought it up.
It's a legitimate issue.
Fine. Which one am I supposed to choose?
Weasley.
Weas- wha- George?! COME BACK HERE!
I believe Mr. Weasley just left the building.
Of course he did.
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