Marshall's P.O.V:
I watch Tessa from the gap in the door as I stay glued to the spot. My heart breaks a little everytime she whispers to herself, everytime she tells herself to be stronger and pull herself together. I look to the right and watch Kim smile and nod at me before she walks away with Hailie who's asleep in her arms.
"Go talk to her." Kim say as she looks back at me. "Get her back, Marshall." She adds before she turns her back towards me and walks off towards the lift that's in the studio.
Get her back? She's saying it like it's the simplest thing to do.
I dig my hands into my pocket and place my forhead against the door as I watch my ex wife burst out in tears once again. She covers her face and shakes her head before she pulls at her hair slightly. My eyes scan the marks and bruises on her bare shoulder and neck that I made.
Me. I made those marks with my bare hands and then I tell her how much I love her and I beg her not to leave me? Man, what the fuck is wrong with me? Why the hell would I lay my hands on Tessa?
"Shut up and hold it in." I hear her say to herself. I look down at time on Rolex and let out a sigh. I have ten to fifteen minutes to get her to listen to me before she flies out to California for an award ceremony.
Tessa pulls her heels towards her and pulls them on before she stands up. My eyes scan her white dress that hits the floor once she stands up. She places one hand on her hip and runs her hand through her hair that the hair stylist just fixed. "Damn it, damn it, damn it." She whispers as she wipe's at her face and tries to stop crying.
I push open the door as she rips off tissue from the roll and wipe's at her wet cheeks. I close the door quietly behind me and walks towards her. Before I can even think about what i'm about too, I wrap my arms around her and pull her against me. Tessa burst out in tears and sound of her sobs fill up the room as she places her hand on the of my arm and tightens her grip around it.
"Why are you here, Marshall?" She asks.
"I can't leave you alone knowing that you're hurting." I whisper in her ear and kiss her on the cheek, making her squeeze her eyes shut. Tessa pulls away from me and walks towards the window.
"You can't be here." She finally speaks after a couple of minutes of silence.
"Tessa, it's been a week." I state. I take a seat on the couch and lean back into it. "I've been without you for a week and life has been nothing but-but hell." I throw my hands up in the air.
"You have to get used to living without me." I hear her say quietly as she wipe's her tears away before she sniffs.
"No.....No, Tess-" I start and get cut off.
"We're going to be late." Leroy walks in, making Tessa jump slightly at the sound of his sharp voice before she quickly straightens up. I watch her as she grabs her purse and phone with her back turned towards Leroy and me.
"She'll be down in a second." I say.
"You're not aloud to be near her...You shouldn't even be talking to her." Leroy says.
"I said she will be down in a fucking second." I hiss as I stand up. I walk towards the door and slam it in his face before I lock it. Tessa stays quiet as she walks around the room to collect her person belongings.
"They're everywhere." I hear her say. "They are watching us everywhere. Our managers....Security, the make up artist, drivers...They all work for the contract. T-they're everywhere." She adds quietly.
"So what if they're fucking everywhere?" I shrug.
"We can't be seen together." She says.
"Tessa, I don't give a shit if we're being watched. I love you. You love me, okay? You're my children's mother. We have a family together." I follow her around the room as she collects her belongings. "They can watch all they fucking like." I add in anger.
"God, when will you understand?" She stops walking and turns to face me. "We have a contract to stick to-" She says, making me cut in as I walk towards her.
"I don't give a shit about the fucking contract." I say as I grab a hold of her by placing my hand on her waist. Tessa bites down on her bottom lip as she shakes her head and looks away from me and to her left. "You need me." I say and watch her as she lets out a shaky laugh.
"I don't need anyone." She says quietly as she wipe's a tear that's escaped from her eye with her thumb. "What I need is you to leave me alone." She adds as she looks back up at me.
"No. No, Tess you don't mean that. You're not thinking straight." I shake my head.
"We're divorced." She states.
"Because we were forced to get a divorce." I state. I quickly grab a hold of her face when she starts to walk away. Tessa lets out a sigh as I cup her face and make her look up at me. "Look at me baby....I-I-I'm a mess without you." I state. "And I can see that you are too." I add.
"No, Marshall." She shakes her head. "I'm a mess because of what me and you did." She says.
"What? We fell in love?" I tilt my head to the side.
"No. We killed Karla and Chris." She says. I slowly drop my hands and shake my head as we hold eachothers gaze. Tessa steps away from me as I stay frozen in my spot. She grabs her bag and walks towards the door. "I'm giving you by the end of the day. I'm giving you until 12am." I say loudly and hear her stop in her tracks. "I'm giving you time to change your mind and if you don't..." I shrug as I trail off. "Then i'll move on and forget about you." I choke out the words like they're acid in my mouth. "And if you change your mind then...We'll be together again. I'll fight with you. We'll fight together. We'll fight the contract." I add.
Tessa stays glued to her spot for a few minutes before she finally snaps out of it. I watch her as she pull's her bag over her shoulder and then picks up her dress that's hitting the floor. She places her hand on the door handle and unlocks the door. I clench my fist and shake my head as she pushes the door handle.
"I don't need until the end of the day to make up my mind." She finally speaks.
"Then come home with me now. Forget the award ceremony. Let's just go home." I say and watch her shake my head.
"I don't need until the end of the day to make my mind because I know what I want and what I want is for you to leave me alone." She says, making my heart break a little before she pulls open the door and walks out. Leroy smiles at me in victory as Tessa walks past him.
Tessa's P.O.V:
"Tessa, I know you're there. Please just pick up the phone and talk to me. I'm worried about you baby and-" I listen to Marshall speak before I quickly pick up the phone and slam it down again. I shake my head before I turn away. How the hell did he even get this number?
Just when I manage to stand up on my feet, I drop back down onto my needs and throw up into the bin. I shake my head as my shaky hands reach out for the tissue. I stand up straight and shake my head as I wipe the side of my mouth and toss the papers into the bin.
I'll take the trash out when the neighbors are not peeping over the fence and taking pictures.
"Fuck. Me." I let out a sigh as I slowly walk away.
I pick up my wine glass as I walk out of the kitchen and walk towards the front door. I let out a sigh when the doorbell rings. I make my way towards the door fast and unlock it before I pull it open. My brother Jacob pushes past me to get away from the papparazi that are camped outside on the lawn. I close the door behind him and lock it before I turn away.
"You look like shit." He states.
"I don't feel too good." I mumble as I lean back against the door. "I think I have food poisoning." I add and watch him nod before he turns his back towards me. I watch Jacob as he looks around the hallway. He walks into the living room and digs his hands deep into his pocket. I lean against the doorway and watch him as he looks around.
"Nada ha cambiado." Jacob finally speaks. "It's...All the same." He adds. I nod slowly as I look around Chris and Karla's living room.
{Translation: Nothing's changed.}
"Yeah. Yo…Yo tuve que limpiarlo para la gente que esta rentando el lugar." I state.
{Translation: I...I have to clean it out for the people who are renting the place.}
We decided to put Chris and Karla's house on rent since it's still on Milo and Jamesons name. All the rent money gets split into two and placed into Milo and Jamesons funds and by we I actually mean me. Chris and Karla's family don't want anything to do with the house since it reminds them of Karla and Chris.
"Hmm." Jacob hums as I stand there quietly. "It still doesn't seem real." He sighs.
"Como has estado Jake?" I ask after a couple of minutes of silence.
{Translation: How have you been Jake?}
"Con todo lo que esta pasando entre tu y Marshall…y que este saliendo en las noticias, y ¿todavía te preocupas por mi?" He turns to face me.
{Translation: With everything that's happening between you and Maeshall...With it all being on the news, you're still concerned about me?}
"I haven't seen you since their funeral." I shrug and walk into the room. "Besides, you're my brother." I fold my arms across my chest.
"I'm getting by." He shrugs. "¿Y tu?" He glances down at the wine glass in my hand.
{Translation: And you?}
"It's my second glass." I state as I walk further into the room. "Can I get you a glass?" I ask as I place mine down on the glass table.
"No...I...I'm sober." He says.
"Oh....How long have you been sober?" I ask.
"Three weeks now. I made a promise to my Mel." He says referring to his daughter Melanie.
"What are you going to do with all this?" He asks.
"No lo se." I shrug as I pick up a box. "I guess....I'll leave it all in my house." I shrug.
{Translation: I don't know}
"Good idea." He says. Jacob lets out a sigh as he picks up an empty box and starts to fill it up with the decorations around the room.
After an hour or so, we're finally done with the living room. I pick up the last frame and lean against the wall. Jacob looks at me and lets out a heavy sigh. He glances at the picture in the frame and shakes his head.
"1999." Jacob says. "Karla and Chris woke me up at 2am and said they wanted to go exploring. Me llamaron a las pinches dos de la mañana." He chuckles, making me smile lightly. "You were on tour then and they wouldn't let me sleep. We went
rock climbing. Yeah...We...Spent the whole night there. I took that picture of them you know." He says. My eyes fill up with tears, making me place my hand against my mouth to stop myself from crying. "It was one of the best nights ever. Although, Madison wasn't too happy." He chuckles and looks back at me. His laughter slowly dies down when he see's me crying.
{Translation: They called me at fucking 2 in the morning.}
"¿Por que yo Jake, por que?" I start to sob. Jacob places the frame in his hand down and walks towards me.
{Translation: Why me, jake, why?}
"It's life, hermanita." He says before he hugs me. I place my chin on his shoulder as I try my best to push my emotions down and ignore the pain in my heart.
{Translation: little sister.}
"It's not fair." I shake my head.
"I know and i'm sorry that this happening." He sighs as I sob on his shoulder. "They are both so proud of you...todo mejorará, te lo prometo que lo hará." He says, making me sob harder. "And Marshall will come around soon too. He loves you way to much to just walk away." He whispers, making me shake my head lightly.
{Translation: It will get better soon, I swear to you it will.}
DeShaun's P.O.V:
I kiss my son and hand him over to his mom before I pick up my keys. I pull on my jacket as I look around for my shoes. I pick up my Nikes and walks towards the front door before I drop them down on the floor and slide my feet into them.
"You're seriously leaving at this time of the night after the conversation we had?" My girlfriend appears in the door way. I let out a sigh as I look up at her.
"It wasn't really conversation. More of an argument where you accused me of sleeping around with other women." I state.
"DeShaun." She sighs.
"Don't wait up for me." I say and turn to face the front door. I let out a sigh and turn around to face her again. I walk towards her and cup her cheek before I kiss her on the forehead. "I'm going to see Marshall." I state as I look down at her. She nods slowly as she looks away from me.
"It's late." She states. "Why can't you see him in the morning?" She asks.
"He's fucked up. He's all over the place and...He needs me." I shrug.
"Well i'm going to be waiting up." She turns her back towards me and walks off up the stairs.
"No, baby. You don't gotta do that-" I start and get cut off.
"I'll be in our room....On my own." She adds, making me sigh. "You go ahead and go to your friends place." She adds with a wave of her hand. "You've been going there every other night. What's stopping you now?" She huffs.
"Man, I can't stand you sometimes." I throw my hands in the air.
"Well neither can I!" She shouts back, making me sigh. "You know what DeShaun Dupree Holton?" She reappears at the top of the staircase. "You go to Marshall's house. Crash at his place because when you come back, the door is going to be locked! Goodnight!" She adds and storms off.
"Sharonda, baby come on!" I yell after her before I hear our bedroom door slam shut.
I shake my head as I pick up my cap and throw it over my head before I pull open the door and step out into the rain. I walk towards my SUV and unlock it before I quickly hop in a start the engine but before I pull out the driveway, I take out my phone and text my wife.
Me: I love you.
Wifey: Goodnight!
I let out a sigh and throw my head back as I drop my phone in the cup holder. I pull out of the drive way. I turn right onto the empty street and make my way towards Marshall's crib. I look down at my phone when it beeps and pick it up. I keep and eye on the empty road as I flip my phone open before I look down at it and read the text.
Wifey: I love you too.
I smile lightly as I type a quick text back before I hit the send button and flip it close. I relax into my seat and drive down the empty road for twenty more minutes before I come onto Marshall's road. I turn left and stop at his gates and look out at the gaurds shed. The guard waves at me before he pulls the metal gates open and signals for me to go through.
"Thanks Anthony!" I say as I lower my window down.
"Good to see you again, DeShaun!" He waves at me before he walks off into the guards shed. I drive down the road and park infront of Iris' and Ryders car that Tessa got them for their birthday yesterday.
I kill off the engine and climb out of my car before I slam the door shut. I dig my phone and keys into my pocket as I jog up the stairs and use my key to unlock the door. I open the front door and step into the dark hallway before I switch the lights on.
"Doody?" I take a step foward when my eyes land on Marshall.
Marshall looks up at me, his blood shot eyes connect to mine before he lets out a sigh. He places the bottle of alcohol down by his feet before he stand up, only to fall back down on the staircase due to his drunken state. I quickly close the door behind me and rush towards him.
He has the kids this week and he's fucking drunk??
"What the fuck happened man?" I ask. I help him as he tries to get up. I lead him towards his office where we can talk properly and not get interupted by one of his kids.
"I gave her until the end of the day." Marshall says as I help him sit down on the couch. I shake my head as I take his Jordans off and toss them aside. "I said until 12am, Doody." He adds.
"I have no idea what the fuck your on about." I say as I look up at him before I help him with his coat.
"Tessa." He grabs onto my arm, making me sigh as I stop taking his jacket off and look at him.
"What about her?" I ask.
"She left me man." He says as his eyes water. My hearts drop a little at the sight as I kneal down infront of him. Never in my whole life have I seen this man cry. Never.
He must really fucking love her...
"Na, Doody. She's here. Once this new contract is signed, she'll be back." I add as I place my hand on his shoulder and tap him lightly. Marshall shakes his head.
"Karla and Christopher got murdered." He says as he looks up at the chandelier.
"Tessa's friends?" I ask and watch him slowly. "Na man." I shake my head. "Karla died because she had cancer and her husband died after a car crash." I say, making him shake his head.
"They killed them....They murdered them because of us. Because me and Tess fell in love." He says, making me shake my head.
"Marshall, this is the most dumbest shit I have ever heard in my fucking life. You're drunk. Come on, get up." I gesture for him to stand up so I can take him to his bed.
"They're dead because of me man." Marshall stand up and throw his arm around my shoulder before I help him towards the door.
"Where's you proof?" I ask.
"Hm?" He looks at me as I pull open the door.
"Where's your proof that they got murdered?" I ask.
"I don't have any." He says quietly.
"Well there you go. They weren't murdered Marshall. They died because....Well because it was there time to go." I shrug as we walk up the stairs. "And Tessa will come back. You wait and see. I haven't seen anyone love another person as much as you two love eachother." I add. I stay quiet as we reach the top of the staircase before I stumble towards his room. "She'll be back soon." I mumble as I push open the door before we walk in. I stand by the side of Marshall's bed as he slowly gets in. I pick up the duvet from the floor and throw it over him. "You get some rest, doody." I let out a small sigh.
"She's gone man. She's gone." Marshall lets out a small sigh as he closes his eyes. I shake my head as I turn away from him. I reach to shut the lamp off but freeze in my spot when my eyes fall onto two zip lock bags. I glance at Marshall before I look back at the bags and pick them up.
I shake my head as I look at the white pills in the bag and let out a sigh. God knows what he's fucking taking. I tuck the pill in my jeans pocket and switch off the lamp before I turn away and walk off towards the door.
"She's gone." I hear him whisper as he turns onto his side.
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Chapter 152 is up, I'm so sorry for this really really boring and depressing chapter!
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