OH MY GOD!
This is an important chapter.
I'd suggest listening to this song while reading it. It gives me chills to be honest.
And now....
ENJOY!!!
"Because you are pregnant"
At first I felt nothing. I was numb. Void of any emotion. My mind didn't comprehend what was happening.
But then it hit me.
A little sigh escaped my lips. Everything I saw seemed to speed up while my own movements slowed down. The cold night air was now suffocating me. My hands trembled as a sinking feeling settled inside of me.
I felt my legs buckle as I fell on my knees. The feeling of dread consumed me. The pain wasn't physical. But I felt as though it was. I felt every single part of my body burn. Every molecul inside of me protested against the idea. Against the reality.
I felt nauseous. I felt as though my whole body was giving up on me. I felt disgusted my myself. How could I let this happen? How could I do this?
I felt anxiety creep inside of me. I was lightheaded. Numb. My breathing was rapid. I was hyperventilating.
Sentimentality got the best of me causing a single sob to escape me.
That single sob was continued with another one. And another one.
"No" A broken whisper was let out.
"NO!" I screamed at the blackness of the night. The tears unconsciously dwelled up in my eyes. My hands shoke uncontrollably as I tried to calm myself down.
"Y-You are lying!" I exclaimed in agony.
"Val, please calm down"
My mouth was sealed shut. She wasn't lying was she? I was pregnant. I was going to be a mother.
No, no. It wasn't supposed to happen this way. It wasn't supposed to be this way at all. I can't have a child. How can I have a child?
"You are a child" Sasha whispered.
I destroyed a life. Because of my mistake I will destroy that child's life. How can I be a mother? That child has done nothing. And I will ruin it all.
That child. The word dried down in my throat. How could I even say it? It wasn't that child. It was my child. My flesh and blood! Our pup. The result of our love.
Instinctively my hands went around my stomach. I was carrying a new life. I was carrying Ace's child. His child. I hugged my stomach protectively at the thought of something happening to my pup.
How could I miss this? How could I not notice. The constant vomiting. The sickness. The symptoms were in front of me yet I failed to see them.
I wasn't ready to be a mother. I could never be one. I simply can't do that. How could someone like me. A monster. A murderer be a mother? I am one of the most dangerous creatures on this planet. I didn't even know how much I had to li-
The worst feeling in the world made my words die. My birthday. I didn't know what day it was. I didn't know how long I had left to live. For the first time in my life I felt scared. I felt scared for my own life. If I die I wouldn't have my child. I would never see Ace again.
No, I didn't want to die. I wanted to live. I wanted to have a life with my mate and my baby. I wanted to live!
"Why did you do this to me?" I screamed into nothingness.
"Why aren't you giving me a chance to live?" My voice broke.
"If you hate me so much then at least think about my kid! Don't let me pup die!" I growled in anger. The Moon Goddess has to hear me! She just has too...
The desperation was evident in my voice. I had to do something! I had to change this goddamned curse. I had to save our life's.
I would find a way to talk to the Moon Goddess before it's too late. I would do anything to save my mate and my child..
"How much do I have?" I voiced fiercely.
"Four days" Sasha whispered brokenly.
Great. Then I had only four days to get everything done. I had to Talk to the Moon Goddess. Save my mate. And murder some people...