Marshall's P.O.V:
I stop the car and kill of the engine before I unclips my belt and take out the keys. I reach for the door handle and open the door as I look back at Tessa, only to find her still in her seat with her knees pulled up against her chest.
"Tessa." I call her but get no answer from her. I close the door again and wait for her to do or say something but she stays quiet as she stares up at our home. "It's late baby and you're probably tired. Let's go inside." I say softly.
Tessa keeps her eyes fixed on our mansion. I place my keys on the dash board and lean back in my seat as I turn a little to face her. I let out a sigh before I speak.
"I know what you're going through and I know how you feel." I say and watch her move back slightly before she turns to face the other way. "I went through the same thing with Ronnie." I add and get nothing out of her.
"You don't know what i'm going through." She whispers after a couple of minutes.
"Actually....I do." I say. "Ronnie...He...Meant the world to me. We did everything together and when he died I...I felt like I couldn't breath." I say. "It felt like then world ended and my family moved on so quickly and it pissed me off. Everyone moved on whilst I was still crying over him." I add.
"I'm sorry about Ronnie." She says without looking at me. "But there's a huge difference between how we both felt or feel. I didn't just lose one person that I loved, I lost two." She says and turns to face me. "So stop comparing yourself to me." She adds, taking me by suprise. "I don't want to talking about them being gone again." She adds before she unclips her seat belt.
"It helps to talk about your feelings." I say quickly before she can get out of the car.
"Did you talk about your feelings when Ronnie died?" She raises her brow, making me let out a sigh. "That's what I thought." She adds. "I'm trying to move on. I'm trying to carry on and you and my brothers and everyone else is making it hard for me to do that so just...Stop. I don't have time to mourn." She says, leaving me stunned.
Tessa gets out of the car and closes the door behind herself. I watch her walk up to our home. I let out a sigh and get out of my car before I follow Tessa inside.
"Mr Mathers. Good to have you back sir." One of the guard says. It's been almost three weeks since i've been away.
Ryder and Iris are with Andrew and will fly back to Detroit this weekend with Nicklaus. Tessa wouldn't stay in California. I begged her to but she wouldn't listen.
I nod at the guard and walk past him and inside. I stop in the foyer and look around at all the flowers that are crowding the foyer. I look up at Tessa and watch her make her way up.
I take off my jacket and follow her up slowly. I watch her make her way towards her room before she pushes it open. Before she walks in, she turns around to face me.
"I think it's best if I stay in my own room for a while." She says, making me walk towards her. I watch her walk into her room before she turns around to face me. "On my own." She adds and closes the door halfway. "Goodnight." She mumbles and closes the door.
***
I blow smoke out of my mouth as Nick sits down on the hood of his car. I hand him the lighter and look around for any sign of papparazi or fans but find none. It's freezing outside, of course no one would be here.
"California?" Nick says, making me turn to face him. He places the cigarette between his lips as he shakes his head. "What is she, crazy? She can't go back there." He talks with his hand with the cigarette still between his lips before he shakes us head and lights it up.
"I tried to tell her not to go back since it's only going to upset her but she refuses to listen." I shrug. "There's no stopping her." I add.
"What's gotten into her?" Nick mumbles and shakes his head once again.
"I don't know." I sigh. "You know she still hasn't cried over Karla and Chris yet?" I say. "It's like their still alive and she goes on with her day like nothing even happened." I throw the cigarette down on the floor and step on it. "I'm worried about her man and she won't even talk to me." I say as I bury my numb hands into my pockets to shelter them from the cold.
"Tessa has been through a lot. She's a strong woman. She'll probably get through this too." Nick says, making me shake my head.
"Na." I sigh. "She's holding her feelings in and blocking out everything around her. She doesn't want to talk about it. She pushes the people she loves away from her. She acts like everything's alright and bottles up all her emotions." I say and look up at Nick. "She's like a ticking time bomb. It's only a matter of time before something goes wrong and she has a break down." I say and watch Nick nod slowly in agreement. "I just have to prepared for it." I shrug.
***
"What are you doing here?" My wife shoots up out of her seat. I walk past the air hostess and towards Tessa. I sit down across her and watch her fold her arms across her chest. "Marshall." She sighs.
"I'm coming with you." I shrug.
"No you're not." She tuts. "Iris and Ryder need you here in Detroit." She adds.
"And you need me more with you in California." I state. "Iris and Ryder are mature and sensible enough to stay at home without us. Plus Proof will stay with them." I add.
"I don't need you to come to LA with me." She says. "Get off the jet and go home." She adds.
"You can't do this on your own." I say.
"Well I have no other choice but to since Christopher's dick of a brother went back to Canada." She says and drops down next to me. "I'm their god mother. I have to do this." She says and places her head on my shoulder. I wrap my arms around her and pull her closer to me.
"Nick is also their god parent-" I state and get cut off.
"Nick said he can't come." She says.
"You talked to him?" I ask.
"No. Alex did." She says and moves her head away from my shoulder. She stands up from the seat next to me and walk towards her bag before she takes her phone out.
"He said he's not stable enough to adopt the kids." She tells me.
And you are?
Instead of saying anything, I stay quiet and watch her sink down in the seat across me. The air hostess instructs for us to pull on our belts before she walks away, leaving me alone with Tessa.
Tessa types away on her phone before she flips it close and places it next to her in her bag. She covers her face with her hands and lets out a long sigh. I sit foward in my seat, making her clear her throat as she crosses her legs together before she sits up straight in her seat.
"You okay, baby?" I ask, making her glance at me before she looks away from me and out of the window again.
"Why wouldn't I be?" She asks.
You just lost your best friends a month ago and adopting a baby and a 8 year old, why would you be?
Alexander's P.O.V:
I look around Chris and Karla's house as Marshall and Tessa rush around me and collect Milo and Jameson's belongings. Tessa glances back at me and lets out a sigh.
"I talked to Liam today." Tessa says before she turns her back towards me.
"Yeah." I mumble.
"Yep." She says. "What is wrong with you, Alex?" She asks, making me place the photo frame in my hand down and turn around to face her.
"Why would there be something wrong with me?" I shrug and watch her sigh.
"A witness has come foward and wrote a statement saying that Chris and Jacob were being followed before the car crash." She says.
"Liam is getting too free with me being his boss. If it was someone else, he would have been fired already for releasing confidential information to the public and-" I start and get cut off.
"They were being followed. What if the car behind Chris and Jacob was the main reason Chris died?" Tessa says. Marshall turns to face us the same time I turn around to face her fully.
"Chris died of a heart attack." I state. "You shouldn't be getting involved in this. I don't want you to talk about this case. You shouldn't even know about it." I say and turn around again.
"I'm your sister." Tessa huffs.
"And I am your big brother." I say and turn to face her again. "Don't get involved, Tessa." I say sternly. "You have enough on your plate as it is." I add.
"Why won't you take this seriously!" Tessa yells and slams the box full of toys on the coffee table.
"This is my case! I am serious about it!" I say in anger.
"Then talk to Jacob." She throws her hands up on the air.
"Don't get involved." I shake my head.
"That way you will get somewhere and track down the car that was following Chris and Jaco-" She carries on, making me talk over her.
"Don't tell me how to do my job." I talk over her.
"....Put this grudge that you have with Jacob behind you and move on-" She carries on talking and ignores me.
"I will do this how I want to do it!" I yell over her but Tessa talks louder.
"And stop being an emotionless asshole and help your brother Jacob who witnessed his bestfriend die infront of him!" Tessa screams, making me go quiet.
"I'm the emotionless asshole?" I say. "It's been one fucking month and you haven't even shed one tear for Chris or Karla!" I yell, making her go quiet.
Tessa clenches her jaw and I notice her dig her nails into the cardboard box and shake her head lightly. I let out a small sigh and turn my back towards her. I don't say anything when Tessa storms past me and out of the living room. I listen to her walk away before I hear her pull the front door open and slam it shut behind her.
"Fuck!" I curse and slam the glass frame against the wall before I walk out, leaving Marshall alone in the living room.
***
"I don't remember." Jacob repeats for the hundredth time. I let out a sigh and lean back against in my seat as I slam the notebook in my hand shut with the pen still inside it. "I remember waking up in the hospital....That's all." He adds.
I knew this would be a waste of time.
"You sure?" My twin brother Liam asks.
"I...Remember renting out a car and...That's all." He shrugs and scratches his head. I glance at his girlfriend who is also mother of his three children before I look away from her again. She reminds me of my ex wife, apart from the fact that she's white and my ex was spanish.
"He woke up couple of times in the night talking about driving fast and getting away." His girlfriend says.
"Did he mention any names in these dreams Madison?" Liam asks softly.
"He just mentioned Chris." She says. I glance down at her hand linked together with Jacobs.
"What were these dreams about?" I ask, making everyone turn to face me. Jacob looks up at me before he looks away again.
"Chris and I are driving in the rental car." He says.
"What happens in this dream?" I ask.
"I just remember the ending." He tells me. "Chris....Is driving and he gets a call. Just then he...Loses control of the car and we crash....That's when I wake up." He clears his throat.
"That's it?" I ask. I watch my brother nod, making me stand up.
"I'll see you soon, Jacob." I say as I walk towards the door. "By the way. Mom would feel better if you showed up at the hospital." I say.
"Wh-Why is she in hospital?" He stutters.
"Didn't Tessa tell you?" I ask and glance back at my little sister who looks away from me awkwardly. "Course she didn't." I mumble and look back at Jacob. "The guards found her in the pool. She took her prescription pills and she should have gone to bed afterwards but claimed she heard a noise in the back garden. She ending up falling into the pool since the pills make you drowsy. She's been in hospital since yesterday. I suggest you go see her." I add and start to walk away.
Tessa's P.O.V:
I reach for the lamp on the hotels bedside table and switch the light on. I sit up in bed and glance back at Marshall who's fast asleep before I slowly start to climb out of the bed. I reach for my clothes and get changed before I grab the car keys.
I tip toe towards Marshall as I flip my phone open and type a quick text explaining where i'm gone when he wakes up. His phone beeps and vibrates, making him moan in his sleep as he turns to lay on his right and faces me.
I forgot to turn it on silent.
I let out a sigh and pick up my bag from the floor and tuck my hair behind my ears before I lean down towards him and place my lips lightly against his and kiss him softly before I let out a sigh and move back.
"I love you." I whisper before I stand up and make my way towards the door.
Being away from my husband and children scares me to death. Everyone around me that I trust and love with all my heart either walks away, end up breaking my heart or ends up dying and I don't want to come back to find my husband being gone. Just the thought of it alone hurts.
I glance back at Marshall before I walk out of our hotel room and close the door behind me quietly. I walk down the dimly lit corridor and make my way towards the elevator before I push my finger down on the golden button and step into the empty elevator once the doors slide open.
It's two in the morning so I doubt anyone would be awake at this time apart from security and staff who work here. The doors slide open again and I step out into the empty foyer.
I smile at the man behind the desk before I walk towards the glass doors that lead out to the carpark. After a couple of minutes of searching around the huge car park, I finally find our rental car and make my way towards it slowly.
***
"Where is....Everyone?" My mom says quietly, making me look up at her. I pull the blanket off me and stand up from my seat before I walk towards her.
"Everyone is at home." I tell her. "I'm sorry I didn't mean to wake up." I say quietly as I clutch onto her hand.
"Hmmm....I was already awake." She says and look away from me and up at the lights.
"How are you feeling, Madre?" I ask and watch her glance back at me.
"Sore." She says and looks away again. It's been three weeks since our argument and she's still angry at me. "Really sore." She adds and closes her eyes and gulps.
"I'm sorry." I say as I clutch onto her hand and place it close to my lips. "I am so sorry that this happened. I should have been here to take care of you now that..." I stop speaking and push down my emotions. I can't even call him my own father after what he did. "And i'm sorry for arguing with you and hurting you." I add.
Mum lets out a small sigh and turns to face me and smiles sadly. Her eyes scan my face before she looks back right at me. She shakes her head and looks away from me again and lets out a long sigh.
"Have you seen my sons?" She asks, making me freeze. I shake my head slowly. "They're all busy with work probably." She says as she raises her brows and drops them again. The boys were always her favourite. "They work so hard to feed their family and give their family what they want. I love those boys with all my life." She tells me.
My eyes get glossy and I clear my throat as I tighten my grip around her hand. I blink away tears before she looks back at me and smile lightly. She gestures towards the seat, making me reach out for it and pull it under me before I sit down. I move closer to her and keep my hand wrapped around her.
"Talk to me." She whispers. "You look so sad. So broken." She adds. I lower my head and place her hand against my forhead.
I've been holding it all in to stay strong for everyone around me and it's breaking me into tiny pieces. I feel so broken and beyond repair. I was numb at first. Too numb to feel anything but as days went by, I started to slowly break and now, I don't think I can control my emotions. The pain I have pushed back down is burning inside me.
I'm in so much pain that it hurts everytime I breath. I don't know what to do and what to say or how to act. I don't want to be here anymore. I want to be far away from this world but I know my husband and children need me but it hurts.
It kills to get out of bed and face my family. It kills to live another day without Chris and Karla here. I don't know how to live without them and the only reason i'm living without them here is because of my husband and kids.
"That's because I am." I say and swallow the lump in my throat. I hear my mom tut lightly. "I am broken and I feel so lost." I croak.
Don't cry. Don't cry. Don't cry!
"What's wrong cariño?" Mum whispers as she strokes my hair back. I shake my head and feel light headed as I cover my face. "What's wrong?" She says softly again.
"Everything." I whisper as I lean back into my chair and cover my face. "I lose everyone around me." I throw my hands up in the air and blink away tears. "Everyone around me goes, mama." I say. "They either get up and leave or hurt me so bad that they're not able to face me or...or they end up dying!" I squeak the last word and push the tears back again. "Why me." I say and let out a sigh. "What the hell did I do wrong?" I add.
"Let it all out cariño." She says softly.
"All my life I have been going through heart breaks, after heartbreaks, after heartbreaks and it's all too much!" I say as I lock my eyes onto my mothers. "I don't know what I did wrong to deserve this. What did I do to deserve this?" I whisper the last part. I watch her and wait for her to speak as if she's going to have the answer to my question.
"God has a plan for all of us." She says making me sigh as I nod slowly and look away from her. "Who have you lost?" She asks softly.
"I lost Karla." I say and blink away tears. "She meant the whole world to me. She really did. She was always there and now that she's gone, I don't know what to do without her." I add. "I lost Christopher too. Christopher was just so...." I trail off when my voice cracks, making me clear my throat quickly. "I loved them so much and I miss them so much and I don't know what to do." I whisper.
"You will get through this soon, cariño." She says softly, making me shake my head.
"That's the thing." I shake my head. "I can't get passed this. I don't know how to." I say. "I want them back. I want them here with me so bad." I gulp and lean back as I watch her look at me sadly.
Before my mother can say anything else, a knock on the door stops her. I cover my face and look away from the person at the door and turn to face the window.
"Mrs Black. I didn't know you were awake." A woman says.
"I have a visitor." My mother gestures towards me.
"Oh. Well, it's my duty to check up on all the patients. You need to rest, don't say up too long. You need your rest." She says.
"I won't." Mom shakes her head before I hear the door close.
"I'm sorry, I should be letting you rest." I clear my throat.
"It's fine." She shakes her head. "Do you know what time my sons will get here?" She asks, making me reach out for my phone.
"I'll check for you." I say and flip my phone open.
"Thank you." She says. "And please ask them if they know where Tessa is. She always has me worried sick!" She says, making me look up at her quickly.
"What?" I mumble.
"Tessa is my daughter." She states and smiles lightly. This whole time she thought I was a stranger. I lean back into my seat and listen to my mom speak about me as I hold back my emotions once again.
Alziamiers disease is one big bitch.
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Sorry for the late and shit update. It's gets better now that it's coming to and end.
Happy New Year! Xx