Guys be honest, does this book progress really slowly?? I hope I don't bore you out because I guess it is already chapter 20 and for most stories it's already like reaching some kind of big twist or something cool or whatever. How you all stick.
Gavin~
Since the events of last night, I wasn't really able to sleep properly. Calvin and I still slept in the same bed but he had his back facing me and was on the edge of the other side. I couldn't help but worry about him, constantly looking at him. He knows it. I'm pretty sure the glances and stares I was giving him weren't that hard to...notice. I knew he was awake and was thinking deeply about stuff but I kept quiet and stayed in my space. He did fall asleep before me.
God knows where he is now. Probably in his father's office talking about...this situation that's going on between us. I just hope nothing crazy will happen. Finger's crossed. I just woke up with him not by me and decided to go out at the garden for some fresh air with Kai.
"How's my little Prince?" I cooed at Kaisen. He stared up at me, still having his main focus on the bottle of milk he's currently drinking. I smiled at him and caressed his hair. "Gavin?" Without noticing anyone walking by, I stood up quickly when the Queen herself was standing in front of me. I bowed my head and felt her hand on my shoulder. I slowly looked up to meet her in the eye. "It's fine. Please sit." I let her sit on the bench first and followed after. It isn't the most comfortable situation and it is quite awkward.
"He's growing fast isn't he?" She asked while looking fondly at her grandson. I nodded my head and cleared my throat. "Yeah, he's been eating a lot more lately. He's definitely getting heavier and Calvin actually does a perfect job with getting him to sleep after a feeding. My arms get tired quicker and he's always there to take over..." I finished off quietly. Nobody said a word after and I stayed quiet and focused on Kai not really knowing what to do.
"Gavin, tell me. Is my son forcing you to do this?" My head turned so quickly my neck actually felt a bit of pain afterwards. "I'm sorry?" I asked. She didn't look at me only straight ahead with a worried look on her face. "This whole thing. Being happy here with him, I mean even staying with him in general. I can't imagine what you've gone through after...rejecting you. I'm asking if he's making you stay here with him and forcing you to do so when you don't want to be around him. You two have lied about the reality of what's going on. I just want to know if even this is fake."
She finally turned to look back at me, still wearing that sad and worried expression. I shook my head in denial. "No, no. Of course not. Calvin, Prince Calvin isn't making me stay here just because. The two of us...we've talked. Talked about the situation: Kaisen, my pack, the Royal family, and..." She raised her eyebrow not in a rude questioning way but more of an encouragement for me to continue. "...our relationship. You know the stuff with Kai and us is important. Stuff about...our family." I ended softly.
I heard her laugh softly. "That's nice to hear. I'm glad that at least he's not being a bad person and adding more to the stuff he's done. Good for you two to have these things sorted out, at least these things. I was really nervous thinking that he's forcing you to do this just to save himself or something." I smiled a little and shook my head again. "What he's done to me is something and is just one of the worse things you can do to us wolves. There's no doubt about that but for Kaisen, we just have to deal with it like grown ups and put him first.
Calvin hasn't anything done wrong, lately at least. He came to me, tried to get my forgiveness which we both have already talked about. He needs to work for it, just cause he is my Prince, I won't just go back to him that easily." I looked at her to see what her opinion is on my statement and was relieved to see her nodding her head in understanding. "He's been an amazing parent to Kaisen, there's no doubt about that and he also has been working hard and just trying to make me feel comfortable about everything. I don't want you to think that your son is horrible. In all honesty, the only thing he's done against me is just...the rejection.
He's tried to work hard to apologise, again being an amazing father, trying to my family and whole pack. I mean the rejection is obviously terrible but I hope you know what I mean by that." In all honesty, I wanted to say that the rejection was a dick move but seeing as she the Queen, I don't think it'll be appropriate to say that.
"Calvin is actually talking to his father right now. Those two have been talking since this morning, I'm sure you know about that already. I was there when they started to talk, first about the time where both of you were separated. I was wondering if I could hear your side and know what you've done during that time. During the pregnancy." She looked at me with hope in her eyes and I couldn't really say no. There's no harm on telling her.
"That must have been hard on you, being pregnant with no family but your friends in a foreign country. That family whose helped you and your friends should be rewarded. They did help with keeping the Prince safe." She said as she stroked Kai. She was a lot more quiet than I thought when I spoke to her about everything. "I think so too as well. They we're just...really nice people." We stayed silent again only for her to clear her throat a few moments after. "Gavin may I ask a question then?" I nodded my head and she grabbed one of my hands.
Oh god, this is going to be deep isn't it?
"I'm really thankful for you for letting my son back in to be with his son and being so nice to him after everything. We've talked about all this and both your current situation, all the making him work for you, which I don't have anything against trust me. It's good in my opinion. But, I just can't help and wonder." Oh god what is this.
"Do you still like my son?"
I froze in place and looked at her probably with a mixture of shock, confusion and panic in my face. What the hell do I say to that? Fuck my life. "Um.." I was about to say something but then we both heard feet jogging towards us. I turned around to see 2 men now walking towards the two of us and I watch as they bowed their heads to their Queen and Prince. "What is it?" The Queen asked while standing up. One of the beta's looked at me and I already know what's coming. "The King would like to see Mr. Gavin Wille." Here we go.
Calvin~
The talk with my father, well how I even start to describe it. He gave me a lesson, which I already did expect and just took cause I deserved it anyway. After talking to him for so long, he's finally asked what I was expecting him to ask.
"Calvin, I'm just going to ask you, and this is the final time I'm doing so. Why did you do it?" I stayed in my position sitting down in one of the chairs in front of his desk and shook my head. "I don't know." In all honesty, I don't even know. "The whole thing about producing an heir and all that I guess. I honestly wasn't very informed about the whole ideal about reproduction with male couples and all that, even though I was told it is something we were taught in school." It's a stupid reason, but that I guess was jut the reason then. "Why was that so important to you that instead of being with your mate or even having a small moment for a couple minutes or even seconds, you just rejected him right after you two woke up."
My dad asked. I looked up and he had this desperate look on his face that I couldn't help but look away right after. "Dad, ever since I was young when the whole responsibility of being a King the concept of me being one in the future finally started to kick in, when I fully and deeply understood and was being heavily reminded and taught about the things, having an heir was just one of the main things that was drilled into my head. Not knowing that we actually can reproduce with two males, how do you think I felt when I woke up and realised that the person next to me was my mate and a male.
You got to understand that moment right there made me...panic. I know it was stupid but knowing or at least thinking that I won't be able to do what I needed to do to help the people and do my responsibility as King got stupid things in my head. And during that time I was already getting close with someone remember. As my birthday was coming up I just thought that she would be...the one." I let out a big sigh and fell back my chair. I looked back up to see my father lean forward.
"Tell me Calvin, were you just nervous then thinking that if you weren't able to give an heir, you wouldn't get the position as King? To be hated by the people? Is it all about, or was it all about that?" He asked me. I bit my lip and tried to think but there's just to many things. "I-I just...I don't even know anymore." I said with a big sigh. "Son, how stressed were you about these things? It doesn't matter, when you're with your mate you're suppose to not have a care about everything but just being together. I didn't even realise you thought about it these things that deeply. And Calvin, you need to stop saying I don't know cause there's a reason for everything. Especially serious things like this.
You're an adult now, a freaking parent. You have a son. Sure you're only 18 but it still means you have to start thinking about...everything seriously and responsibly." I only nodded my head not feeling brave and confident enough to look him in the eye. "Tell me something son, you went to him because you learnt you have a son yes? That was the first motive?" I nodded my head, finally looking up at him. "What do you feel now? Is it all still because of Kaisen?" I stopped to think for a minute but it didn't take long before I shook my head. "No. It's not just about Kaisen anymore."
It wouldn't make sense for me to say yes when I'm working hard now to get on Gavin's good side. "I want to be in good terms with Gavin." He nodded his head and leaned back still looking at me. "So you have feelings for him? Or do you just want to get back for the sake of being together cause you're sorry and want to be with your son? Maybe even something else?" I probably thought about it for a long time because I don't know what to say and just like what he said I have to stop saying that. "Calvin?" I looked up to meet my father's eyes.
"I want to be with Gavin because I am sorry and it is a horrible thing for me to do what I did and so I can prove to him that I am sorry. I want to treat him perfectly to repay back all the hurt I've caused and to let him feel the love he needed and deserved in the first place. I want him, myself and Kaisen to be together to be family, not that I'm saying we're not right now. But I guess, I do want to do these things because...I do have feelings for him." I said softly with a sigh.
"I'm glad you know that. Now, why don't you tell your mate that on your own." I looked up with a confused face only to see my father smile at me. The door opened and I turned around when Gavin's scent hit me all of a sudden. The he stood with Daniel's dad. I can hear his heartbeat now beating quickly, just like how mine's is I'm guessing.
We've already talked about these things but I guess him hearing me say these words that I just said are having an affect on me that's just a million times crazier.
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I cry, I wanted to write so much but I didn't know how to put it out there and I guess the next ideas will just have to be put on the next chapter.
So, what do you think about that? Is the progress okay for you guys? What do you think will happen next?
I hope you guys are having as much fun and joy as I do with this book. I hope you liked it and stay tune for more because I do have a lot more. Lol. Thank you so much again and I'll see you next time.
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~Strykly