I tried my best to forget what the old sheriff said but I just couldn't.. What was I going to do? Is he actually black mailing me?!
Do I know too much, possibly? Does he have a connection with whoever raped Vina? Well, somethings for certain, I'm not going to tell Mr.hamper OR Vina. Vina, especially, has enough on her mind, no need to worry her with something as a weak empty threat, right?
I stooped my thinking when I walked into the room Mr.hamper and Vina were supposedly "Describing the suspect". I think I gasped after seeing what I saw, because I saw Vina fall to the ground, after being in Mr.hampers lap, KISSING HIM.
Yup, i said kissing. Tears filled my eyes and I have no idea why. I felt betrayed by Vina, while I'm trying to help her catch this guy that raped her, shes kissing our teacher? I also felt betrayed by Mr.hamper. I don't know why, I just thought, in my crazy mind, that if he had a student teacher affair, it would be with me.
I know that sound INCREDIBLY snobby but I don't think I was the only one who felt those sparks when we touch or feels queasy when were in a close range to each other.
"What-what are you doing?!" I barley croaked out. Tears threatened to spill my eyes in a matter of seconds, and before I leave, I need to know both their sides. I'm the not type to just run out of rooms with unresolved questions, I want the facts and I get them.
"Anna, I'm not going to say anything cheesy like "Its not what it seems", Its exactly what it seems, me and Chad are in a relationship, secret one really, and I want you, BEG YOU, not to tell anyone, if your my best friend you'll do that" A tear fell and I looked over at Mr.hamper to confirm what Vina just said, but surprisingly he looked helpless, almost sad, but, he said nothing. So I took that as confirmation of their relationship
It took all my effort to say what I said next. It hurt my heart knowing that I knew I had liked Mr.hamper all along, and this is how it feels when you find out their taken, almost like rejection. "You, do know what risks you would be taking being in a relationship right?" Mr.hamper and Vina both nodded and Vina looked at Mr.hamper lovingly. While, Mr.hamper gave, an almost forced smile back. He looked back up at me and gave me a weak smile, I did'nt return it and left.
My drive back home was filled with tears and hatred. How can Vina actually do something like this? She was not the slut type, she barley had a boyfriend only 1 or 2, and still they were'nt so exposing to their liking for each other. I grabbed my ipod and plugged into the car and heard my favorite band, "my chemical romance" the song Teenagers.
They’re gonna clean up your looks
With all the lies in the books
To make a citizen out of you
Because they sleep with a gun
And keep an eye on you son
So they can watch all the things you do
Because the drugs never work
They’re gonna give you a smirk
‘Cause they got methods of keeping you clean
They’re gonna rip up your heads
Your aspirations to shreds
Another cog in the murder machine
They said all teenagers scare
The living **** out of me
They could care less
As long as someone'll bleed
So darken your clothes
Or strike a violent pose
Maybe they’ll leave you alone, but not me
The boys and girls in a clique
The awful names that they stick
You’re never gonna fit in much, kid
But if you’re troubled and hurt
What you got under your shirt
Will make them pay for the things that they did
They said all teenagers scare
The living **** out of me
They could care less
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As long as someone'll bleed
So darken your clothes
Or strike a violent pose
Maybe they’ll leave you alone, but not me
Oh yeah
They said all teenagers scare
The living **** out of me
They could care less
As long as someone'll bleed
so darken your clothes
Or strike a violent pose
Maybe they’ll leave you alone, but not me
All together now
Teenagers scare
The living **** out of me
They could care less
As long as someone'll bleed
So darken your clothes
Or strike a violent pose
Maybe they’ll leave you alone, but not me
Teenagers scare
The living **** out of me
They could care less
As long as someone'll bleed
So darken your clothes
Or strike a violent pose
Maybe they’ll leave you alone, but not me
I arrived home right when the song was done. I went to bed, not bothering to answer the calls on my phone or my brother screaming for me, asking why I was crying. I just needed to go to my room and thinks things through. And thats what I did_____________________________________________________________________________________
Next morning:
"Come on Anna, please call me back, we need to talk about this, you cant just dodge me, please call me, bye." That was the 13th voicemail I got from Vina, and theres no way in hell I'm talking to her. As cold as that seems, she never seemed to be the slut type, to do it with her teacher? Even though I had thoughts of duing, I never actually made a move, knowing the risks and concequesnces.
But what does she do? She lets her feelings get in the way of her concience. I didnt go to school today, too scared to face mr.hamper and Vina. The look mr.hamper gave me confused me as well. Why would he give me that look of, sadness? What he worried I would tell? No matter how much I dissapprove of their relatonship, I woud never forget the fun times I had with Vina, and I would never think of ratting them out. I sighed and go out of bed to stop my mopeing around. I walked out and saw my brother in the couch watching mtv. I sighed, I thought he would be at school!
He's been yelling at me to get out the room so he could ask me what was wrong. Thinking of it now, he really acts like a father figure. Why? I have no freaking idea, considering hes younge than me, hes just protective i guess.
My mothers moved away I belive, well, shes basiclly a stranger to me, so it doesnt bother me or my brother. I still feel weird, not having parents, but im pratically 18, but that doesnt stop me from crying late at night.
"Jacob, why the hell didint go to school? " He looked up at me and farrowed his eyes. He looked very mad, never seen his mad actually
"I heard what Vina did, are you ok?" He barley said. I looked at his suprised, how the hell did he know that? Vina would'nt tell him that! A tear fell from his eye and I went to hug him.
"How did you know? Why are you crying, please dont cry, your my little brother" That was true, since he was small I hated when he cried. Once when a boy was making fun of him in 3rd grade, I went to his school, into his classroom, and yelled at his teacher for allowing this. The boy said my brother was a (bunch of bad words). How he knew this language, have no idea.
"It's just, she could get into a lot of trouble, and I dont want her getting hurt by him." I smiled weakly at him and pulled him into another hug.
"i'm sorry I can't stop it, its just, she choise this, she knows the danger of getting caught." I cant belive this is actually real. I have to now admit to myself that I liked, mr.hamper than a student should, and now, i feel awful. You know that feeling when you feel rejected? Well, that exactly how I feel and with my OWN best friend! Well, the universe just hates me, and my feelings.
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