❝ you fell into the deepest depression, baby ❞
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imessage (2)
justin: hey, babe. sorry i didn't text you properly yesterday, i was in the studio
justin: sel?
it was happening. selena knew it. she was going into the asleep – what she calls it. where the darkness gets too much, and she feels numb all over. when you're in the asleep, you don't know what you're doing – everything just happens and you're just there.
when you're awake though, you control everything. everything is exhilarating. the night on the balcony – she was in the asleep. but when she told theresa everything, the night from coming back from the hawaii trip, and on the hawaiian trip – she was in the awake.
justin: did you sign the contract?
selena thumped a message to justin, the only light source in her room – she was sitting on that window seat again.
selena: yeah, two days ago
justin: hey !! you replied !!
selena: yeah, lol?
justin: lol
justin: wyd
selena: nm; wby?
justin: nothing...
justin: u ok?
seen 22:19
she couldn't afford to lie to justin; so instead she comes off the conversation, put's her phone on silent, and throw's it onto her bed, engulfing the dark.