Author's Notes: Alright, my lovelies, I want your feedback! I can't supply all of my vanity! Just kidding! But I'm not kidding about the me wanting feedback part: well, more feedback. I wanna know what YOU, yes, YOU think! ~~Alex
Quotes of the Day:
"OWNED! Haha, I bet Adam's like "Wait, what? What the hell? Whoa Big guys, get offa me!" LOL. But I still don't understand why Adam doesn't just kick his Bitch to the curb, SOCK IT TO HER, SOCK IT TO HER! You know what I want the little bi'atch to do? Jump off a bridge. With no bungee cord. Or life-preserver. No People screaming "NUUUUUUU!!!" In fact, people shall holler "GOODBYE, SHITFACE!" and "I HOPE YOU GO TO HELL, SCRATCH THAT, I KNOW YOU WILL!" and "HAPPY DAYS ARE HERE AGAIN!!!!" And to Adam and Rachel "KISSKISSKISS!" And little Bi'atch shall never be seen again. (Except when she meets Ricky in hell) JOY TO THE WORLD, THE WHORE IS DEAD! I BARBEQUED HIS (yes, his) HEAD! Bitch is out :D Woot~" - longtime321
"Eeeeekkkkk!!!! Adam is the DUMBEST BITCH IN THE HISTORY OF DUMB BITCHES!!!! Why the FUCK got to her fuckin concert and "love" her but still be with that WHORE of a girlfriend! I will personally use my awesomeness ninja skill and jump in the computer and kick his wimpy ass!!! MWAHAHA!!! Then I will take him and tie his body to a rail road track run him over and bury his body next to RICKY! Hahaha!!! And then I'll dance on his grave and eat some super crunchy peanut butter!!! Cuz there is never a wrong time for peanut butter :) ummmmmm.... I LURVE ur story!!! Keep writing and possibly have Adam "accidently" jumped by someone *hint, hint* hehe! Here is a virtual cookie for writng such a fantastical story! *pats u on head* Byeeee!!!!" -ReyMysterioFreak619
"OMG!! THAT RETARDED FUCK! HOW CAN HE NOT DESERVE HER CALLING THE SECURITY GAURD!?!? SERIOUSLY!? HE. DESERVES. IT! PERIOD. NO QUESTION MARK. NO NADA! HOW CAN HE HAVE NOT DUMPED JULIANA!?!? IS HE THAT BIG OF A FUCKTARD!? SHE IS SUCH A FUCKING SKANK! LIKE SERIOUSLY! WHAT THE FUCK!? HOW COULD HE!! WHEN YOU LOVE SOMEBODY YOU NEVER STOP! AND APPARENTLY HE NEVER EVER EVER! LEARNED THAT RULE! GOD DAMMIT! HE IS SUCHA DUMN-FUCK!!!" - AnitaMonique
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"Adamster... I have a surprise!" Juliana cried from behind the door to Adam's bedroom.
"She is so annoying," Kia mouthed to Drew.
Drew just rolled his eyes, signaling he agreed.
Juliana burst in, and Adam nearly choked on his Pepsi when he saw what she was holding: a little four-year old boy's hand.
"What the...?" Kia asked.
"Who is that?"
Juliana glared at Adam for being so unsupportive.
"Your son," she said confidently.
This time, Adam actually choked on his Pepsi.
"Excuse me?"
"I said, he's your son," she repeated.
"How the fuck is that possible?"
"Well, remember that party five years ago?"
"No."
"Well, I was there, that's when I met you. We were so wasted, and we slept together, but I left when I realized I just slept with a stranger. Well then, I went to the doctor and he told me I was pregnant. I had the baby, Patrick Adam Hart, and I couldn't take care of him. So my mom took him in. Then I came to look for you, since you're the father of my child. And we've been together ever since."
Adam's mouth was opened in shock.
"And you're just telling me this now?"
"I was scared."
"So? You had three years to tell me! What is wrong with you?"
"Nothing is wrong with me! I was just nervous for our son!"
"Oh, dear God," he muttered.
A child with Juliana was not what he planned.
Yes, he admits to having slept with Juliana.
But he was sure he hadn't met her until three years ago.
He didn't even go to a party after Rachel left.
Until he met Juliana, that is; she forced him.
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"Gah; it is freezing!" I squealed.
Unfortunately for me, it is now December.
I hate the cold.
What's so cool about the cold, anyways?
Absolutely nothing, that's what!
I went into the recording studio and saw a girl I'd never seen before there. She was a petite brunette, and looked about seventeen.
She smiled when she saw me, and she approached me.
I smiled politely and greeted her.
"I'm Macy. I'm a huge fan! I just got my big shot in the music biz! You are like, my role model!"
I smiled warmly and thanked her.
Hmm. This girl is practically worshipping me at my feet.
I think she'd be nice to have around.
I'm nearly done recording my second album. It's really not that hard at all. This time it didn't take me nearly as long as it did last time, because last time I was pregnant. That was a small problem.
I walked to the studio and wrapped up another song:
"Did you forget...?
That I was even alive?
Did you forget...?
Everything we ever had?
Did you forget...?
Did you forget, about me?
"Did you regret...?
Ever standing by my side?
Did you forget...?
What we were feeling inside?
Now I'm left... to forget... about us.
"But somewhere we went wrong.
We were once so strong.
Our love is like a song.
You can't forget it.
I seriously felt like crying at this point.
"So now I guess...
This is where we have to stand.
Did you regret...?
Ever holding my hand?
Never again,
Please don't forget.
Don't forget.
"We had it all...
We were just about to fall
Even more in love,
Than we were before.
I won't forget.
I won't forget... about us.
"But somewhere we went wrong.
We were once so strong.
Our love is like a song.
You can't forget it.
"Somewhere we went wrong.
We were once so strong.
Our love is like a song.
You can't forget it... at all
A single tear rolled down my face. This happens anytime I sing any of my songs. Sometimes I'm strong enough to suck it up and just sing, but that rarely happens. This is what I get for pouring my heart out into my songs. All of the unsaid emotions happening inside of me are inscribed into each of my new songs.
"And at last...
All the pictures have been burned.
And all the past...
Is just a lesson that we've learned.
I won't forget.
I won't forget us.
"But somewhere we went wrong.
Our love is like a song.
But you won't sing along.
You've forgotten... about... us."
I took in a deep breath and let it out to calm myself so I wouldn't break down crying.
Sierra ran in, chanting, "Breathe in, breathe out, breathe in, breath out..."
I finally relaxed and we continued.
"I'm so tired of being here...
Suppressed by all my childish fears.
And if you have to leave,
I wish that you would just leave.
'Cause your presence still lingers here...
And it won't leave me alone.
"These wounds won't seem to heal.
This pain is just too real.
There's just too much that time cannot erase.
"When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears.
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears.
And I held your hand through all of these years.
But you still have... all of me.
"You used to captivate me...
By your resonating life.
Now I'm bound by the life you've left behind.
Your face it haunts...
My once pleasant dreams...
Your voice it chased away...
All the sanity in me...
"When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears...
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears.
And I held your hand through all of these years.
But you still have... all of me.
"I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone...
But though you're still with me...
I've been alone all along.
"When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears...
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears.
And I held your hand through all of these years.
But you still have... all of me."
This song is probably my favorite. I can completely and totally relate to it, even more than my other songs.
The next day we finished my last song:
"Now I will tell you what I've done for you
50 thousand tears I've cried.
Screaming, deceiving and bleeding for you
and you still won't hear me.
(Going under)
Don't want your hand this time I'll save myself.
Maybe I'll wake up for once (wake up for once)
Not tormented daily defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom
"I've died again
"I'm going under (going under)
Drowning in you (drowning in you)
I'm falling forever (falling forever)
I've got to break through
I'm going under
"Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies.
(So I don't know what's real)
(So I don't know what's real and what's not)
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can't trust myself anymore
"I've died again
"I'm going under (going under)
Drowning in you (drowning in you)
I'm falling forever (falling forever)
I've got to break through
"I've...
"So run and scream
Scream at me I'm so far away (so far away)
I won't be broken again
I've got to breathe I can't keep going under
"I've died again
"I'm going under (going under)
Drowning in you (drowning in you)
I'm falling forever (falling forever)
I've got to break through
"I'm going under (going under)
I'm going under (drowning in you)
I'm going under."
This song doesn't define my situation as well. It makes it seem like I'm trying to forget Adam... which I'm not exactly "trying".
Not anymore, at least.