Before I had even realized it, Christmas break had come and I was heading home back to my parents and away from Professor Hemmings and all of my problems for a little while. My parents were excited to see me, and hounded me for a few minutes about my English grade but overall tried to make Christmas a fun break for me, and I needed it a lot.
I went back to the school for New Years with Alex and the girls just a few days before school was supposed to start up again. They always do a party that usually goes until about 2 in the morning when all the teachers are grumpy about partying teenagers, which gives the perfect opportunity for some students to sneak into empty classrooms and get laid because all the teachers are too tired to go around monitoring anything.
Considering there weren't many students there when I first got back anyways, the teachers that were there were still watching everyone like a hawk, and unfortunately Professor Hemmings was one of them. The afternoon I got back, he stopped in the hallway to stare at me for a moment before offering to carry my bag up to my dorm for me. I said yes but only because I didn't want to lug it all the way up the stairs.
"Hey Daisy," Alex pulled me in for a tight hug when I met up with him at dinner that night, considering we hadn't seen each other in about a week and a half. He gave me a quick kiss on the lips and sat with me since the girls were supposed to get back the following morning.
"Do you want to go get breakfast tomorrow morning?" he asked me as we sat and ate our dinner, chatting a little and for once not arguing.
"Sure," I said. "What time?"
"Does 9 work?" he asked, and I nodded.
"Perfect," he smiled, leaning in and kissing my cheek.
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I spent a little extra time in the bathroom that morning, making sure my hair looked nice before I went to meet up with Alex. I walked out and made my way down to the main hall, where we decided we would meet up before we walked out to breakfast together. He held my hand as we walked, in a good mood already, which put me into a better mood.
"How did you sleep?" he asked me when we sat down and had ordered our food. I ordered pancakes of course, I'm surprised I'm not fat because of how much I love pancakes.
"I slept really well, actually," I said. "I've had a lot of trouble sleeping lately but I fell asleep right away and I slept right through the night."
"That's good," he said. "Are the tutoring sessions with Hemmings getting any better?"
"I don't want to talk about him," I said. "He's such a dick, and he isn't important. This is about you and I right now."
"Okay," he smiled. "Well, how about I talk about how cute that sweater is on you. Is it new?"
"Yes," I said, looking down at it. "My parents gave it to me for Christmas."
"I like the color," he said. "It brings out your eyes."
I felt my cheeks heat as I smiled at him across the table.
The majority of our breakfast went like this, plus a whole lot of laughing and having a genuinely good time together, which we hadn't done in a really long time. I was laughing and really happy for the first time in what felt like years, and I even had to wipe away a few tears from laughing so hard. I had just finally had the faith restored in our relationship that I'd been needing, and it felt so amazing until once again something had to stand in the way.
"Hey Alex," a girl with shoulder length hair that honestly looked a little bit like me except that her hair was brown, not red, came and stood at the table looking between Alex and I. His jaw immediately set and I grew confused at what was going on.
"Who's this?" she asked, pointing to me and looking at him curiously. "Is this Daisy? The girl you told me about?"
"Jessica, go away," he snapped, and I was taken back by his rudeness. Alex has never in his life been so rude to a girl.
"What's going on?" I asked.
"Nothing is going on, Jessica needs to leave," Alex said, glaring at the girl that was still standing there. I grew even more confused and expected an explanation pretty soon.
"Oh, does Daisy not know?" Jessica asked. "You haven't told her? I thought you would have by now."
"What are you talking about?" I asked her, and she turned to me and smiled, then turned back to Alex.
"Alex, would you care to explain to Daisy what I'm talking about?" she said.
"Jessica, I swear to God, if you don't leave--"
"Alex stop!" I snapped. His face went pale just then and Jessica smirked at him. "Are you going to give me an explanation for what's going on?"
"I asked Jessica to leave," he said, his face turning a little pink, and I knew he was getting angry.
"Why does she need to leave so badly?" I asked.
"Because he doesn't want you finding out," she said.
"Doesn't want me finding out what?" I asked. "Alex, just tell me. I'm not hiding anything from you, why are you all of a sudden hiding things from me?"
"Yeah, Alex, why don't you just tell her?" she said. "Put the poor girl out of her misery."
This couldn't be good.
"Alex." I used my stern motherly tone with him and I saw him frown and look as though he was going to panic, but I knew I'd gotten my way.
"I went to a party a while ago," he said. "That week that we weren't speaking because I thought there was something between you and Hemmings."
Oh god no.
"And Jessica here, was at this party." He stopped and looked down at his hands on the table, Jessica smiling at him. He had a severe scowl on his face. "And she sort of, kissed me."
My stomach dropped.
"Continue," she said.
"There's more?!" I practically gasped. Alex put his hand on his forehead. I felt like my heart rate had picked up to an unhealthy speed and as though I might throw up my breakfast.
"Oh yeah, there's a lot more," she said. "Go on, Alex."
"And so then we made out," he said. "For like only a couple minutes, and then I told her to leave me alone because it wasn't going to happen because I wasn't interested. It took me a while to realize you're the one that I wanted, Daisy, and nothing about that has changed."
"Are you fucking serious?" I stopped, Jessica smirking before she blew Alex a kiss, said a very insincere "sorry" to me and walked away.
"Daisy, I swear, it only happened once and it's not going to happen again."
"You're right," I said, standing up.
"I'm so glad you understand that I'd never cheat on you," he said, trying to stand and take my hand too.
I pulled away. "You're right. You'd never cheat on me because I'm not yours."
"What?" his face fell back into concern again. "What, you're breaking up with me?"
"This was the last straw, Alex," I said. "I did nothing wrong that week! You took yourself an entire week and I thought it was you sorting out for own shit but you were lip locked with some bitch the entire time!"
"But it wasn't like that," he insisted. "I swear, Daisy, I never meant to hurt you and I never meant for anything like that to happen. And it won't happen again."
"I already told you you're right," I said. "It's kinda impossible to cheat on a girlfriend you don't have."
I got up and took my purse, Alex seemingly giving up on trying to convince me. If he knew me well enough, he'd know that when I decide something, my mind is made up for good.
As I walked back to my dorm, I was fuming with anger. I didn't know what else to do, so I just sat on my bed and stared at the ground for a minute before I stood and punched the wall, which was a big mistake.
That's when the tears came. I looked down at my hand that was beginning to swell up but I felt nothing in my hand. The pain was all in my chest.
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A/N: this was really sad yikes
this won't always be this sad I swEaR just bear with me
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