Once and for all...
"W-what?!
Her tears can't stop from flowing, her world suddenly stops and she felt her heart shattered into pieces.
"The night I saw you in that bar is the first night as a married man.
"B-Bakit ngayon mo lang s-inabi? -mahinang wika Niya
God. Mas masakit palang malaman Ang dahilan Niya, masakit tanggapin Ang katotohanan. Sobrang sakit.
"Hinde ko inexpect na mahulog Ako sayo sweetie. That night in the bar is my first night as a married man, since the first I saw you there dun pa lang nahulog agad Ako sayo.
"K-Kaya ba hiniling mo sa akin nung una na Huwag kitang lapitan? Huwag kitang tignan? Di kita kakausapin?
He nod and he is starting to cry too.
"Dahil mas lalo akong nahuhulog sayo sweetie kapag nakatingin ka sa akin, my heart cannot stop from beating hard whenever you're near. I can't even concentrate for
What I'm doing Kasi lagi kang sumasagi sa isipan ko.
"Kuha ko na ngayon. Kaya pala. Kaya pala.
"Ayokong magkasala pero Hindi ko pa din napigilan. Nang gabing nakita kita, I asked someone to give information about you. Nalaman ko sa school ka ng uncle ko nag-aaral, I can't get you out of my mind Kaya kahit Wala akong Alam sa pagtuturo ay hiningi ko Kay uncle na Ako Ang hahawak sa klase niyo Dahil Alam Kong nandun ka. I want to see you, Kahit na--- kahit na tignan lang kita ayos na sa akin.
"Bakit ngayon mo lang ito sinabi. -saad Niya at mas lalong humagulgol
Wala na siyang pakialam Kung marinig man ng mga kasama Nila sa labas Ang iyak Niya o kahit Ano Ang itsura Niya sa harap ni Vince. She wanted to cry and cry. Sobrang sakit, nagdurugo Ang puso sa mga sinasabi nito.
"Dahil naging duwag Ako sa nararamdaman ko para sayo and it's not right. -he whispered
"It's not right naman pala! Sana Hindi kana lang lumapit! Sana Hindi kana lang nagpakita Vince! Sana Hinayaan mo na lang Ako! Sana binalewala mo na lang Ako! Wala na sanang ganito! Damn it! You made me fall for you but left me hanging without reason and now you came back to tell me that you love me but you're fucking married! Ang daya mo! Ang daya daya mo Vince! I hold on, I strongly hope for you! -she shouted while crying hard
Vince on the other hand don't know what to do anymore, it's very hard for him to deal with the situation. Specially now.
"But how can it be wrong when I feel so right whenever I'm with you? Hindi ko maturuan Ang puso ko sweetie, I just find myself doing anything para makita ka lang, makasama ka lang. I end up stalking you everyday---
"Which explains why you're always there when I'm in need?
"Yes, it feels good every time you need help and I'm there for you. I was with you everyday kahit sa school, sa Buenavista o kahit saan kayo ni arianne pumupunta nakasunod Ako sa iyo sweetie. Hindi ko mapigilan, natutuliro na Ako sayo ng sobra. I'm so drown to you, I'm badly smitten and I find myself swooning over you.
"Why you're telling me this now Vince? Damn! You just broke my heart!
"Because I want you to know what I really feel for you sweetie, I want to let you feel how much I love you and that I want you.
"But you're married! You're fucking married! What will you expect me do now? Now that we're mutually the same?
He looked down sadly, he wipe his tears at pagkuway Huminga ng malalim.
"My parents don't know that I'm married even my whole family. The married thing is a secret.
"What?!
"It was just a mistake. Just a fucking one night stand, Hindi ko Alam na nagkabunga Ang gabi ng pagkakamali na iyon. I didn't know, I should be more careful.
"What the fuck?!
"The marriage thing is only between the woman I marry her parents don't know this either.
"Bakit?
"Because she's pregnant and one of these days our parents will know everything lalo na ngayon Dahil kabwanan na niya.
"My God! -she whispered
"I don't love her sweetie, it's just a mistake. -he whispered at hinawakan Ang kamay Niya but she refused
Nagulat si Vince sa ginawa Niya at pumikit
"Nagkamali kayong dalawa Pero Hindi pagkakamali Ang bata Vince. The baby didn't have anything to do about your stupidity, the baby. God.
"She don't even like the baby, she don't even like me. She loves somebody else but it's the child--- our family--- the reason why we agreed on marriage.
"Vince, marriage is a sacrament. Only for two people who are in love for each other! Hindi yung para sa pansariling kagustuhan lamang!
"I was wrong. Very wrong. I don't think about the mother of my child-- it's the child that I'm after. My parents will get furious about this-- my whole family. Nobody knows this dark secret of mine, just you. Just you--- right now.
Huminga din siya ng malalim, all he said is too much to take. It's too much to contain. Sumasakit Ang ulo Niya sa mga nalaman. Tumahimik siya and She gently massage her temple.
"Will you still love me and hold on for me now that you know the truth? -he then asked
Napatigil siya at tumingin Kay Vince, his eyes are pleading and waiting for her to talk. His face is unusual but still handsome. He looks devastated yet fragile.
"Vince, my love for you didn't change even after you said that you're married. I still love you, even you're the darkest person with forbidden secrets. I love you, you know that. Yet we cannot change the fact that you're married, we cannot do anything about that. You will be a father soon and I can't hold you now. I really can't.
"Sweetie. Oh god. No. No. Don't do that. The promise right? Here I am, nagpakita Ako sayo. You will not let me go right? You won't right? -taranta nitong wika at naluluha na naman
"Vince, the situation is different from what we're expecting. Ang bata Ang pinag uusapan natin dito vince. Yes I need you but The child needs you more and I'm sure you will be a good father for him/her.
"But I love you! I will fix this sweetie. Kaya nga Ako nagpakita ngayon Kasi I decided to straighten things out. I cannot afford to lose you, I don't want you far from me anymore. I want you, I need you more than anything. Please. Sweetie.
He cried in front of her, lumuhod pa Ito sa harap niya. Dun na siya mas lalong umiyak kasabay sa hagulgol ni Vince. Sobrang higpit ng Hawak ni Vince sa kamay niya he don't even blink while looking at her kahit hilam na hilam na sa luha Ang mga mga mata Nila Pareho.
Hinihila Niya Ito para tumayo Pero Hindi Ito tuminag,
"I love you more Vince but I cannot afford to be the reason why you will do something to fix the hole between us. Just let it be, it's the choice you choose. Be happy with her.
Again, everything is up between the choice and what you choose. Just like what she did when he left.
"It was the wrong choice, damn it! I can be a father without marrying her. That's the worst decision I ever made. And I can't be happy, because it's not you. Sayo lang Ako masaya celestine, Ikaw lang Ang mahal ko.
"Vince, please. I am letting you go not because of the woman you marry or because your married. I am letting you go because I'm thinking about the child who don't have nothing to do about it and I am letting you go because I love you even it hurts like hell for me, even it breaks my heart, even if I don't know if I could forget you.
"No. No. Don't say that. I will fix this, I will set everything straight. This time it is all worth it. You may let me go but--- never I'm not letting you go, I will still do everything for you to come back to me.
"But vince---
"Let me take care of everything sweetie. It's my fault after all, I brought you into this and so I have to deal with the consequences but don't get out of my life. I want you to stay, stay beside me and be with me for the rest of this fight. Let's face this together please?
"Vince Hindi mo naiintindihan, ano na Lang ang sasabihin ng iba?
"Fuck that. I don't care!
"Your selfish.
"Call me selfish but fuck, I just love you so much.
"Kerida, kabit, third party, wrecker, lascivious harlot, what else to name? Iyan ang sasabihin Nila sa akin vince. I'm sorry, I love you--- very much in fact more than you do but I don't want to be the reason why the family you just started to build will wreck that easily.
"Sweetie---
"Vince. This is hard for me too. Mahirap para sa akin na I-let go ka ng ganun kadali pero yung sitwasyon ngayon. Mahirap. Mahirap ang sitwasyon Ngayon. Kahit baligtarin man natin ang mundo still it wouldn't change. Even our love for each other.
"No. I am the captain of my ship and I can change that. I can change everything in just a snap, please don't do this sweetie. Please.
"Para one time na Lang ang sakit vince, para once and for all. Tell me if who's the girl. Para naman aware ako kahit papano.
That's a statement not a question. To kill the curiously she's holding.
"D-dorothy.
"Shit! -gulat niyang wika at napatayo
"I'm so---
"Really vince? Pinsan ko? And you're asking me to fight with you? Really? -she's now furious
"Sweetie.
"God! Thank you! Thank you for being so honest with me. Damn it! I don't know if I can still move on from this! You just killed me vince, you just did. Please get out of this room. Before I forgot that I love you.