Sweetie...
Nawalan siya ng appetite Pero naubos naman Niya Ang pagkain, after dinner dinala siya ni Vince sa isang lugar na tanaw Ang buong manila.
She was quiet after the conversation, maraming tanong Ang nasa isip Niya ngayon na kahit tanungin Niya Ito Kay Vince ay Hindi pa din nito sasabihin sa kanya.
"Wear this. -mahinang wika ni Vince sabay tanggal ng jacket Niya at sinuot Kay Celestine
"Ok lang Ako. Ikaw naman ngayon Ang lalamigan niyan.
"I'm ok.
Then silence came back, may something sa loob Niya na pigil na pigil lang. Bigla siyang nakaramdam ng lungkot, and it bothers her.
"Bakit kailangan mo pang pumasok sa buhay ko Kung Hindi kana man magtatagal? -she asked
"There are things that are complicated and hard to patch up, if I have a chance again mas pipiliin Kong Huwag ng umalis sa buhay mo.
"Ok Na nga sana Vince eh, sinunod ko yung mga sinabi mo. Sana ganun Na Lang, sana Hindi mo Lang ako kinausap. Hindi mo Na Lang sana ako niyayang mag dinner. Hindi mo Na Lang sana ako nilapitan.
"I'm sorry celestine, if only I could turn back the time. I would. For you.
Pumikit siya,
"Para Hindi ako mag isip ng Kung ano, para Hindi ako maguluhan, para Hindi ako magtaka Kung bakit mo ginagawa Ito.
"It's for your own good Celestine, Kung malalaman mo Ang dahilan ko--- mas lalo mo Lang akong layuan.
"My own good? Bakit are you battling with the evil? And if malaman ko? That's bullshit vince.
"If you'll find out the reason, you will not fight for me. Much better if it goes like this, that at least for this special night--- nakasama kita, I get the chance to see you, talk with you, hold you. For the last time naranasan Kong maging Masaya Sa iyo.
"Mabigat Ang loob ko Vince, bakit kailangan ganyan?
"Celestine, the only thing that I can say now is once in my life--- what I felt since the first time I saw you is right. But my decision are wrong. I had a wrong move.
"Your like a jigsaw puzzle, the hardest one Vince. Ang Hirap ayusin at itagpi tagpi Ang mga sinasabi mo.
"Hindi ko Na din Alam Ang gagawin ko celestine.
"Mas lalo mo Lang din akong binigyan ng dahilan para kulitin ka hangga't Hindi mo sasabihin Sa akin.
"I can't tell you. Mahirap sabihin gayong ako mismo ay Hindi gusto Ang nangyari. It was a mistake, It's not intended--- the outcome shouldn't be like that, I shouldn't do that anyway. -naguguluhang wika ni Vince
"If I beg you, may mangyayari ba? -she asked
"Nothing. Walang mangyayari Celestine, nakatakda na.
"And if I say that I need you in my life, how is that Vince?
The talking is getting deep, they're both serious about it. She never saw Vince like this, so fragile.
She's one lucky girl that she was able to witness the weak side of the famous Vince Jonathan Aristocrat.
It took minutes before he talk, like it was a hard question.
"How I wish I could be there for you-- when you need me. Dahil Sa totoo Lang masarap Sa pakiramdam ko Na protectahan ka, and help you. But destiny is too hard at me, I can't--- I can't. You won't need me anymore celestine.
"That's bullshit. Really. So where strangers again huh?
"That's suppose to be,
Tumahimik siya, pigil na pigil lang Ang kanyang systema. Gusto niyang sumabog Pero sa Anong dahilan? Aaminin niyan mabigat Ang loob Niya ngayon, nalulungkot siya.
"But thank you, at least you're honest with me Vince. You showed me the other side of yours and I will miss you. -mahinang wika Niya sabay tingin ng malalim dito
He looks hurt, he looks fragile, he looks like he's got the worlds worst problem, he looks broken and damaged. But he still looks good.
"Can I hug you celestine? -he then asked in raspy voice
"Of course. -she whispered not leaving his gaze
Nang kumilos si Vince para ikulong siya sa mga bisig nito ay dun Niya napagtanto na kailangan Niya din ng kayakap ngayon. She really needs a hug.
Naramdaman na lang Niya na Basa na Ang kanyang mukha, humagulgol na siya ng tuluyan. Pero Bakit? Why is she hurting? Bakit nasasaktan siya?
"Fuck. You are making this hard for me sweetie. -he whispered
Hindi Niya Alam Kung Anong meron, Kung Ano Ang nakapagitan sa kanila ni Vince, Kung Bakit ganun na lang agad Ang naramdaman Niya. It was so sudden but it feels like they've known each other for long.
"Sweetie, please. -he pleaded
Hindi Niya Alam Kung gaano sila katagal na magkayakap the only thing that marked in her head right now is the way he called her.
"Sana ganito na lang tayo lagi, yung Ikaw at ako lang. -wika ni Vince
"Hindi na pwede, Kasi Ikaw na mismo Ang nagkusang lumayo. Kahit naguguluhan, Alam Kong nasa Tama iyang decision mo. Naiintindihan ko naman Vince. Just promise me one thing please?
He stiffened,
"What if I break the promise?
"Kung babaliin mo, you have to do something.
"Like what?
"Promise me--- na Hindi kana magpapakita pa sa akin Vince.
"But---
"Baka Hindi ko kakayanin Vince, Baka mahulog Ako tapos Hindi mo Ako magawang saluhin.
"And if---
"Kapag Hindi mo nagawa iyon. Kailangan maging handa ka--- maging handa na saluhin Ako kahit gaano pa kalala Ang sitwasyon. Once na magpakita ka sa akin, Hinding hindi kana makakawala pa.
"Sweetie, what you're asking is very hard for me.
"Walang impossible sa iyo Vince.
"For you I will but I am not really sure about it.
Mahina lang Ang takbo ni Vince ng pauwi na sila. Isang kamay lang Ang Hawak nito sa manibela habang Ang isa ay nakahawak sa kamay Niya na nakapulupot sa bewang nito.
She's hugging and holding him tight. She doesn't want to end the night, she wanted to to be with him for long but it's getting late at Alam niyang pagagalitan na siya ng mommy at daddy Niya.
"I don't want this night to end. I should ask your parents that I'll bring you home early in the morning instead. -he whispered
"Vince Hindi ko Alam Kung Anong meron tayo ngayon at higit sa lahat Tama ka--- it may be so sudden but it just happened. What I am feeling right now with you is happiness and unexplainable. I want to be with you more but time don't permit.
Matagal sila sa ganung position Kahit na nasa harap na sila ng gate Nila, it's hard for her to let him go but she needs to. Dahan dahan niyang pinakawala Ang kamay na nakapulupot sa bewang nito at walang ganang bumaba sa motor nito.
Siya na din Ang nagtanggal ng helmet sa ulo Niya at binigay Kay Vince ito, when their eyes met she couldn't help but to cry again.
Nakita Niya Kung paano nahihirapan si Vince sa pinapakita Niya but she couldn't help,
"Thank you. -she whispered
Bumaba si Vince sa motorbike nito at nilapitan siya Sabay pahid sa mga luha niya, hinila siya nito at mahigpit na niyakap uli.
"I'm gonna miss you Vince. Please take care of your self. -wika Niya
Pinakawala na siya nito and it hurts even more lalo na makita niya Kung gaano nasasaktan Ang itsura ni vince,
"Go now, it's getting late. Be careful when driving, be safe--Always. -taboy Niya dito
It takes seconds before sumampa sa motorbike si Vince, tumalikod na siya dito at nagsimulang kumilos Dahil mas lalong bumibigat ang pakiramdam Niya na makitang aalis na ito--- for good.
Nang pinaandar nito Ang makina ay napatigil siya,
"Vince. -mahinang saad niya at lumingon uli
Sinalo nito Ang tingin niya and before she knew, tinakbo Niya Ang pagitan Nila.
Hindi Niya maintindihan Pero Pakiramdam Niya ay Tama.
And that She kissed him, even if she don't know how.
"God damn it sweetie.