Date: 18-02-2016
Broken Christmas
That Christmas morning
I lay next to a beautiful stranger
and when he opened his eyes I believed
that there was no other place on Earth I'd be.
But the longer I looked the more I woke up
to the startling truth of all the lies
behind that green fleck of mischief and charm
lay the deceit and ugliness of a smile that disarms.
Maybe if I'd looked harder the first time
I could have seen the truth and run far away
from a dangerous boy with secrets to hide
and a disastrous love that would break me apart.
He destroys me from the inside
with his beautifully woven lies
and I always pretend to believe that it'll get better
as I did again last night.
'It's okay,' I tell myself
'You're not in the wrong
You owe it to yourself
So try to move on.'
But I can't.
I can't take the first step
To rid me of this toxic love
That continues to manifest.
A single smile is all I need
To make me fall again
Into his games
Into his arms.