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wednesday.
"can't believe you've been blonde for like a month already." luke exhaled as he laid down on the bed.
andie briefly grinned while blow drying her hair and gazed at her reflection in the mirror. she turned the object off when done using it, and jumped down on his bed.
"the past days have just rolled by so quickly." she mumbled and crossed her arms against her stomach.
"true. i can't even remember what i've done." he laughed and put an arm behind his head.
"well, you've for sure been hanging out with me a lot. you've been baking, bothering me at work, laying in this bed and watching the walking dead with me... and we've been making out. a lot." she turned to her side, folded her arms together against his chest and smiled at him.
"wow." he looked back at her. "you know i can't keep my hands off of you."
"great way to make it sound dirty." she laughed and rested her head against his shoulder instead.
luke glanced down at her with a soft smile and wrapped an arm around her. he only saw the top of her head, but it was literally enough to put a smile on his face.
"can you believe we've only dated for a month or so? feels like a lot longer than that." he uttered and rubbed her shoulder with his thumb.
"one month and eleven days." she said quietly with a weak smile. "well, since you found out about calum and i asked you to be my boyfriend."
"i'm still mad at michael for eating half our pizza on our anniversary."
"yeah, me too. i was very hungry." she giggled tiredly and put a hand against his chest, only for him to start fiddling with her fingers.
"may i ask for the permission to become cheesy for a moment?" he asked, putting a stupid smile on her face.
"request granted." she laughed quietly and waited for him to speak.
"i just want to thank you for giving me a chance and not ignoring me completely. actually, i'm so glad we weren't friends before i began to like you, it would've been so much harder. the fact that you're in my arms right now is still so surreal to me. i adore you so much, andie, and thanks for opening up to me, i understand you better now. i'm rushing this because i'm afraid you'll fall asleep any second, so i just want to say that i—"
"oh my gosh, are you about to drop the l-word?" she cut him off without thinking and frowned slightly.
"i was going to say that i adore you." he chuckled and licked his lips. "because i'm not sure what love is."
"love is intimacy, commitment, dedication, a playful but deep affection abd understanding. it's passion, longing, trust and compromises. it's... i don't know, i'm not sure." she mumbled and laced their fingers together.
"what do you feel when you're with me? considering you're not fond with showing emotions." he asked carefully.
"oh boy." she exhaled and propped her upper body up with her elbow against the bed. "when i'm with you, i feel good. i feel comfortable and like myself. even if i'm different with you, i still know that i can be who i am without wondering what you think. i feel like whatever happens, we'll take it. if it works out, it works out. if it ends, it ends. regardless, i know it'll be worth it because i really like you. you're an amazing guy and you treat me so well. i don't really dare to analyze my feelings since we've only been together for such a short time and it feels strange, but... i definitely have strong feelings for you. and i can definitely feel that strong need to be with you, both mentally and physically. so... i know for certain that i like you and that i enjoy our... relationship, and how it feels like going home to a best friend when i come here."
andie caressed his cheek with her fingernails and kept her lips parted. the light from his table lamp illuminated his beautiful eyes, making it impossible for her to gaze away.
luke's mouth turned into a dimpled smile, and his fingers wrapped themselves around half her wrist and half her hand. he pulled her closer before resting a hand on the back of her head and doing what she did best; kissed her softly instead of vocally respond.
he had always liked and preferred that she so easily expressed her deeper feelings through a kiss. she never responded with words, he had taken notice of, but she carried so many feelings within a kiss, it almost seemed like a rare specialty.
she lifted one leg over his body so she straddled him while still laying down. tracing her fingers down his naked chest, she grazed her tongue against his bottom lip.
he slightly gulped as his free hand squeezed her hip, causing her to bite her own lip. he stroked the over sized t-shirt she was wearing — his t-shirt — up, exposing her pale skin. he couldn't help but to move his hand farther down, to the back of her thigh.
she opened her eyes and looked at him briefly before resting her lips on his collarbone. placing a few kisses there, she moved downwards and tucked some hair behind her ear.
luke felt his heart racing and how his fingers almost trembled. he chewed on his lip ring and stared at her, feeling a whole lot more flustered than he did a few minutes ago.
andie played with the top of his sweatpants, almost sensing his nervousness. she sat up straight and looked down at him, licking her lips.
"are you okay?" she asked with a faint frown and seized his hand in hers.
"yeah, why wouldn't i be?" he exhaled and sat up too, holding her hips.
"i'm sorry, i just never know if i should continue or not. you're still a virgin after all. and your hand's trembling." she explained, stroking the top of his hand carefully.
"well, isn't that thoughtful of you." he laughed and placed a brief kiss on her lips. "but yeah, i don't really know if i'm ready yet."
"yeah?" she mumbled and nodded a little in understanding.
"i mean... i'm ready to have sex, but i don't think i'm ready to make love." he blurted out.
"oh." she said, putting a thought to what he said since she's never thought like that.
"god, this sounds so cliché but it's true. it's a huge difference, and i really want to do it with you. i'm just really nervous when it comes to you, and the mere thought of, you know—" he rambled, and she had to put a hand against his mouth.
"it's not cheesy. i get it." she smiled and tilted her head to the side, looking into his gorgeous eyes, her blonde hair tumbled down and messy against her chest. "but now you mentioned the l-word."
"because when i do with you, i want to be absolutely sure that i love you." he said quietly and caressed her arm. "but who knows, maybe i already do? i did like you before i even knew you, why wouldn't i have fallen in love with you already?"
"who knows?" she giggled with a shrug and looked down at their laps. "i need to tell you something, and it will definitely ruin the moment."
"i hate it when you put it like that." he sighed and squeezed her hand. "shoot."
andie gazed at him for a while before telling him about dylan first, and their vague history. she was careful with her words, and when she reached the point with chad, luke's face hardened. it was evident he was afraid of what she'd say next, and when she told him about her grip of chad, he couldn't prevent the proud smile forming on his lips. she outleft the last thing chad had told her though.
as predicted, none of them said a word when she finished. he didn't know what to say; he was too angry over her ex practically stalking her. she was too tired to even discuss it — she just needed to tell him already and get it off her chest.
"say something." she whispered and bit on her lower lip.
"something." he grinned and and kissed her forehead. "he's creepy and stupid and i'm a bit freaked out for you."
"i'm not really scared, just angry. who even does such a thing?" she shook her head over the thought and pressed her lips together.
"a crazy ex boyfriend." he slowly laid down again, and she followed automatically.
"what time is it?" she asked and rolled down beside him instead.
"summertime." he sang in a whisper and grinned proudly.
"did you just—"
"yes."
"oh my gosh."
andie hopelessly closed her eyes and laughed quietly. she loved his references, most of the time. luke turned his head to look at her and knew she was going to fall asleep any second now.
"what do you want for breakfast tomorrow?" he asked quietly, even though he could predict her answer.
"waffles and tea." she mumbled, turned to lay on her side instead and closed her eyes while drifting of to sleep.
the next morning, andie woke up to an empty spot beside her. she dressed on proper clothes from the day before and sauntered over to the kitchen, where luke stood and just finished the waffles.
"morning." he greeted her without actually turning around and poured some hot water in a cup.
"hey. that smells amazing." she wrapped her arms around him from behind and rested her cheek against his back.
"why are you being so clingy?" he laughed and moved over to the kithen. while smirking, she clung onto him and stumbled behind.
"because last night was a good night and i'm happy." she shrugged and let go of him.
"did you use protection?" jack entered the kitchen with a smug smile and leaned against the walk.
"not like that, jack." she deadpanned and reached for the milk, but luke was ahead of her.
"are you sure?" he asked skeptically and crossed his arms.
both andie and luke only rolled their eyes simultaneously and finished their breakfast. liz soon joined them tiredly and began fixing some coffee. at first, she didn't even notice andie until the girl dropped a plastic glass and squealed out of surprise.
"andie, hi." liz smiled confused and gazed at the huge plate with a pile of waffles. "when did you...?"
"last night." andie responded with a sheepish smile.
"she climbed in through my window." luke provided his mother with more details than necessary.
andie harshly nudged luke's shoulder with her own and looked to the side, piercing her eyes through him. his mother really didn't need to know that she practically broke into his house like a robber.
"oh." liz said, raising her eyebrows almost as if being impressed.
"i'm sorry." andie apologized, even though it wasn't the first time she had done that.
"it's okay, but you can always knock on the door or simply walk in. we won't kill you." liz smiled and motioned towards the waffles. "may i have some?"
"of course." luke chuckled and put some extra plates on the table.
andie exhaled while filling the cup of tea with some milk, and then sugar. she mixed the contents in the cup and sat down by the table. luke joined her side and handed her some cutlery.
"did you really have to?" she asked quietly and kept her lips parted. he shrugged in response and put some waffles on their plates, sending her a playful wink.
they ate in silence and quickly, suddenly remembering school. andie fiddled with the ends of her hair while pacing around in luke's room as he changed clothes.
"can you hand me my—"
"got it." she cut him off and tossed him his pair of black jeans.
"and the—"
"catch." she said and carefully threw him his keys.
"thanks." he laughed and turned around, with his back facing her.
luke pulled off his shirt and reached for a black t-shirt. andie stared at his back while taking her botton lip inside her mouth. he put the shirt on and began changing his pants, which caused her to look away and put her phone in her back pocket.
"i hate that i always end up as the big spoon." she uttered after his change of clothing and walked out of the room.
"why?" he frowned and fixed his hair quickly.
"because calum was always the little spoon. and i thought i'd finally be the little one, but..." she mumbled and put on her shoes.
"he's the little spoon?" he giggled and followed her movements.
"mhm." she smirked and pursed her lips.
luke laughed, the thought of her and calum not even bothering him anymore. now, whenever she would tell him ridiculous but funny stories, he'd laugh and find it entertaining. he wasn't even near jealous anymore.
"bye, mum!" he called before exiting the house, with andie closely behind him.
she stared out the window as always when he drove to the school, admiring the beauty of nature. he parked the car carefully and even opened the door for her.
"cute." andie laughed as she stepped out of it and folded her arms together.
"i try." luke shrugged and walked with her, sliding his hands down his pockets.
"try harder." she joked and moved towards her locker. she opened it and started gathering her things.
"ouch." he said dramatically and closed his eyes, a hand against his chest. "hey, ands...?"
"yeah?" she mumbled and turned to look at him.
"there's something i feel like i need to tell you. it's nothing serious, not like that, but—"
"hey guys." ashton butted in, interrupting luke. andie rolled her eyes back in annoyance and closed her locker with force.
"hey." luke mumbled and nervously chewed on his lip ring.
"hi." britney grinned and turned her eyes to andie. "we've got math in like, two minutes."
"right." andie mumbled and gazed up at luke. "see you at lunch." she weakly smiled, stood on her toes and was about to give him a quick kiss.
"yeah." luke smiled, but leaned his head to the side and merely gave her a peck on the cheek before disappearing with ashton.
"well, that was weird..." britney mumbled as she walked beside the blonde girl in the hallway.
andie didn't respond, she didn't feel like it; she just stared straight forward and tried to not think about the complete disappointment that came with that rejection.
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a/n
what am i even doing with this story anymore
i've officially started my new fanfic, basorexia with matt daddario bc hot